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..bon appetite..

you're only a dinner set
when you're with a man who serves breakfast set


..slap me, please slap me hard..

ak pnh ckp, looking at sum1 dat u like/love while they're sleeping is sumtg


n it made me cry..

gosh..i do realize how stpd i am..wut an idiot i m..bt..bt..argh..bodo..!!

plz..slap me hard..wake me up from dis stupid dream dat m living in..



i noe i've been saying dis hundreds of times but..

i do feel dis is d last..

is it?



hmm nanges like an idiot..nsb bek de x sdar..if not mst kne marah..
msti de akn kate i told u bla bla bla..
msti de kate, c how dependent u r..
msti de kate, u r selfish n ignorant..

*sigh~

bt cyg..
thnx 4 meeting me today..
thnx 4 d dinner..
thnx 4 d movie..
i njoyed our time..u me n fz..
syg nina xda..



sumhow i look at u, i remember all those things in d msg...
it's juz a fling n it means nothing..
n d thing, it means nothing..


slap me, hard plz..

..there's gotta be somebody..

pnah dgr lagu pd tajuk d ats oleh nickelback?
dgr la..seswai utk org yg single spt ku ini..hehehe

sbelum ape²...
my 7th sem has officially ended..!!
so i got 1 more sem to go..
arap² ak akn grad on time =) insyaAllah..

ouh ya..aritu papa ade msg..saje tnye khbar ank de yg ehm x dgr kate ne..
sembang pasal pinggan royal albert, tp outcome nye?

amy: xpela..nnt kalu b.cik kawen, xda la susah sgt nk cr pinggan meja pengantin
papa: kalu pkai utk kamu kawen ape salahnya :-) :-) (erk???bior betul)
amy: hahaha..tu kena cari calon dulu (gelak nk cover musykil)
papa: mulakanlah pencarian..mane tau ade org nk anak papa ni (erkkkk????????)

oke, dat was not our typical normal conversation ok...bior btul papa ne??? seyes..ak suspect k.dik yg gatal reply msg aku..sbb ade smiley sgale bgai..seyes mdatangkn kemusykilan tahap tertinggi.. seyes...hahahaha seyes ak confuse..btul ke ayah aku yg msg dgn aku????

nxt..keadaan hati? sudah mati barangkali..sudah tiada rasa ape²..sudah malas maw rasa ape².. ye, mgkin at ti…

..kembali kepada memori..

abg long was here last nite..!!
huhu sgt ske..
ainina msg kate abg long call maw jupe..
da lama x jupe..
last skali jupe pn ms de dtg swichtec tnjuk kete (huh)..

jupe abg long pn da lewat smlm..da kul 12 lebey da..
org tua tu pulak nk mkn nasi..so menuju la ke d nangka (sbb tatau mkn mane yg sdap yg still buka pepagi bute..huhu)..
memule ucop pn ade..tp ms otw, tetbe da x nmpak da lori..abg long kate ucop segan pkai comot² sbb dorg kn bru blk dr site..
huh ngade ucop ne..bknnye mkn kt 5 star hotel pn..lempang kang..huh..

kami berempat pn mkn laaa late dinner..xle pgl supper sbb mkn berat..huhu
bcte psl abg long..
sejukkkk ati dgr ble de sbut "adik² aku ne"..
trase diri begitu dhargai..huhuhu

bsembang lama gk ngn abg long..
ye ar cte psl de je da berejam..
pastu cte psl kami pn, mengambil masa gk..
huhuhu puas ati dpt luahkn prasaan kt abg long =)
nnt kte pegi bcuti eyh abg long..huhuhuhu

tau kami blk kul bape??
kul 3.30 pg..mesti org keje d nangka pn bengang je tgu ktorg blah..huhu
tp xpe, ak p…

..aku bukan siapa-siapa untukmu..

hmm semua org da abes paper..aku je blom ag (ye classmate ak pn blom)..ahad baru officially my 7th sem ne tamat..aish, lmbt nye...tp std pn blom :D

badan ak kesakitan =( smlm pas dak umah ku yg 2 itu meninggalkn rumah terus kemas umah..huhuhu ak, nina n eila abes ubh seme blk..serabut ak tgk umah..basuh dapur, ubah itu ini.. mlm nye tolong hns agkt barang lk.. ouh ya my hsemts for nxt sem:
nur ainina ahmadfazila aziznurul hanis mohd nasiramirah salwani abbas (wah ak msh igt nama penuh die..!!)sape eyh sorg ag, mmbr c mirahhuhuhu saje nk mglemerkn hsmet ku..xdek keje..hasil dr mengemas umah, tlg hns n biah (biah jd jiran dpn umh) angkt barang, ak kesakitan blkg badan arine..huhu tangan sakit, my back hurts..huhuhu tp arine bjalan x hengat dunia..hehehe

nxt, sape x ske dgr luahan perasaan or jiwang karat besi buruk jgn proceed

hurm..guyz, tell me..
wut else shud i do or say when every word spoken is wrong n every action done is disaster?

seyesly, m at my wit's end..ak da tatau maw wtpe d…

..onLy fooLing mYseLf..

hmm sudah smpai d bumi mlk..
seyesly, m mentally n physically exhausted..
mau x nye, gado ngn org, kne marah ngn org, menanges psl org...
seme ade..seyes pnat..

maw tnye pd kamo seme...
wut is wrong with dis pictures??





ye..seseorg tiada =(
misses those times when four of us were together..seyesly=(


well ak ade paper day after tomorrow..sungguh malas maw mbaca subj BACA ini..hmm da lama x tdo ngn lil D..eh salah little D ngn gmok jr..rindu pada kamo..jap ag kte tdo together² ye sayangs ♥..hurm ble maw std ne..

td jupe lil D, fz, n len2..g mnum jp sbb dorg xle wt keje, server down..smpt gk g karaoke ngn dorg..huhuhu sgt ske time itu..sbb ak rindu zaman dolu² ☺ like i said, if only i cud turn back time..

aritu lil D bg mende kt bwh ne..thnx cyg, evndo tpaksa..so i need 2 more to complete dis collection.. nkz3 ngn db5..cpt²..sape maw kasi??? cyg, kalu nk tolong owg pn lg bgus..kelisa ku slalu x smpai 40 kalu maw isi..huhuhu



k la..nanyte


Cause lately all we do is fight
And every time it cuts me deeper

..bila rasaku ini rasamu..

few things happened..seyesly, ak menyesal..


btul ckp mereka..ak x pk org len..ak pk diri ak je..btul la tu..teruk kn ak?


hmm..n i..n i can feel dis wud b d end.. *sigh~ i've done enuf damage for this 'relationship'.. n i noe he av sum1 else to b there for him..so bg dia, xda guna m here kn...

juz..juz dat i hope he'll remember all d things we've been thru..d memories of four of of us..wut we've shared..ms lepak kt mmz dlu after work..ikut abg long gila pegi karaoke la ape la tgh2 mlm..mkn nasi lemak ayam kt darussalam..cyg, igt x korg aja ktorg men pool kt asia cafe..huhu n it was d last time pn kte men xcpt yg sharilnye last day tu..igt x kte men bowling ngn reen n epul...yg ms last day ktorg LI kte men ngn abg mat =) hmm igt x kte g sgmt ms knduri kawen bro..igt x kte g melaka..hmm igt x? *sigh~

smlm pegi the curve..us without lil D..trase hmm sdikit janggal..bkn sbb ak xda partner..sbb we used to b four of us..last night sgt mengingatkn ak how close we used to b…

..without you..

m in sunway rite now..
smlm tibe scara tbe2..
huhu

igtkn arine bru maw dtg cni sbb smlm still trasa x sdap bdn ag..tp pas blk from melaka mall, ade sumtg happen..trus kmas barang n menuju ke melaka sentral..got 6 pm ticket...kul 8 lebey bru smpai pudu.. da ar ngh ujan, nsb bek dmm da kebah..kalu x maw ag truk dmm..ne pn tgl selsema n batuk je ag..huhuuhu

smlm da la nk tgu bas metro gerak dr kotaraya tu berejam..sejuk ar tu..seb bek ade shawl.. bole thn sket kesejukan..2 jam kemudian baru smpai mentari..blk2 lk tgk umah mcm tongkang pecah..!!! k.ida beli furniture bru, so ade la yg disumbat sane cni..last2 ak yg kne kemaskn bilik yg ak slalu tdo..huhu n d room look different..haha mane x nye, da ade katil instead tilam je..huhuu smpai kul 4 ak tdo kemaskn umah...k.ida ngn k.rozy awl2 ag da tdo..cheh


hmm td ym ngn hns..dia tnye keadaan hati ak..hmm nth la hns, ak pn da tatau ape keadaan ati ak..pnat nk pk seme ne..pnat nk rasa seme ne..nthlaa :'( *sigh~

..sekian lama..

update: ak bru prasan ade skolan yg ak copy paste w/o editing..huhu maafkn inul ya..

tag from shepa..da lama da x wat...huhuhu bacala kalu rajin


What is the relationship of you and him?
hmm tiada nama utk relationship ini

Your 5 impressions towards him
die baek thadap diriku..huhuhudia sengal..he's fun to b withhe's smart..he's a gud fwen


The most memorable things he had done for you
dia dtg bwk kek n rose =) evn bday sy da lepas..he tries to buy me flowers b4 tp dpt beli munge choc..die belikn bju ry..de belikn mcm2..de bg little D n gmok jr..byk benda yg de wt utk sy yg sy xkn lupe kn =)

The most memorable things he have said to you?
byk..i treasure every words..

If he becomes your enemy, you will
hmm perlu ke jd enemy?

If he becomes your enemy, the reason is
i wish he wont..xda sbb kte nk bmusuh

The most desirable thing to do on him is?
hahahaha ade ar

>>The overall impression of him is
dia sgt mgembirakn sy..dia sesuatu bg sy evn sy nothing bg dia..dia seseorg, sesuatu yg mgem…

..apabila lagu n irama bersatu..

fuh..
lepas seksaan dua arine..
tp seksaan len pulak dtg..
or actually rahmat Tuhan? hurmm.....
ak demam =(
dr smlm da selsema, nsb bek arine ms xm x teruk dmm..
n actually kali ne ak dmm x teruk..
mb sbb ak da kerap sakit kot dis yr..

hmm smlm a fwen of mine bg award kt bwh ne..
huhu xpnh dpt pn, x tpk pn akn dpt..
mb sbb dia maw jd kwn yg baik, dia kasi kt ak..
hahaha xdala, cik hunys kte mmg baik..n senget..muahahha
pape pn thnx hns..



okla nk kasik kt org..tp tatau maw kasi sape..otak ak xle nk pk ble selsema cani..huhu nnt la ye..




p/s: trase maw tgk impak maksima the musical..ade yg maw blanje x?

p/s/s: spt tdk dpt mhadiri gath yubiyu jew..hurm kemungkinan besar berada d luar kawasan liputan


credit to popshovans

..kenAngaN teriNdah..

was it still ur kenangan terindah ?
sure still be mine, ours..




gmba kami d redbox celebrate bday nina..baru bkawan² time ne..besh..ce tgk lil D tulis ape..




gmba d asia cafe..hang out ngn shahril ms ari last de kt swichtec..time ne ak ngn nina sakit mata..huhuhu look again ape lil D ckp, "kenangan terindah...always".




i was his teddy bear..huhu cuddly..dis was at hard rock ms mlm valentine..


selepas sesi meluahkn prasaan ngn nina, ak tgk blk flickr ak..too much memories of them..ak rindu..ak rindu time dolu²..no arguments, fights..it was filled with sunshine n rainbows..

nina ckp; knape diorg xnk fhm kite? diorg xnk rasa ape yg kite rasa..
ak ckp; kalu btul la ak selfish, i wont drive at 2 am after a tired kenduri all d way to puncak alam..ak xkn pegi all d way to puncak alam utk hantar dinner when i noe dia x mkn..tp katanye ak selfish..dia pn xpnah rasa ape yg ak rasa nina..he, they nvr understands the hell we've been thru juz to feel happy beside them..

n dia xpnh ke pk cemuhan…

..makes me wish dat i was nvr brought to this place..

here i am, staring blankly clueless at the screen..
maw std dr aritu lg tp ak failed..last² ak tdo or blogwalking..


seyes, ak tiada ati nk std..ak da buang 3 ari ak mcm tu aje..cuz i've done nothing..ak xle nk std langsung..tatau mood nk std pegi mane..adoi da la paper nnt bderet, dua² yg ak nye carry mark teruk lk tue..ouhhhh deym..



sudahla di awal hari b'argue..i tot it cud be happy-exchanging-strories tym..bt i was wrong..totally damn wrong..ak xda niat pn nk annoying kamo..juz maw bsembang..tp da kalu kate ak merimaskn, ape lg harus ak kate? ouh mgkn kamo da bosan mdengar ak kate yg ak 'tiada niat' n ak feeling 'sorry'..tp ape lg harus ak rasa? ye ak sedey, ak hurt dgn penyataan kamo itu..n i cud do nothing more..sudah ku kata, kalu kamu maw ak mjauh, katakn saja..i'll leave without question..tlg jgn wat ak begini jika kamo suda tdk maw ape² ag to do wit me..bt plz say it..hmmm ak pk ak sudah b'usaha utk keep my promise..rupenye x memuaskn ati kamo lg.…

..here i go, so dishonestly leave a note for u my only one..

ngh std numec..
bosan..!!
ak dr dlu kurang cerdik math..
especially yg melibatkn integration n matrix..
adoiii sape nk kasi lesson free utk ak phm mtrx??


td tgk carry mark..
huhu cane nk kasi pndai microcontroller eh?
seyes, marks utk test² ak truk dowh..
ne wat kecut tali perut nk final ne..
which is dis coming monday..
waaaaaaaaaaaaa



ak ada baby baru =)

birthdate de: 24 october 2008..
nama: tiada ag..nk letak ke eyh?huhuhu
(oke, cte da lapuk, tp maw cte juga.)


itu la dia..alaaa ituuuuu tu nmpk x? hehe

..it's been a while..

kenapa berjumpa jika untuk berpisah
kenapa berjumpa jika bukan untuk bersama


ok ok, ak rasa in d past month ramai gle dak U ak tgk cte sepi..dlu pnh nk g tgk ngn hns, tp time to d movie was no longer in theatre..so smlm hns bg la cte tue, abeskn smlm gk..overall best ag cinta kot..bt there's sumtg u can owez learn when u watch a movie..frm dis 1, i learned dat everything happen for a reason..u meet, befriend n love a person so at the end u'll b wit d person evndo there r many obstacles u av to go thru..bt, evn u love hard enuf no matter how strong the feeling in both of u, if it's not meant to be, u wont be together no matter how many years have passed..n 1 ag, u av to let go evndo u love d person all ur heart so dat u can find another person dat love u wit all his/her heart..fuh, tu dia..

da lama x apdet blog ne..hmm bz gle ble da ujung² sem..ngn psm, report, test, presentation n assignments..pnat gle..n ak rasa sbulan dua ne almost tiap² mgu ak blk..ade kenduri la, blk ipoh…

..i tot i was strong..

penat ngn arguments yg slalu jd sjk kebelakangan ne..

i said he never act lyk dis b4...
he said i nvr ask questions b4..
sape yg berubah?
its either me or him..

i cant evn call dis relationship as a relationship..
it's sumtg for me bt nothing for him..

i tot i was strong..ak bole tahan ati..
bt m damn wrong..
m juz merely a human..
ak juga ada prasaan mcm org len..
d harder i try, lg la prasaan tu dtg..

ak manusia biasa je, ak xle tahan ati utk stiap perkara..
u can call me selfish, ignorant or anythg u want..
ye ak selfish..!!
sbb ak pk ak patut selfish sbb slalunye ak mengalah..
sbb ak pk jika ak selfish utk skali dua, org akn phm..
bt i was wrong..
damn wrong..

ye ak mengaku ak jelez..jelez pd stiap perhatian yg kamo berikn pd org len..
sdgkn skrg, kamo jrg beri phatian pd ak..
u never say no to ppl..
bt u owez say no to me..
sy jelez ttg itu..sgt jelez..

tp kamo xnk phm..
pd kamo sy cuma pushing kamo..
kamo xphm sy bknnye seorg yg perfect, sy manusia biasa..
sy ada perasaan...

sy sedey, kamo lgsg x tnye …