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..start walking n dun ever look back..juz go..

..2008..

mulakn ngn thn ne lepak mnum kt kopitiam cyberjaya..plan nk smbut nu yr ngn nina x jd..tensen..
ms ne ngh li kt swichtec power system sdn bhd..
teringat zmn2 blk dr keje, kalu kt traffic lite glenmarie yg simpang 3 kt mazda tu msti ade bknalan ngn org..besh je tym tue..m'ilangkn rasa penat blk keje evn ak xda ar wat pape pn kt opis..huhuhu


10 jan: 1st tym lepak ngn d devilz kt neway ss15..sgt klaka igtkn benda ne..haha byk halangan tul ms nk g tue..evn 1st tym lepak ngn mereka, ak ngn nina peduli ape...wat tatau sudah..sape swoh ajk kn?? huhu mlm yg 1st ne ade lil D, hfz n abg long je..ak still simpan phone charm yg neway nye tu..huhu

wat surprise bday party utk ainina..haha klaka igtkn c ninako tu nk lari kuar umah sbb tkejut.. =)) slain tu kami ade gk clbr8 ngn d devilz kt red box sunway..1st tym g ctu ms tue..hahaha ms ne dorg bru blk dr bandung..dorg bawak blk sourvenir utk ktorg =) ske ske..




ms nk cuti raya cina..anta ainina blk..then lepak ngn lil D n abg long kt bkt bint…

..kembali merindu..

huhu ramai ke yg rindu ak ne smpai swoh blk mlk cpt2? muahahaha ke jelez ak xblk ag? ahhahaha saje je korg eh...nnt laaaa plg lmbt ari ahad ne teman blk..jgn risau..kalu xda halangan ari isnin korg da leh lepak ngn ak..
tp ak still majuk ne ngn mereka2 yg jln kn operasi tanpa ak..huh

yeah, tgl 1 ari ag nk keje..sgt mls nk keje tau..tmbh ag noon..lmbt je nk blk..huhu xpe..pk komisen..
tp ak xsure la kalu target kdai dpt, ak dpt x 4% tu..kalu dpt kn besh..mmg byk wishlist ak leh tlaksana..hehe

hurmmmm...
cane nk brenti pk ttg benda yg kte patut elak dr pk? kalu ak dok saje msti t'pk psl de..tbe2 je da t'pk..bkn nk pk sgt, ms ak dok ralik (ehm ape eyh dlm bhs btul?) wat sumtg tetbe ak da t'pk psl de..pk psl wt shud i say, wut shud i hear ke or wut shud i do if he's in front of me..kdg2 ak pk asl de wt cmtu kt ak, wut i mean trying so hard to make me epy (yeke? prasan!)..huhu tah laaa....

td kn..ms keje kn...apart from ak jahat mulut sket ngn c emy arine (sape swoh kecoh ngn ak …

..counting d dayz..

hmmmm.....
arini kn..
arini da msuk thn bru dlm calendar Islam..ms blk td ms lalu dpn surau kt playground tu, dorg bru nk bc doa akhir tahun..
hmm tetbe sayu je rasa ati..nape diri ne x b'ubh ag eyh?? bkn xmo berubah, tp tahla..mgkin diri x cukup kuat ag kot..nth..tu seme alasan je kn..bole berubah kalu nk, tp kne ade keinginan sendri la kn..


ms awal muharram lepas, sok tu kn cuti..on dat day la 1st tym lepak bsama d devilz..hmm miss dat moment so much..teringat melepak bsama hfz n ainina aritu kul 2 3 pg..bsembang ttg memories from d 1st nite ktorg lepak bsama smpai laa today...all d gud memories..
yeah, sumtimes i DO wish i cud turn back d time..mcm xnk rapat sgt ngn de or FALL in love wit him..so xda la jiwa ati ak sakit cam skrg..tp apekn daya..benda da jadi kn..


hm tgl ag 2 ari nk keje..trasa sgt mls yg amt nk keje..huhu
ye ar target ak da lepas...da lebey da pn..so da tentu da komisen d janjikn da dlm tangan..huhu tu yg rasa maalaaaasssss sgt nk g keje..dengan customer ku asek dkeb…

..apdet sikijap..

hmmm arini ari xmas..
seb bek keje noon..
leh tdo lmbt...

da lame blog ne x b'apdet..
kekurang lingkaran jalur lebar amatlh mbataskn niat..
hmmm

ak da jupe solution utk mengisi masa lapang ketika wktu break kalu xda wit..
silalh ke popular utk mbaca buku..
mph pyramd x besh, kecik..
popular ag besh evn xda ar se besh mph midvalley yg siap ade fountain tue..
huhuhuu

pnt la keje..pnt sgt...
tgl 2k ag nk dpt target sales ak..wah byk nye...sehari kne wat lebey kurang 400-500..
kalu dpt target at least 450 da dlm tangan da bulan dpn..huhuhu

aritu da wat perancangan ninako..aritu kami jln2 g subang parade (ouh, kami sudah bosan pegi pyramid)..
kami jupe baju chantek..hehehe
nnt nk beli laaa...bju beriadah..
da wat plan sgale bagai da ngn nina..
da ajk da pihak yg bminat..ngeee

plan bsama ninako:
kami nk mkn kt naili's..sbb xda org pnah bwk kami tp sebok2 je cte dpn kami yg mkn kt ctu besh(ok,kesiankn kami) so kami akn bwk dri sendri pegi..huhkami nk beli bju chantek d subang parade itukami nk g beriada…

..my off day..!!..

fuh..stelah pnat bkerja 9 ari..akhirnye ku off juga sok..
sok ari jumaat...seme org keje..
sok mengabehkn wktu off ak bsendirian ar..

hmm tbe² teringt zmn dolu² ms keje kt forest..wktu time suka riang ria..
kalu ari off day mst lil D dtg jupe..bwk lunch ke..or ptg tu tgk muvi..
tp tu dlu la..dolu² punye cte..
skrg? haha jgn arap la..

hmm skrg ne finance ak sgt laaa teruk..huhu
td lepas byr wit bil umah mlk ngn beli sabun (n stelah bjoli beli kfc smlm) wit ak tgl bape hengget je ag..waaaaaa cane ne???
ok ne bkn cte mnta simpati ok..i juz need to get it out so ak x rasa sesak sgt..
hurm lmbt ag nk dpt loan..lmbt ag nk dpt gaji..
ape ak nk mkn dlm 2mgu ne? xkn nk pnjm wit kt k.ida ag kot..bru je pnjam 100 ngn de aritu..
kalu nk pnjm skang mcm la de ade wit..ne kn da tgh bulan..
huhu sape ade idea ape ak nk mkn mgu ne? hurm maka jwb nye, blapar laaaa ak 2 mgu ne..
waaaa :(

mnt ngn mama n papa?
it's a big NO..
bru je aritu mama cte papa da xda wit byr itu ini..so xkn nk mnta kot..
ngn abg ak tu? kem sal…

..maybe...juz maybe..

pnt la keje..
sakit pinggang..
blk sakit kaki..
raya ne kne keje gk..

hmm igt nk benti pas xmas..

ngh ym ngn nina..igt zmn li dlu..ye ar start bln ne..so mmg byk gle ar cuti time tu..kalu kne weekday ak xblk..so dpt ar g jenjalan..g ou, g round pyrmd utk bape ploh kali ar..g uptown la downtown la..g wat rmbut, potong rmbut..mkn jco..huhu i miss those times..tu x masuk ag blk keje minum, mlm g beriadah..sok pg g keje lmbt..hehehe =) yeah, sgt relax..rindu nyeeee....

well..kalu ditnya kondisi ati ak skrg..sgt la amat yg x bagus..knape?
well d same old brand new thing..hahaha bosan kn?
yeah i need time..time to mend dis stpd heart..well he's going to b unreachable for d whole month..mb more..so who knows kn..ak tatau...de mgkin tau cume he's not telling..huhu
so mb dis is d time i cud get to d old me where i can live my life w/o him..
mb..juz mb..
after all..sooner or later (tp mmg soon ah, xdenye later..haha) mmg de akn tglkn ak kn..
so blaja la woi.. dak kecik pn pn dia blaja tau..ne kn da…

..hadir dan temani aku, di setiap langkah yg meyakiniku..

pd peminat baju d 2 entry yg lepas;
ade 1 bju ag yg cmtu..

dinner set:
meat, milk, cream soup
serve on bed

gmba x amek,nnt kne marah ngn tuannye kdai..huhu
belikn lil D bju tu pulak ah (amboi, byk wit hg..haha) [nk wt cane, de je laki yg ak leh abeskn wit ak utk masa ini :D]

nxt..
td g cari keje kt pyrmd..mama swoh keje kdai komputer..tpkn..tp..tp ak segan..huhu sbb seme yg jg ctu org cina..pastu elok ak lalu je; "yes miss, nk cari ape"..erk x terrrrkata ak..camno? huhu
ak ne kn pemalu..seyes ak xreti nk cari keje yg walk-in ne..tp nk yg call leceh la plak..ade kdai yg jual gadget n brg2 apple kt ngn asian av tue, ade bg no..shud i call? hurm tgk la cane sok..kalu by ptg sok x dapek keje, blk je smyh sok..huhu dok cni pn xda wit..seb bek pnjam wit k.ida dlu :D ngee

tp kn..seyes ak xda wit skang..mane nk cari wit byr wit sewa bln ne..wit yg ptptn bg aritu yg cover wit yg short tu ak rasa da abes kot..huhu sbb ms nk blk kl aritue da kering sgt da..hurm...

ada yg maw mberi wang..tp..tp..…

..as in a way that i nvr wud understand..

tell me..wut does it means when

a guy turned around, took ur hand n put it around his




ok for dat man he wud answer: it's juz an act..it means nothing..

k, fine..

i juz want to hear others...which i noe wud definitely hurt..lalalala bt wth kn..padan muke ak..



nxt..
m in sunway rite now..da 3 mlm da tdo cni..uhuhu nth la..melarikan diri? mgkin..
preparing maself to b alone for future torture? mgkin..
pape pn..m unemployed n i only av empty pockets..mane maw cr wit ne..huhu


ade owg maw kasi wit x? :D ngeee

..bon appetite..

you're only a dinner set
when you're with a man who serves breakfast set


..slap me, please slap me hard..

ak pnh ckp, looking at sum1 dat u like/love while they're sleeping is sumtg


n it made me cry..

gosh..i do realize how stpd i am..wut an idiot i m..bt..bt..argh..bodo..!!

plz..slap me hard..wake me up from dis stupid dream dat m living in..



i noe i've been saying dis hundreds of times but..

i do feel dis is d last..

is it?



hmm nanges like an idiot..nsb bek de x sdar..if not mst kne marah..
msti de akn kate i told u bla bla bla..
msti de kate, c how dependent u r..
msti de kate, u r selfish n ignorant..

*sigh~

bt cyg..
thnx 4 meeting me today..
thnx 4 d dinner..
thnx 4 d movie..
i njoyed our time..u me n fz..
syg nina xda..



sumhow i look at u, i remember all those things in d msg...
it's juz a fling n it means nothing..
n d thing, it means nothing..


slap me, hard plz..

..there's gotta be somebody..

pnah dgr lagu pd tajuk d ats oleh nickelback?
dgr la..seswai utk org yg single spt ku ini..hehehe

sbelum ape²...
my 7th sem has officially ended..!!
so i got 1 more sem to go..
arap² ak akn grad on time =) insyaAllah..

ouh ya..aritu papa ade msg..saje tnye khbar ank de yg ehm x dgr kate ne..
sembang pasal pinggan royal albert, tp outcome nye?

amy: xpela..nnt kalu b.cik kawen, xda la susah sgt nk cr pinggan meja pengantin
papa: kalu pkai utk kamu kawen ape salahnya :-) :-) (erk???bior betul)
amy: hahaha..tu kena cari calon dulu (gelak nk cover musykil)
papa: mulakanlah pencarian..mane tau ade org nk anak papa ni (erkkkk????????)

oke, dat was not our typical normal conversation ok...bior btul papa ne??? seyes..ak suspect k.dik yg gatal reply msg aku..sbb ade smiley sgale bgai..seyes mdatangkn kemusykilan tahap tertinggi.. seyes...hahahaha seyes ak confuse..btul ke ayah aku yg msg dgn aku????

nxt..keadaan hati? sudah mati barangkali..sudah tiada rasa ape²..sudah malas maw rasa ape².. ye, mgkin at ti…

..kembali kepada memori..

abg long was here last nite..!!
huhu sgt ske..
ainina msg kate abg long call maw jupe..
da lama x jupe..
last skali jupe pn ms de dtg swichtec tnjuk kete (huh)..

jupe abg long pn da lewat smlm..da kul 12 lebey da..
org tua tu pulak nk mkn nasi..so menuju la ke d nangka (sbb tatau mkn mane yg sdap yg still buka pepagi bute..huhu)..
memule ucop pn ade..tp ms otw, tetbe da x nmpak da lori..abg long kate ucop segan pkai comot² sbb dorg kn bru blk dr site..
huh ngade ucop ne..bknnye mkn kt 5 star hotel pn..lempang kang..huh..

kami berempat pn mkn laaa late dinner..xle pgl supper sbb mkn berat..huhu
bcte psl abg long..
sejukkkk ati dgr ble de sbut "adik² aku ne"..
trase diri begitu dhargai..huhuhu

bsembang lama gk ngn abg long..
ye ar cte psl de je da berejam..
pastu cte psl kami pn, mengambil masa gk..
huhuhu puas ati dpt luahkn prasaan kt abg long =)
nnt kte pegi bcuti eyh abg long..huhuhuhu

tau kami blk kul bape??
kul 3.30 pg..mesti org keje d nangka pn bengang je tgu ktorg blah..huhu
tp xpe, ak p…

..aku bukan siapa-siapa untukmu..

hmm semua org da abes paper..aku je blom ag (ye classmate ak pn blom)..ahad baru officially my 7th sem ne tamat..aish, lmbt nye...tp std pn blom :D

badan ak kesakitan =( smlm pas dak umah ku yg 2 itu meninggalkn rumah terus kemas umah..huhuhu ak, nina n eila abes ubh seme blk..serabut ak tgk umah..basuh dapur, ubah itu ini.. mlm nye tolong hns agkt barang lk.. ouh ya my hsemts for nxt sem:
nur ainina ahmadfazila aziznurul hanis mohd nasiramirah salwani abbas (wah ak msh igt nama penuh die..!!)sape eyh sorg ag, mmbr c mirahhuhuhu saje nk mglemerkn hsmet ku..xdek keje..hasil dr mengemas umah, tlg hns n biah (biah jd jiran dpn umh) angkt barang, ak kesakitan blkg badan arine..huhu tangan sakit, my back hurts..huhuhu tp arine bjalan x hengat dunia..hehehe

nxt, sape x ske dgr luahan perasaan or jiwang karat besi buruk jgn proceed

hurm..guyz, tell me..
wut else shud i do or say when every word spoken is wrong n every action done is disaster?

seyesly, m at my wit's end..ak da tatau maw wtpe d…

..onLy fooLing mYseLf..

hmm sudah smpai d bumi mlk..
seyesly, m mentally n physically exhausted..
mau x nye, gado ngn org, kne marah ngn org, menanges psl org...
seme ade..seyes pnat..

maw tnye pd kamo seme...
wut is wrong with dis pictures??





ye..seseorg tiada =(
misses those times when four of us were together..seyesly=(


well ak ade paper day after tomorrow..sungguh malas maw mbaca subj BACA ini..hmm da lama x tdo ngn lil D..eh salah little D ngn gmok jr..rindu pada kamo..jap ag kte tdo together² ye sayangs ♥..hurm ble maw std ne..

td jupe lil D, fz, n len2..g mnum jp sbb dorg xle wt keje, server down..smpt gk g karaoke ngn dorg..huhuhu sgt ske time itu..sbb ak rindu zaman dolu² ☺ like i said, if only i cud turn back time..

aritu lil D bg mende kt bwh ne..thnx cyg, evndo tpaksa..so i need 2 more to complete dis collection.. nkz3 ngn db5..cpt²..sape maw kasi??? cyg, kalu nk tolong owg pn lg bgus..kelisa ku slalu x smpai 40 kalu maw isi..huhuhu



k la..nanyte


Cause lately all we do is fight
And every time it cuts me deeper

..bila rasaku ini rasamu..

few things happened..seyesly, ak menyesal..


btul ckp mereka..ak x pk org len..ak pk diri ak je..btul la tu..teruk kn ak?


hmm..n i..n i can feel dis wud b d end.. *sigh~ i've done enuf damage for this 'relationship'.. n i noe he av sum1 else to b there for him..so bg dia, xda guna m here kn...

juz..juz dat i hope he'll remember all d things we've been thru..d memories of four of of us..wut we've shared..ms lepak kt mmz dlu after work..ikut abg long gila pegi karaoke la ape la tgh2 mlm..mkn nasi lemak ayam kt darussalam..cyg, igt x korg aja ktorg men pool kt asia cafe..huhu n it was d last time pn kte men xcpt yg sharilnye last day tu..igt x kte men bowling ngn reen n epul...yg ms last day ktorg LI kte men ngn abg mat =) hmm igt x kte g sgmt ms knduri kawen bro..igt x kte g melaka..hmm igt x? *sigh~

smlm pegi the curve..us without lil D..trase hmm sdikit janggal..bkn sbb ak xda partner..sbb we used to b four of us..last night sgt mengingatkn ak how close we used to b…

..without you..

m in sunway rite now..
smlm tibe scara tbe2..
huhu

igtkn arine bru maw dtg cni sbb smlm still trasa x sdap bdn ag..tp pas blk from melaka mall, ade sumtg happen..trus kmas barang n menuju ke melaka sentral..got 6 pm ticket...kul 8 lebey bru smpai pudu.. da ar ngh ujan, nsb bek dmm da kebah..kalu x maw ag truk dmm..ne pn tgl selsema n batuk je ag..huhuuhu

smlm da la nk tgu bas metro gerak dr kotaraya tu berejam..sejuk ar tu..seb bek ade shawl.. bole thn sket kesejukan..2 jam kemudian baru smpai mentari..blk2 lk tgk umah mcm tongkang pecah..!!! k.ida beli furniture bru, so ade la yg disumbat sane cni..last2 ak yg kne kemaskn bilik yg ak slalu tdo..huhu n d room look different..haha mane x nye, da ade katil instead tilam je..huhuu smpai kul 4 ak tdo kemaskn umah...k.ida ngn k.rozy awl2 ag da tdo..cheh


hmm td ym ngn hns..dia tnye keadaan hati ak..hmm nth la hns, ak pn da tatau ape keadaan ati ak..pnat nk pk seme ne..pnat nk rasa seme ne..nthlaa :'( *sigh~

..sekian lama..

update: ak bru prasan ade skolan yg ak copy paste w/o editing..huhu maafkn inul ya..

tag from shepa..da lama da x wat...huhuhu bacala kalu rajin


What is the relationship of you and him?
hmm tiada nama utk relationship ini

Your 5 impressions towards him
die baek thadap diriku..huhuhudia sengal..he's fun to b withhe's smart..he's a gud fwen


The most memorable things he had done for you
dia dtg bwk kek n rose =) evn bday sy da lepas..he tries to buy me flowers b4 tp dpt beli munge choc..die belikn bju ry..de belikn mcm2..de bg little D n gmok jr..byk benda yg de wt utk sy yg sy xkn lupe kn =)

The most memorable things he have said to you?
byk..i treasure every words..

If he becomes your enemy, you will
hmm perlu ke jd enemy?

If he becomes your enemy, the reason is
i wish he wont..xda sbb kte nk bmusuh

The most desirable thing to do on him is?
hahahaha ade ar

>>The overall impression of him is
dia sgt mgembirakn sy..dia sesuatu bg sy evn sy nothing bg dia..dia seseorg, sesuatu yg mgem…

..apabila lagu n irama bersatu..

fuh..
lepas seksaan dua arine..
tp seksaan len pulak dtg..
or actually rahmat Tuhan? hurmm.....
ak demam =(
dr smlm da selsema, nsb bek arine ms xm x teruk dmm..
n actually kali ne ak dmm x teruk..
mb sbb ak da kerap sakit kot dis yr..

hmm smlm a fwen of mine bg award kt bwh ne..
huhu xpnh dpt pn, x tpk pn akn dpt..
mb sbb dia maw jd kwn yg baik, dia kasi kt ak..
hahaha xdala, cik hunys kte mmg baik..n senget..muahahha
pape pn thnx hns..



okla nk kasik kt org..tp tatau maw kasi sape..otak ak xle nk pk ble selsema cani..huhu nnt la ye..




p/s: trase maw tgk impak maksima the musical..ade yg maw blanje x?

p/s/s: spt tdk dpt mhadiri gath yubiyu jew..hurm kemungkinan besar berada d luar kawasan liputan


credit to popshovans

..kenAngaN teriNdah..

was it still ur kenangan terindah ?
sure still be mine, ours..




gmba kami d redbox celebrate bday nina..baru bkawan² time ne..besh..ce tgk lil D tulis ape..




gmba d asia cafe..hang out ngn shahril ms ari last de kt swichtec..time ne ak ngn nina sakit mata..huhuhu look again ape lil D ckp, "kenangan terindah...always".




i was his teddy bear..huhu cuddly..dis was at hard rock ms mlm valentine..


selepas sesi meluahkn prasaan ngn nina, ak tgk blk flickr ak..too much memories of them..ak rindu..ak rindu time dolu²..no arguments, fights..it was filled with sunshine n rainbows..

nina ckp; knape diorg xnk fhm kite? diorg xnk rasa ape yg kite rasa..
ak ckp; kalu btul la ak selfish, i wont drive at 2 am after a tired kenduri all d way to puncak alam..ak xkn pegi all d way to puncak alam utk hantar dinner when i noe dia x mkn..tp katanye ak selfish..dia pn xpnah rasa ape yg ak rasa nina..he, they nvr understands the hell we've been thru juz to feel happy beside them..

n dia xpnh ke pk cemuhan…

..makes me wish dat i was nvr brought to this place..

here i am, staring blankly clueless at the screen..
maw std dr aritu lg tp ak failed..last² ak tdo or blogwalking..


seyes, ak tiada ati nk std..ak da buang 3 ari ak mcm tu aje..cuz i've done nothing..ak xle nk std langsung..tatau mood nk std pegi mane..adoi da la paper nnt bderet, dua² yg ak nye carry mark teruk lk tue..ouhhhh deym..



sudahla di awal hari b'argue..i tot it cud be happy-exchanging-strories tym..bt i was wrong..totally damn wrong..ak xda niat pn nk annoying kamo..juz maw bsembang..tp da kalu kate ak merimaskn, ape lg harus ak kate? ouh mgkn kamo da bosan mdengar ak kate yg ak 'tiada niat' n ak feeling 'sorry'..tp ape lg harus ak rasa? ye ak sedey, ak hurt dgn penyataan kamo itu..n i cud do nothing more..sudah ku kata, kalu kamu maw ak mjauh, katakn saja..i'll leave without question..tlg jgn wat ak begini jika kamo suda tdk maw ape² ag to do wit me..bt plz say it..hmmm ak pk ak sudah b'usaha utk keep my promise..rupenye x memuaskn ati kamo lg.…

..here i go, so dishonestly leave a note for u my only one..

ngh std numec..
bosan..!!
ak dr dlu kurang cerdik math..
especially yg melibatkn integration n matrix..
adoiii sape nk kasi lesson free utk ak phm mtrx??


td tgk carry mark..
huhu cane nk kasi pndai microcontroller eh?
seyes, marks utk test² ak truk dowh..
ne wat kecut tali perut nk final ne..
which is dis coming monday..
waaaaaaaaaaaaa



ak ada baby baru =)

birthdate de: 24 october 2008..
nama: tiada ag..nk letak ke eyh?huhuhu
(oke, cte da lapuk, tp maw cte juga.)


itu la dia..alaaa ituuuuu tu nmpk x? hehe

..it's been a while..

kenapa berjumpa jika untuk berpisah
kenapa berjumpa jika bukan untuk bersama


ok ok, ak rasa in d past month ramai gle dak U ak tgk cte sepi..dlu pnh nk g tgk ngn hns, tp time to d movie was no longer in theatre..so smlm hns bg la cte tue, abeskn smlm gk..overall best ag cinta kot..bt there's sumtg u can owez learn when u watch a movie..frm dis 1, i learned dat everything happen for a reason..u meet, befriend n love a person so at the end u'll b wit d person evndo there r many obstacles u av to go thru..bt, evn u love hard enuf no matter how strong the feeling in both of u, if it's not meant to be, u wont be together no matter how many years have passed..n 1 ag, u av to let go evndo u love d person all ur heart so dat u can find another person dat love u wit all his/her heart..fuh, tu dia..

da lama x apdet blog ne..hmm bz gle ble da ujung² sem..ngn psm, report, test, presentation n assignments..pnat gle..n ak rasa sbulan dua ne almost tiap² mgu ak blk..ade kenduri la, blk ipoh…

..i tot i was strong..

penat ngn arguments yg slalu jd sjk kebelakangan ne..

i said he never act lyk dis b4...
he said i nvr ask questions b4..
sape yg berubah?
its either me or him..

i cant evn call dis relationship as a relationship..
it's sumtg for me bt nothing for him..

i tot i was strong..ak bole tahan ati..
bt m damn wrong..
m juz merely a human..
ak juga ada prasaan mcm org len..
d harder i try, lg la prasaan tu dtg..

ak manusia biasa je, ak xle tahan ati utk stiap perkara..
u can call me selfish, ignorant or anythg u want..
ye ak selfish..!!
sbb ak pk ak patut selfish sbb slalunye ak mengalah..
sbb ak pk jika ak selfish utk skali dua, org akn phm..
bt i was wrong..
damn wrong..

ye ak mengaku ak jelez..jelez pd stiap perhatian yg kamo berikn pd org len..
sdgkn skrg, kamo jrg beri phatian pd ak..
u never say no to ppl..
bt u owez say no to me..
sy jelez ttg itu..sgt jelez..

tp kamo xnk phm..
pd kamo sy cuma pushing kamo..
kamo xphm sy bknnye seorg yg perfect, sy manusia biasa..
sy ada perasaan...

sy sedey, kamo lgsg x tnye …

..remember..

tarikh: 25 oct 2008
tempat: taiping resort, taiping, perak
perkara: setelah hidup 22 tahun n 23 ari, utk pertama kalinye ak ditampar d muka.. ak kne igt ini sbb ak blom pnah kene tampar n yg tampar bkn papa...ak kene igt sbb ak bkn kne tampar skali tp dua kali di tepi mata belah kiri...ak kne igt sbb yg tampar ak tu prasan de bagus, de kate ak kurang ajar, tp de xpnah pk ape yg dia pnah buat..ak kne igt sbb ak masih rasa sakit kepala akibat kena tampar n masih terasa spt bengkak pd muka belah kiri...ak kne igt, sbb it leads to another thing yg ak kne igt sbb ianya mb mjadi titik noktah pd ape yg mbuatkn ak epy...


tarikh: 25/26 oct 2008
perkara: i made d biggest stupid mistake in my life..seyesly, ak x bniat pn..niat ak juz maw luahkn prasaan pd sesorg, sbb ak tgh sedey sgt...
dear, i am very sory..seyesly org xda niat..org tatau..org juz nk bcerita to sumbdy..ble awk xreply msg org igt awk tdo..so org juz kept on sending msg sbb nk ilangkn rasa sedey..sory sgt²..i noe u wont forgive me for…

..trase diri sgt...

hmm...
pnt sgt...
mental, physically n emotionally..
keje sgt blambak mgu ne..
test juga mengundang pada kejatuhan ekonomi eh emosi..
presentation juga bgolek2 menimpa..
aduh~


hmm..
lil D pn senyap je..
well as usual kalu x tego de dlu, mmg de xkn anta kbr brite..
kalu ade tu, sgt btuah laaaa diri ini kalu dia maw anta sms dlu..
td pn igt de skype, rupenye msg tah zaman tok kaduk blenye..

skrg sgt bosan..
mmg ade keje maw dbuat..
tp byk sgt smpai x tbuat..
penat...
bosan...

td..td..
td maw anta msg pd dba utk mengatakn ak bosan..
jari lajuuuuuuuuuuu je type msg..
pastu lajuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuu je type name lil D..
haish..
sdg cuba sdaye upaya utk tidak msg de..
sbb xnk dri rasa pathetic sgt..
sbb de xmsg ak..so ak cube x msg de..
ye ar, dlu pndai je de msg ak..
skrg alu ak xmsg dlu maw ke de contact ak?
dlu maw je tpon ak..
tp skrg? kalu de tpon tu sgt laaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaa beruntung diri taw..
*sigh~


sbenarnyekn..ak da pnat utk rasakn diri ak sgt pathetic..pnat feeling sorry for myself..ak x cari pn benda ne..malah i tot…

..x ske..!!..

sy xske perasaan ini..
sy x ske rasa bgini..
sy xske sedey begini..
sy xske terasa bodo begini..
sy xske argument begini..
sy xske benda yg same jd argument..

sy tau sy slh...
tp sy rasa sy da made an effort utk telan aje seme..
tp xle ke kamo pn make an effort utk jgn buat sy rasa bodo @ stupid @ dumb @ idiot?
sy rasa sy da made an effort..
sy rasa la..
kalu x, slap me hard..!!plz



tell me..
perempuan mana yg kamu knal bole simpan rasa jealousnye?
perempuan mana yg kamu knal bole tsengeh bke kamu ckp ttg org len?
perempuan mana yg bodo minta maaf stiap kali dia yg terasa hati?
perempuan mana yg sebodoh aku dan sebangang aku?


kalu ada tell me, ak maw wat society club dgn mereka supaya ak rasa x bodoh sgt jd d only idiot ppl yg bole simpan rasa jealous, tsengeh ble ckp ttg org len n minta maaf stiap kali ak yg trasa ati..




nothing feels right when im not with you
sick of this dress and these Jimmy Choos.
taking them off cause i feel a fool
trying to dress up when im missing you.
ima step out of this lingerie
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