Sunday, September 28, 2008

..ati yg riang yet lara..

lil D belikn bju raya..!! yeay!! ske ske ske...
thnx cyg, love it..!!:Devil10:
bt then x patut awk bazirkn ur money on me..hmm owg x mnta pape pn from u...thnx again..owg rasa beribu kali pn owg ckp thnx pn, xkn tbalas kot..nnt owg cp kt mama boyfren tpu2 bg..hahaha (owg pn tatau nape k.dik ckp cmtu..lalala)



i dun want anything..i dun need anything more than hvg u around..a simple wish wud b more than enuf to make my day...






ouh~ ak amt trase kali ini..biasanya d kala unreachable ak masih dkelilingi rakan2 yg buleh wtkn my mind x memikirkn ttg perkara2 sedey...tp..tp...tp...tp...kali ne :Devil09:gmana ku maw put my mind off dis thing..kwn2 tiada..seme jauh..dok umah je lk tue..waaaaaaaaaaa tmbh ag it's my day@nangis...tp..tp...tp.... dat's d price kn....tp tp tp tp kalu minta nk jupe de as pressie pd minggu brikutnye bole??tp tp tp...sengal ar ko...de da bg mcm2 lagi maw mnta...x sdar dek untung lgsg..:tsk:








tekanan perasaan...

Thursday, September 25, 2008

..ouh~~~..

sy rindu mmz..
sy rindu darussalam..
sy rindu neway ss15..
@sinchan
sy rindu redbox sunway pyramid..
sy rindu escapade..
sy rindu juga
swichtec...

sy rindu...
sy rindu masa itu..

waaaa....

sy rindu mereka...
:Devil09:@bye:snow03:

Wednesday, September 24, 2008

..muAhx..




Your Kiss is Black



Your kisses are amazing. You put a lot of effort into your kissing technique.

You are a perfectionist, and you never leave any kissing detail to chance.

When you're kissing, you like to be in charge. You don't enjoy someone else taking the lead.

You know you're the best kisser. In fact, you're often disappointed by how other people kiss.

Kissing Type: Thoughtful

People See Your Kisses as: Amazingly unreal

You Kiss Best With: A Pink Kisser

Stay away from: A Green Kisser





Your Kissing Technique Is: Perfect



Your kissing technique is amazing - and you know it.

You have the confidence to make the first move.

And you always seem to know what kissing style is going to work best.

Sometimes you're passionate, sometimes you're a tease. And you're always amazing!



wah...
sdikit timid kali ini..
muaahahahaa ini keja kebosanan..
sdgkn ak ade quiz dsp sok...

m i dat gud???
hurmmmmmmmmm

Tuesday, September 23, 2008

..menambah koleksi..



benda baru pula yg menambah atas meja..
hmm ak x byk barang taw sbenarnye..
as in almari ke ape..
tp yg watkn ak pening stiap kali kemas ostel kn ialah brg yg kecik2 mcm seme2 ne..
ak ske simpan brg kecik2 ne..mainan la, kad la ape la...
huhuhu
benda baru dis tym are r2d2, mr crab, mr forest ppl n hurm tatau la nk pgl benda tu mouse pad ke kipas from maswings..

  • mr crab: dpt from kinder egg yg lil D beli...
  • r2-d2: beli kt mcD...ebaad banje d pagi bute (huhu b;baloi ak g bunga raya tgh2 pagi bute tue)
  • mr forest ppl: adiah wt kn sy tharu..evn de ngh prob ms tu, de ttp belikn sy sumtg...maceh lil D.. tanda harga xmo buang, sbb tukang beli bg skali..
  • maswings: ckp la benda tu menarik, trus lil D bg..maceh..hahahaha


close up menda kecik2 atas lappy

..tlebih kuah..

tidak ada sape yg knal diri kte n faham ape yg kte buat melainkn diri kita sendiri


huhu nth nape arini..erk smlm ak byk kuarkn kate2 spt di atas..n sdaye upaya me'console' seme org..from dear to syipa to c.p..tp, ckp je lebey...diri sendiri pn x ter'console'..sengal..



aritu pulang ke kl..atas spontaneous act..x plan pn sbb mlm tu dia n ak pn suda kate it's not a gud tym..tp mcm dikate dlm n3 lepas..ak rasa x senang ati..sbb suda di set dlm pale otak ku maw ke kl mgu itu..tgh ym ngn diba, trus ku kate maw ke kl..dia pn nasihatkn ak kalu maw pegi, pegi sje..n de tolong anta =) thnx dba cyg..

got on d bus...bkira2 maw kasitaw lil D...ye ar takut de marah..degil sungguh ak..tp ak da tekad, kalu de tamau jupe pn, xpela...maw kasi puas ati sendri, kalu trase ati pn dok sorg2 xle ckp byk..tnye pndapt dba, nina..mrk swoh kasitaw, ye ar nnt len jadinye..da kasitaw tu tpon lk abes batt...sengal ar tepon ne..nsb bek ku sayang kamo, kalu x da lama ku campak ke luar bas...nsb bek ada mamat baik ati tlg kasi pinjam tpon..huhu maceh ye en nurd, siap tmn sy beli tket bas & anta kuar pudu ag..maceh maceh..

tp..tp...tp sy juga jupe lil D =) gembira? xle describe betapa riangnya ati..cuma xske melihat de semak..paku pulak dok bising da otw bru maw kasitaw...cheh, bknnye ko yg semak..de pn x bsing taw..huh!

n i spent my weekend dgn gembiranye..btw dba dtg stay skali pd mlmnye sbb de maw ke lowyat..sy gembira...sy gembira tgk kesayangan-kesayangan ati sy d dpn mata..relieved, itu paling tepat maw describe.. tp..tp...tp...tp....*sigh~ cuma sy sedey lihat de sedey n semak n sgale2 lh..xske lihat kesayangan ati begitu...hurmmmmmm


cyg, appreciated very much for ur tym..kamu ttp melayan sy dgn baik walaupn keadaan kamu tidak stabil..maafkn sy menyusahkn kamu ya all dis while..n asked too much when u oredi gave me enuf..sy janji, sy cuba utk x serabutkn kamu lagi..n plz tell me if i am..ye? ouh ya, sy pn tamau da ungkit benda2 yg x besh yg pnah sy ungkit..bt then, juz perkara2 yg sy kate tbe2 tu spt dun hide anything n dun lie to me, still sy arapkn dr kamo (tgk, mintak ag..dush dush)..

hmmmm......skarang ne kte rasa susah..mgkin sbb yg Berkuasa maw senangkn kte pd ms akn datang...n sumtym seme ne sbb kte lupa pd Dia..ya, ak tidak layak bcakap begitu..sbb ak sendri t'umbang ambing..tp i do believe atas kekuasaanNya..

so dear, mcm mane susah pn i noe u'll get thru dis..i believe in u too...kamu ada ur loved ones to support u..n kamo ada sy utk mjadi ur listener n ur supporter..n evn sy bkn significant bg kamo...tp sy maw kamo taw sy slalu ada d cni jika kamo perlukan sy... dis might as well goes to all my fwenz... n sy akn doakn yg ur car akn cpt siap, u'll be able to go back to klate to attend ur sis' wedding wif ur loved one, kamu akn pergi n kembali dgn selamat nya (ouh itu adiah birthday paling bermakna bg sy, so make sure kamo selamat)..n sy akn doakn supaya kamo tiada lg masalah =) u r owez n my prayers =)


tp..tp..tp..tp itulah, ak ckp je lebey..hmm bak kate org, lebih kuah dr sudu..(ok i dun actually pasti yg ianya bkaitan x)...

Thursday, September 18, 2008

..goNE..

sy tiada utk weekend ne..

nk wat cane..mindset sy suda begitu..
xpela..
yg penting sy ke kl utk mengurangkn rs x best itu..
biar pn de xmahu..
tp biar la sy ke sana..


tp pape pn..
bg sy cari tket dlu...

..n again..

hmm x abes2 ngn rasa upset..@nangis
cubala phm situasi..

de ckp maw jupe lepas blk dr sana..
itu sbelum seme blaku..
x faham?

hmmmmm
ey my heart..
how do u do??
ey my heart..
sila fhm org len...
perasaan n keadaan org pn kne tgk je..
jgn pk rasa ati je..
hmmmmm



tula..
bile org da ckp sumtg tu cpt je taruh harapan..
kira hari yg blalu utk ape de ckp tu blaku..
tp ble ade sumtg happen..
xle pk keadaan da berubah?
hm.....




hm mmg ak counting d days..
sbb de kate blk dr sane kte akn jupe..
hmmm tp ak ne sape..
bknnye sape2..
xctd maw bg bearbear bru.
tp..hm
waaaaaaaaaaa little D....[mcari little D dlm gelap]

:Devil09:

..101..

well...
ne n3 ke 101 utk blog ne..hmm byk gk eyh da tluah kt cni..yg emo, mengarut, epy etc..
yg ku katekn bgumbira 2 aritu..hmm bese je isi masa lapang..
jelez pula en odette..

16th september..
blk dr class che pool call..ajk tmn de teman shepa buka pose..pegi je la..sbb igt buka pose je..skali ak dperdaya...kul 2 pagi bru blk...dgn kenyang yg amat nye..ngn x stdnye..huhuhu bju dlm washer machine pn xbjemur..

17th september..
kami d bintang ms tue..n it's shepha bday...tu yg lama tue..well detail mls nk tulis..sila rujuk d cni ye..aritu p clas as usual..n wat plan nk celebrate bday shepha dr leopard hunterz family.. detailnye mstila nnt shepha akn apdet..so tgkla d link d atas eyh..
anyhow,
happy 22nd birthday nurusyifa..!!


ptg tu blk dr jj beli kek...sgh kt bazar bear hill..jupe sumbody wit sum1..hmmmmmm de bising x invite for dat nite bday celebration..n ak juz jwb; "ore tu pn lupo saing, ghano nk ajok.." n i juz walked away...mean ke?

mlm, celebrate bday...blk..tdo..std pn x utk BACA..huhuhuhu

result utk test BACA? hehehehe jgn la dtnya..ak wat speed reading ptg td..maw xnye..start std kul 5.30...nk testnye kul 8.30..hehehe mbaca BACA nye 6 lectures in 2 hrs..hebatkn? hahaha



sok dak ne nk wat majlis buke pose kt king's...

ehm igt sok nk jupe seseorang itu...tp, mesti de ngh srabutkn..nnt kehadiran ak menyerabutkn ag...

majlis b'buka mpro kt planet hollywood pn sbtu ne..deym xdpt pegi..

..azul..



hurm..
mode: biru
mood: blue
blue: gloomy: filled with melancholy and despondency ; "gloomy at the thought of what he had to face"; "gloomy predictions"; "a gloomy silence"; "took a grim view of the economy"; "the darkening mood"; "lonely and blue in a strange city"; "depressed by the loss of his job"; "a dispirited and resigned ...

hari ini hari biru..
perasaan? hmm refer pd definition di atas utk menyatakn perasaan biru sy..
color does define sum1's feeling..kn?

mgkn ble org yg kte sayang...org yg kte rapat tidak gembira, kte juga akn berasa perasan yg sama..hmmmm

ak ske kaler biru, sbb tu ke ak slalu bsedey? so do i av to change my fave color? hehehe ntahla..

ape pn i do hope things gonna get better for u..for me..for us..for all the ppl in dis world (haha ade mcm ayat miss universe x?lalala)

n i do hope things will get better for u dear..juz remember, every cloud has a silver lining @nyerah.. every burden, kesusahan tentu ade hikmah disebaliknya..n All Mighty God juz nk uji kte..

n remember, m owez here for u

:Devil08:





tambahan:
ak bgembira 2 hari ini..
saje maw mbuang masa utk melupakn sesuatu..
smlm kne kidnap smpai kul 2 pagi..
mlm td pula bsuka ria melupakn test n psm..
nntla ku apdet yg itu..

Tuesday, September 16, 2008

..suRvivE..

The History Of One Tough Motherfucker by Charles Bukowski
he came to the door one night wet thin beaten and
terrorized
a white cross-eyed tailless cat
I took him in and fed him and he stayed
grew to trust me until a friend drove up the driveway
and ran him over
I took what was left to a vet who said,"not much
chance...give him these pills...his backbone
is crushed, but is was crushed before and somehow
mended, if he lives he'll never walk, look at
these x-rays, he's been shot, look here, the pellets
are still there...also, he once had a tail, somebody
cut it off..."
I took the cat back, it was a hot summer, one of the
hottest in decades, I put him on the bathroom
floor, gave him water and pills, he wouldn't eat, he
wouldn't touch the water, I dipped my finger into it
and wet his mouth and I talked to him, I didn't go any-
where, I put in a lot of bathroom time and talked to
him and gently touched him and he looked back at
me with those pale blue crossed eyes and as the days went
by he made his first move
dragging himself forward by his front legs
(the rear ones wouldn't work)
he made it to the litter box
crawled over and in,
it was like the trumpet of possible victory
blowing in that bathroom and into the city, I
related to that cat-I'd had it bad, not that
bad but bad enough
one morning he got up, stood up, fell back down and
just looked at me.
"you can make it," I said to him.
he kept trying, getting up falling down, finally
he walked a few steps, he was like a drunk, the
rear legs just didn't want to do it and he fell again, rested,
then got up.
you know the rest: now he's better than ever, cross-eyed
almost toothless, but the grace is back, and that look in
his eyes never left...
and now sometimes I'm interviewed, they want to hear about
life and literature and I get drunk and hold up my cross-eyed,
shot, runover de-tailed cat and I say,"look, look
at this!"
but they don't understand, they say something like,"you
say you've been influenced by Celine?"
"no," I hold the cat up,"by what happens, by
things like this, by this, by this!"
I shake the cat, hold him up in
the smoky and drunken light, he's relaxed he knows...
it's then that the interviews end
although I am proud sometimes when I see the pictures
later and there I am and there is the cat and we are photo-
graphed together.
he too knows it's bullshit but that somehow it all helps.




jupe link to dis mase blogwalking..
besh..
watkn ak tharu..
well n there's d real meaning of survival..
no matter how hard u've been beaten by life..
u can owez stand up n walk..
n stay alive..surviving...
ye, bole juga diapplykn pd situasi ak skang ne..
situasi ape?
hmm seme laa...sng kate..

maaflah..
ak sdg mengisi wktu yg kosong..
mau mbuat d time fly..
maw sopin cam dlu suda xda wit..
jd dok umah je laa..
std pn idak..sbb da tatau da cane nk tune otak supya maw std..
sdgkn assignment blambak..psm x bsentuh..
well m tired...

sy blaja pkataan bru arine..
tuvalet..
placate..
sape yg da tau bgus laa..
ak mcm nk improve english..
jeles melihat org bole menulis dgn bagus...
tdo la..
ape lagi..

Monday, September 15, 2008

..kiNder eGg..

abes class awal....


sakit kpale...


padan muka..
da tau xle mkn megi nk mkn gk..
kn da sakit kpale..
tanggung sendri..

n xda org yg nk mngadu kesakitan ne..
waaaaaa :( unreachable.....





trase maw mkn kinder egg..
tp kedudukn kewangan? = tidak stabil..
bru sos sratus pd akak kesayangan..
hmmmmmmmmm



nk chocolate..
xda sape2 maw kasi ke?
ngh kekurangan kasih sayang ne...
bole la..
plzzzzzz (bygkn muka puss in boots fron shrek 2)

xle bayangkn?
yela ak letak gmbau...

..spRing..

it's monday..
great way to start my week..
hurm.........


clas kul 9, kunci alarm kul 9 = sengal
one of d spring da rosak = jgn letak dlm kete, panas...
class dsp xda = clas baca kul 2 so clas smpai 4 je..
psm = projek smpai mati? projek stengah maut? penyeksaan sgt menakutkn...hurmmmmm


gud to msg for a loongggg time last nite...thnx..sudah lama x begitu..tp dgantikn dgn looonnngggg unreachable time *sigh~ tp...tp... hm juz hold on to last nite kn? biarla...dat's d price...


td msg dgn hns meluahkn kesedehan..hns kate,kna ade will...baru bole wat..kalu x, xjd gk..hm tp..tp..tp... tp ak bkn org yg cmtu... 1 of my weaknesses..nk wat cmtu..tp xnk gk wt cmtu....
hns tmbh, "cpt cr bf"....well i wish it is easy as it is said...agpn ak xnk mcari, biarla de dtg...bt utk org cm ak, dat's d solution for dis prob...bt then...m not desperate laa....m happily single...tp..tp...tp...heart?=taken....hmmm susah susah.....


so ladies n gentlemen..
start ur counting till wednesday...
starting from............



















now.....

Sunday, September 14, 2008

..piLLowS..

hurm...
pnat bsedey kte wat keje gle..
pnat wat keje gle kte tdo..
pastu kte g jenjalan..
pastu apdet blog x brenti..
huhuhuhuhu

dlu ak ade promised kn nk apdet gmba bunga yg lil D bg..
hu da berhabuk da pn..


still thanking u for dis...
i'll nvr forget this..
maw mkn choc de syg..huhu
nnt da x jadi bunge..
cane eyh...

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aritue xle stadi sbb ketidak stabilan ekonomi.. eh emosi...
so kemas la bilik..
ubah sket benda2 atas meja..
srabut gle nengok nye..
ne pn x cukup kemas ag..
da xreti da nk susun cane..
poning den..


tp ok la kn..
sape ade idea nk wat ag kemas???



ne lk koleksi mainan ku..
huhu
  • giraffe: beli ngn hunys kt jonker ms ktorg 1st year dlu..lame gle kn hns..
  • yg biru tu ape tah namenye...beli kt mcD sunway pyramid..almost lupe nk byr mainan ne..seb bek ms tu hfz ade..hehe sowy eyh abg mcD..
  • batman : dpt dr cereal box..batman ketot..huhuhu
  • hermit crab: yeke? huhu dpt from kinder egg..lil D belikn...
  • locomotive train: dpt from kinder egg gk.. ne beli sendri..
  • benda kuning: tah pe..de leh lekat kt bju..dpt from kinder egg yg dibelikn oleh lil D
  • shark: de leh buka tutup mulut de..pn lil D belikn kinder egg
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hurm daku suka bantal..
ske sgt..
byk koleksi bantal..
ak kalu tdo kne ade 2 bantal kt kepala..
then 1 bantal utk d peluk..
hm stakat ak masuk uni, antara osmets ak, ak pegang rekod plg byk bantal..
yela plg kurang pn ade 3..
tu yg wajib..blom msuk yg tmbhn..
skrng pn atas katil ku ade 7 bantal + dak2 gmok..
tu minus bantal muke kucen yg tlah kuberi pada ex ak (seyes menyesal bg...menyesal gle)
huhuhu mama pn da tau sgt ank de ske bantal..


  • biru dpn: beli masa 1st year kt tesco melaka...
  • kuning: amek dr kete abg long..huhu mula2 de x bg..last2 de kn syg adek de ne..de pn bg laaa..
  • heart choc: lil D bg...beli kt sunway pyramid b4 balik melaka for nu sem
  • satin choc (yg blkang heart tu): mama beli kt uk..
  • biru gelap: amek from kete perdana..but beli masa papa sakit ms ak 1st year dlu..beli kt pyrmd gk.. masa tu jln kaki ngn k.ida dr sunway medical g pyrmid...jauh taw
  • little D n gmok jr : suda dceritakn d entry yg lepas
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td buka pose ngn nina, hns n don..
mkn satey kt bachang..
huhu besh gle..
da lama x mkn kt ctu..
pastu g jonker sat..
sbb ak nk cari sumtg..
so ne la benda yg mengabehkn wit ak kt jonker..


apetah name spring tu..3 for rm5..hehe pastu nenek tue cakap klate ngn ak n hns.. sronok de dpt ckp klate ngn ktorg..de kate kn "cni dopleh panggil ore tino: mek..nnt dio oyak, cni mano ado kambing" huhu klaka gk nenek tu
beli air dua botol..sdap air de, tp mahal la..tu sbb sbb gatal nk cube..1 botol rm4.. rm7.50 for 2 bottles..
n tu benda kt tengah tu...tu la benda yg d cari...bearbear..


beli bearbear yg bru..
sbb bearbear lama da xda tangan...
nmpk x mr halloween xda tgn tue...
yg bru ne ape eyh name de..
hmmm xda name ag..
tp mmg panggil bearbear je pn...
yeay! sudah ada bearbear baru..!!!

[dear lil D: cyg, jelez laa...bearbear owg da ade tangan..weeehuuuu]


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sy cuba utk wat entry yg mgembirakn..
da pnat sedey n tensen n terasa..
evndo arine ada brite buruk..
tp mls la nk komen...
xbesh..cian kt org yg bkenaan..
hm nk ckp pape kt org yg btanggungjawab pn x gne..
masing2 da bsar..pk la sendri..

Saturday, September 13, 2008

..SerEnitY..

Definitions of serenity on the Web:

  • repose: a disposition free from stress or emotion
  • peace: the absence of mental stress or anxiety
    wordnet.princeton.edu/perl/webwn





  • beaRbeAr ku mereNung ke Laut = aLonE



    wasnt it juz beautiful...




    p/s: ouh pardon for d pix quality... ak pkai tpon cameranye vga shj...

    ..suNshiNe..

    hurm...

    ak prasan...
    blog ak ne da jd cam shoutbox da..
    shoutbox pd org...
    org yg xkn dgr...

    maaf ya..
    ak emo sjak kebelakangan ne..
    pedih, sedey...
    seme ade..

    maaf ya..
    msti kamu bosan kn...

    well...
    arine slepas sy found out sumtg..
    sy tau sy kne wat sumtg....
    kalu x, msti sy nanges cam idiot ag...


    sy berjaya kidnap org..
    tp xjual kt siam pn...
    juz g bedah je..
    tmn ak mkn sbb tensen...
    pd kul 4.30 am...


    lepak la d ctu...
    smpai anney tu nk tutop kdai pn xreti2 nk blah...
    last2 dorg tutop lmpu one by one..
    kami ngn penuh faham bahasa nye pn g la byr..

    "ak nk wat keje gle, nk ikot?"
    n at 7.10am ak da kt pantai puteri..
    konon nk tgk sunrise..
    huh padahal sunrise belah blkg..
    180 deg from d pantai..
    huhuhu lepak d ctu...



    now 8.36am..
    bru smpai rumah...
    trus apdet...

    conclusion:
    wat keje gila = anda kemungkinan akn accident..
    so jgn memandu ske2 eyh mcm ak..huhuhu
    wat keje gila = mamak2 kt bedah tgk ngn bengangnye
    "ble la dak2 gla ne nk blah"
    wat keje gila = anda akn tcegat d pantai...
    pastu xda wtpe, blk = abeskn wit minyak utk sminggu...



    ouh ya...
    psl blog ak..
    hmmmmmm
    pnat bgtau..
    pd kwn, n pd kesayangan ati..
    tp mereka akn faham ke?
    hmm blog pulak yg jd mangsa kn?
    yeah...sudah mcm jd page utk maki hamun pula..


    sudahla..
    sy pnat melayan perasaan yg org len x amek peduli pn..
    sy pnat terasa ngn org yg sy sayang...
    sy penat jaga ati mereka...

    xpela..
    kalu mereka perlukn sy...
    mrk tentu akn cari sy kn?
    itu pn kalu tetbe sy jd penting utk mereka kn?
    hemmmmm



    u r mY suNshiNe, mY onLy suNShiNe..
    u MAke haPpY when SkieS arE greY

    u'll nVr noE deaR hoW much i LoVe u..

    pLeaSe donT taKe my suNShinE away


    The other nite, dear,
    As I lay sleeping
    I dreamed I held you in my arms.

    When I awoke, dear,
    I was mistaken
    And I hung my head and cried.

    You are my sunshine,
    My only sunshine.
    You make me happy
    When skies are Grey.
    You'll never know, dear,
    How much I love you.
    Please don't take my sunshine away.

    I'll always love you

    And make you happy
    If you will only say the same

    But if you leave me

    To love another
    You'll regret it all some day;

    ..confused..

    sayang..

    when u dedicate a song..
    lengkap ngn liriknya..
    kamu tulis pada seseorang..
    apekah maknanya?
    ouh, it's juz a song's lyric, u fool...

    contohnye lagu ini:

    Takkan lagi aku menunggu
    kau hadir di dalam mimpi-mimpiku
    puasku mengharapkan dirimu
    seperti mereka yang punya cinta

    Diriku tanpa dirimu
    kau tempuhi penuh bahagia
    diriku mahu kau tahu
    pedih ini kau tak terasa

    Warkahku mengharapkan dirimu
    seperti yang aku kenali dulu
    setiaku menantikan dirimu
    seperti setianya terhadap diriku

    Tapiku melepaskan mu
    melangkah namun tak berdaya
    terusku terus menunggu
    cinta yang takkan pernah ada


    *sigh~


    ak pnat.....


    kwn kata:
    think positive...
    mcm mane ak mau thnk +ve..
    i juz keep find things which actually ak xmo tau pn sbenarnye...


    i juz hate my instinct...

    aargh..








    jika ak sruh kamu pilih..
    ak suda tentu bkn pilihan kamu kn...

    ..inStinct..

    Definitions of instinct on the Web:
    hmm.......

    ak tatau...
    bt then ak ade instinct yg kuat..

    sgt kuat rasanya...


    or maybe lately ne kuat instinct ak..

    hm...

    jadi kamu....

    jgn selindung or tipu ak..

    ak dpt tau perkara yg kamu xbgtau..

    jgn selindung or tipu ak..

    apetah ag yg melibatkn ak or org yg ak sayang...

    jgn selindung or tipu ak..


    susah juga kn punye instinct yg kuat ne..

    terpaksa menyembunyikn rasa hati..
    sbb tamau perhubungan dicemari ngn rasa x puas ati..
    apetah ag ble kte rapat ngn seseorg itu..

    jgn selindung or tipu ak..

    ak benci ble ak dpt tau..
    sbb nnt ak yg sakit ati sendri.
    sdgkn kamu bgumbira...

    Thursday, September 11, 2008

    ..please..

    sy mau nanges...

    :snow25:

    plz..

    is there anybody to lend your shoulder for me?

    plz..

    sgt sedey...

    sgt penat..

    sgt sedey..

    plz..

    sy da x larat..

    plz...

    tlg la aware sy pn ade perasaan...

    plz..

    sy maw nanges..

    ade sape maw teman sy..

    ade sape maw console sy?

    plz..

    m tired...

    plz...


    plz...

    plz...

    plz.....






    n yet m crying alone
    sad Pictures, Images and Photos

    ..dear..

    sy sedey ngn kamo...

    kamo tau kn..
    sy pnye instinct n pemahaman yg tinggi...
    :snow01:



    sy btul2 sdey dgn kamo...


    maafkn sy..
    sy salah..
    sy salah dlm hal ini..:snow13:



    tp sy sedey ngn kamo....:snow09:

    tp kamu x peduli pn...
    n sy fhm..
    kamo bz..
    n sy faham..
    kamo mmg x peduli..

    maaf..
    mgkin sy sounds accusing d cni..
    hmm

    Wednesday, September 10, 2008

    ..ikLan dG..

    spatutnye ak post dr aritu lagi..
    tp byk ag pkara yg seyes ak maw pk..


    plz..
    kalu kamu x ske ak, jgn wat mcm bgus dpn ak..
    kalu kamu act kamu epy bsama ak pda suatu ketika..
    tp kamu mengata ak pada org len...
    baik kamu jgn bcakap ngn ak..
    spt contoh:
    dpn ak, ajk bgambar bsama, tgelak²..
    tp blkg ak kamu kata, "oh mija yg ______" isi tmpt kosong ngn kata kutukan yg kamu bole pk..
    ak xperlu mengenali org yg sebegini ya..
    buang masa ak shj b'buat baik pada kamu..
    sbb itu adala obligation ak sbg kawan..
    huh:snow01:

    teringat pula..
    ak nk ucpkn tahniah pd sumbody..
    dia mmg xske ak kot..sbb tu dia x bcakap ngn ak..
    n mmg dia kutuk ak...
    tp xpa, sbb dia xwat dpn-aku-ckp-baik-muka-manis-tapi-belakang-mengutuk..
    n i respect her for that..
    n dia avoid utk meluangkn masa bsama ak..
    erk bkn ak ajk de kuar or wut, cuma dia akn mengelak kalu tau ak ada
    =tp kalu ak xda, bole je nek kete ak..klaka gk ko eyh=
    ape masalah ak ngn dat person?
    nth...
    ak xda masalah dgn de..
    de yg ade masalah dgn ak..
    so let her be lah..



    p/s: ak xda idea nk letak title ape


    p/s/s: slmt b'buka..


    p/s/s/s: cyg..windu...uhuk uhuk:snow09:
    =xda kene mngena lgsg ya=

    Tuesday, September 9, 2008

    ..kata..

    siang dan malam
    malam siang silih berganti
    berkali kucuba namun masih kau tak mengerti
    to make u understand
    i'll make u mine n i'll be yours
    together forever our love will always stand..

    pabila tidak bersua walau seketika
    rindu pula kuterasa
    inikah ertinya cinta?
    tapi bila bersama bibir tak terkata
    jiwa raga bergelora
    inikah ertinya cinta?

    hanya kau yg ku mahu
    hanya kau kuperlu
    oh kasih, kasih
    hanya kau yg kucinta
    hanya kau yg kupinta
    oh kasih, kasih..







    sapa tau lagu apa?
    suka lagu ini..
    lagu ini = hati?
    hahahaha

    Monday, September 8, 2008

    ..peNeman..

    ..iNTroDuciNg..



    :snow15:Gmok Jr & LittLe deViL:snow15:


    :LittLe deViL:



    nama: Little Devil

    tarikh lahir: 18 April 2008

    Asal: Gift shop @ Summit Shopping Center (yeke?huhu)

    Others: itam sbb lil d takut yg putih tukar color..dlu gmok cket skrg da leper...slalu diangkut merata ;)

    :Gmok Jr:



    nama: Gmok Jr.

    tarikh lahir: 16 August 2008

    Asal: Gift kiosk @ Midvalley Megamall

    Others: Mula² nk bg nama PdD which stands for Penguin d Devil..akn tetapi lil D nk bg nama gmok jr sbb penguin tu mokmok..huhu btw lil D is Gmok Sr ;p become little D's bestfwen =)

    Friday, September 5, 2008

    ..mungkin betul..

    mungkin betul kate org itu..
    ak obses..
    mungkin..

    mungkin betul kate org itu..
    evn ak x cakap, org bole agk mksudnya..
    ak juz ckp ak ke sana..
    tp mungkin pemahaman de, i want to spend tym wit u..
    mungkin betul..
    mungkin...










    tp kalu de faham cmtu bgusla..
    krn ak ske..
    tp...
    tp...
    tp kalu mdatangkn even sdikit pn rasa kesusahan pd kamu..
    xpela..
    abaikn sj ape ku kate..
    bak kate kasridona..
    ak hnye watak picisan..
    tiada sapa2 pn bagi kamu...

    Thursday, September 4, 2008

    ..if i can go..

    If I can chose a place to go it gotta be far away
    From here we could crossover like Hardaway
    Somewhere outside the states where tommorow's like today
    And I'm out in a space where nobody else can stay
    And, if I can go, with you
    Then I'll go get the ticket right now if that's cool
    Have you ever been close to feelin like leavin the coast too
    Feelin like leavin with somebody who
    Hold you the right way while watchin the night fade
    Make you feel like you right back in the ninth grade
    When you know what he likes and what he might say
    And you try to be calm and answer in nice ways
    And, if I can go, with you
    Way out the states no 2 ways and no page
    No cells and no trace, and you just a phone call away
    So all I got to say is


    If I can go, contigo, I'll pack my things, soon as you say
    Baby vamos, we'll fly away, like there is no, no tomorrow
    If can go, contigo, I'll tell my friends, nothing at all
    I'll get my things, soon as you say, baby vamos, we'll fly away


    And, if I can go, with you
    Oh boy we 'bout to make a lot of people annoyed
    And cry you better know I know how to sneak with them toys
    And boy with the block since around 94 boy
    And, if I can flow, with you
    Huggin Tato after the studio I roll with you
    I send Dutch and three other goons to go get you
    Sacario the name hold weights the whole issue
    Grown men keep on cryin get mo' tissue
    The way me and this girl be rhymin it's so official
    Them I'm takin a trip too with no pistols
    Cause everything peace only sand no streets
    Little Miami Heat that's the plan we'll see
    Two cups, one in Senado one in Sand Beach
    And, I'll think I'll go, with you
    So tell the station you need a week back to you


    If I can go, contigo, I'll pack my things, soon as you say
    Baby vamos, we'll fly away, like there is no, no tomorrow
    If can go, contigo, I'll tell my friends, nothing at all
    I'll get my things, soon as you say, baby vamos, we'll fly away

    You can fly away, no one has to know
    Will you take me with you, cause if I can go
    Soon as you say the word, we'll be on our way

    To a foreign place, you got to tell me



    Yo, uh, so now that we got a plan are you comin? We could plan a week
    The only question now is LaGuardia or Kennedy?

    And a seat, know why? the window cause I like to see
    And seein as to how I'm so fly me and the clouds can speak

    And, since we 'bout to go, in a few

    Go 'head

    Oh, I just wanted to tell Trace thank you
    That week off I'm grateful what was you tryin to say boo?

    Nuttin just grab my chain off the table and 2 way too

    Ok, that little place it's a great move
    But ain't no problems, unless the water don't stay blue

    And the shop's there?

    If they don't got em, they don't make em

    No concrete just sand, throw away your shoes
    Now, that we are on, our way
    And our bags is packed and the car service is not late
    Everything's ok, so I guess I catch you on the next track
    Now I don't gotta ask

    If I can go, contigo, I'll pack my things, soon as you say
    Baby vamos, we'll fly away, like there is no, no tomorrow
    If I can go, contigo, I'll tell my friends, nothing at all
    I'll get my things, soon as you say, baby vamos, we'll fly away

    If I can go, contigo,
    I'll pack my things, soon as you say

    Baby vamos, we'll fly away,
    like there is no, no tomorrow

    And if I can go, contigo,
    I'll tell my friends, nothing at all

    Nothing at all,
    I'll tell my friends, nothing at all


    :snow02:take me wit u...will ya?


    lagu da lama..
    tah cane leh teringat blk lagu ne..
    huhuhu

    Wednesday, September 3, 2008

    ..hari ini..

    hari ini agk down..
    mula dgn bgn lmbt..
    sbb xle buka mata lgsng..
    trasa penat sgt yg amat..

    report kne submit...
    ptg ade test..

    then i got a bad news...
    *sigh~
    pnt..
    seyesly pnat..
    tp kamu maw ak wat ape?

    guilty?
    yeah..
    kamu tatau bgaimana ak rasa..
    nsb bek smpai ke fac...
    trasa mau nanges je dlm lab td..
    msuk lab pn da ade org tego swoh senyum..

    so tell me...
    bgaimana lagi harus ak wat?
    seyesly da tatau nk watpe..
    totally blank td..

    tell me wut shud i do...
    ak xle tahan diri dr contact..
    ak xle stop jari dr type msg..
    *sigh~

    nk merajuk..
    oi x sdar diri nk merajuk..
    kamo tu sape maw merajuk ngn de..
    apetah ag ttg small things...

    tp seyesly..
    ak x ske kamu diam begitu saja..
    utk kesekian kalinya:
    plz let me noe when u're ending our conversation..
    kalu xda idea: ckp sj bye..
    xsdar? : xsdar msg, ok bye...

    *sigh~
    ak serabut...




    p/s: selamat berbuka

    ..mereka kata..

    seorang kawan kata:
    skrg ne ko kne jd selfish sket..biarla org len nk kate ape pn..dorg x rasa..ak faham ape yg ko rasa sbb kte ade kt situasi yg sama..so nasihat ak ko jd selfish utk dri sendri..at least bg lepas psm, final year..


    seorg lagi kawan kata:
    kalu ko wat camtu, ko x rasa nnt ko akn lg parah ke bila tibe saat ko nk let go? ko bole dikatakn obses juga...


    hm aku kata? :
    dedua btul...tp..nthla..mgkin bg ak skrg ne juz let it be..
    sbb ak da xmmpu nk fikir ape patut dibuat..
    situasi ne susah..
    antara hati n perasaan dan juga ttg kesedaran sivik..
    hmm...


    I'm staring at the glass in front of me,
    is it half empty or have i ruined all you've given me?
    I know I've been selfish,
    I know I've been foolish,
    but look through that
    and you will see,

    I'll do better, I know,
    Baby, I can do better.

    If you leave me tonight, I'll wake up alone,
    don't tell me I will make it on my own,
    don't leave me tonight,
    this heart of stone will sing till it dies
    if you leave me tonight.

    Sometimes I stare at you while you are sleeping,
    I listen to your breathing,
    amazed how I somehow managed to
    sweep you off your feet

    your perfect little feet
    I took for granted what you do.
    But I'll do better, I know
    Baby, I can do better.

    If you leave me tonight, I'll wake up alone,
    don't tell me I will make it on my own,
    don't leave me tonight,
    this heart of stone will sing till it dies
    if you leave me tonight.

    And don't you know my heart is open
    it's putting up the fight,
    and I've got this feeling,
    that everything's alright,
    and don't you see,
    I'm not the only one for you
    but you're the only one for me.


    If you leave me tonight I'll wake up alone

    Monday, September 1, 2008

    ..hm, he juz left without saying hi...

    first time ak tgk bola pkai bju jersey team yg lawan..
    huhuhu x pnah t'pk..
    seyesly..
    hahahaha
    smpai2 bedah ade bola...
    liverpool vs aston villa..
    n ak pkai jersey liverpool..
    hahahahaha x pnah t'pk..


    slain kegembiraan dpt mnum limau ais (aish pose pose)..
    ade 1 ag prasaan yg ak rasa smlm...

    frustrated...


    ade 2 perkara yg mbuatkn ak frustrated...

    1. kamu tau ak d ctu...n i made an effort to be a friend for u n forget d past... n all u did is... u walked away without saying hi...kawan apekh kamu? kamu call n minta maaf sempena ramadhan..tp kamu menyakitkn ati ak d pagi 1 ramadhan..sy frustrated dgn kamu...sgt... u threw d 3 yrs of friendship into d drain...maceh...

    2. org yg suppose sgt aware ape yg ak ske n xske wat bnda yg ak xske...sy juga frustrated ngn kamo sbb kamo patut taw yg ak xske org wat cmtu...yet kamo wat...kamo suppose to b d person yg sgt faham perangai ak...sy frustrated ngn kamo juga...


    tp ak x frust liverpool x menang smlm..
    ak tiada perasaan thadap itu..