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..ati yg riang yet lara..

lil D belikn bju raya..!! yeay!! ske ske ske...
thnx cyg, love it..!!
bt then x patut awk bazirkn ur money on me..hmm owg x mnta pape pn from u...thnx again..owg rasa beribu kali pn owg ckp thnx pn, xkn tbalas kot..nnt owg cp kt mama boyfren tpu2 bg..hahaha (owg pn tatau nape k.dik ckp cmtu..lalala)



i dun want anything..i dun need anything more than hvg u around..a simple wish wud b more than enuf to make my day...






ouh~ ak amt trase kali ini..biasanya d kala unreachable ak masih dkelilingi rakan2 yg buleh wtkn my mind x memikirkn ttg perkara2 sedey...tp..tp...tp...tp...kali ne gmana ku maw put my mind off dis thing..kwn2 tiada..seme jauh..dok umah je lk tue..waaaaaaaaaaa tmbh ag it's my day...tp..tp...tp.... dat's d price kn....tp tp tp tp kalu minta nk jupe de as pressie pd minggu brikutnye bole??tp tp tp...sengal ar ko...de da bg mcm2 lagi maw mnta...x sdar dek untung lgsg..








tekanan perasaan...

..ouh~~~..

sy rindu mmz..
sy rindu darussalam..
sy rindu neway ss15..
sy rindu redbox sunway pyramid..
sy rindu escapade..
sy rindu juga swichtec...

sy rindu...
sy rindu masa itu..
waaaa....

sy rindu mereka...

..muAhx..

Your Kiss is Black




Your kisses are amazing. You put a lot of effort into your kissing technique.

You are a perfectionist, and you never leave any kissing detail to chance.

When you're kissing, you like to be in charge. You don't enjoy someone else taking the lead.

You know you're the best kisser. In fact, you're often disappointed by how other people kiss.

Kissing Type: Thoughtful

People See Your Kisses as: Amazingly unreal

You Kiss Best With: A Pink Kisser

Stay away from: A Green Kisser




Your Kissing Technique Is: Perfect




Your kissing technique is amazing - and you know it.

You have the confidence to make the first move.

And you always seem to know what kissing style is going to work best.

Sometimes you're passionate, sometimes you're a tease. And you're always amazing!



wah...
sdikit timid kali ini..
muaahahahaa ini keja kebosanan..
sdgkn ak ade quiz dsp sok...

m i dat gud???
hurmmmmmmmmm

..menambah koleksi..

benda baru pula yg menambah atas meja..
hmm ak x byk barang taw sbenarnye..
as in almari ke ape..
tp yg watkn ak pening stiap kali kemas ostel kn ialah brg yg kecik2 mcm seme2 ne..
ak ske simpan brg kecik2 ne..mainan la, kad la ape la...
huhuhu
benda baru dis tym are r2d2, mr crab, mr forest ppl n hurm tatau la nk pgl benda tu mouse pad ke kipas from maswings..

mr crab: dpt from kinder egg yg lil D beli...r2-d2: beli kt mcD...ebaad banje d pagi bute (huhu b;baloi ak g bunga raya tgh2 pagi bute tue)mr forest ppl: adiah wt kn sy tharu..evn de ngh prob ms tu, de ttp belikn sy sumtg...maceh lil D.. tanda harga xmo buang, sbb tukang beli bg skali..maswings: ckp la benda tu menarik, trus lil D bg..maceh..hahahaha

close up menda kecik2 atas lappy

..tlebih kuah..

tidak ada sape yg knal diri kte n faham ape yg kte buat melainkn diri kita sendiri


huhu nth nape arini..erk smlm ak byk kuarkn kate2 spt di atas..n sdaye upaya me'console' seme org..from dear to syipa to c.p..tp, ckp je lebey...diri sendiri pn x ter'console'..sengal..



aritu pulang ke kl..atas spontaneous act..x plan pn sbb mlm tu dia n ak pn suda kate it's not a gud tym..tp mcm dikate dlm n3 lepas..ak rasa x senang ati..sbb suda di set dlm pale otak ku maw ke kl mgu itu..tgh ym ngn diba, trus ku kate maw ke kl..dia pn nasihatkn ak kalu maw pegi, pegi sje..n de tolong anta =) thnx dba cyg..

got on d bus...bkira2 maw kasitaw lil D...ye ar takut de marah..degil sungguh ak..tp ak da tekad, kalu de tamau jupe pn, xpela...maw kasi puas ati sendri, kalu trase ati pn dok sorg2 xle ckp byk..tnye pndapt dba, nina..mrk swoh kasitaw, ye ar nnt len jadinye..da kasitaw tu tpon lk abes batt...sengal ar tepon ne..nsb bek ku sayang kamo, kalu x da lama ku campak ke luar bas...nsb bek …

..goNE..

sy tiada utk weekend ne..

nk wat cane..mindset sy suda begitu..
xpela..
yg penting sy ke kl utk mengurangkn rs x best itu..
biar pn de xmahu..
tp biar la sy ke sana..


tp pape pn..
bg sy cari tket dlu...

..n again..

hmm x abes2 ngn rasa upset..
cubala phm situasi..

de ckp maw jupe lepas blk dr sana..
itu sbelum seme blaku..
x faham?

hmmmmm
ey my heart..
how do u do??
ey my heart..
sila fhm org len...
perasaan n keadaan org pn kne tgk je..
jgn pk rasa ati je..
hmmmmm



tula..
bile org da ckp sumtg tu cpt je taruh harapan..
kira hari yg blalu utk ape de ckp tu blaku..
tp ble ade sumtg happen..
xle pk keadaan da berubah?
hm.....




hm mmg ak counting d days..
sbb de kate blk dr sane kte akn jupe..
hmmm tp ak ne sape..
bknnye sape2..
xctd maw bg bearbear bru.
tp..hm
waaaaaaaaaaa little D....[mcari little D dlm gelap]

..101..

well...
ne n3 ke 101 utk blog ne..hmm byk gk eyh da tluah kt cni..yg emo, mengarut, epy etc..
yg ku katekn bgumbira 2 aritu..hmm bese je isi masa lapang..
jelez pula en odette..

16th september..
blk dr class che pool call..ajk tmn de teman shepa buka pose..pegi je la..sbb igt buka pose je..skali ak dperdaya...kul 2 pagi bru blk...dgn kenyang yg amat nye..ngn x stdnye..huhuhu bju dlm washer machine pn xbjemur..

17th september..
kami d bintang ms tue..n it's shepha bday...tu yg lama tue..well detail mls nk tulis..sila rujuk d cni ye..aritu p clas as usual..n wat plan nk celebrate bday shepha dr leopard hunterz family.. detailnye mstila nnt shepha akn apdet..so tgkla d link d atas eyh..
anyhow,
happy 22nd birthday nurusyifa..!!


ptg tu blk dr jj beli kek...sgh kt bazar bear hill..jupe sumbody wit sum1..hmmmmmm de bising x invite for dat nite bday celebration..n ak juz jwb; "ore tu pn lupo saing, ghano nk ajok.." n i juz walked away...mean ke?

mlm, celebrate bday...blk..tdo..std pn x ut…

..azul..

hurm..
mode: biru
mood: blue
blue: gloomy: filled with melancholy and despondency ; "gloomy at the thought of what he had to face"; "gloomy predictions"; "a gloomy silence"; "took a grim view of the economy"; "the darkening mood"; "lonely and blue in a strange city"; "depressed by the loss of his job"; "a dispirited and resigned ...

hari ini hari biru..
perasaan? hmm refer pd definition di atas utk menyatakn perasaan biru sy..
color does define sum1's feeling..kn?

mgkn ble org yg kte sayang...org yg kte rapat tidak gembira, kte juga akn berasa perasan yg sama..hmmmm

ak ske kaler biru, sbb tu ke ak slalu bsedey? so do i av to change my fave color? hehehe ntahla..

ape pn i do hope things gonna get better for u..for me..for us..for all the ppl in dis world (haha ade mcm ayat miss universe x?lalala)

n i do hope things will get better for u dear..juz remember, every cloud has a silver lining .. every burden, kesusahan ten…

..suRvivE..

The History Of One Tough Motherfucker by Charles Bukowski he came to the door one night wet thin beaten and
terrorized
a white cross-eyed tailless cat
I took him in and fed him and he stayed
grew to trust me until a friend drove up the driveway
and ran him over
I took what was left to a vet who said,"not much
chance...give him these pills...his backbone
is crushed, but is was crushed before and somehow
mended, if he lives he'll never walk, look at
these x-rays, he's been shot, look here, the pellets
are still there...also, he once had a tail, somebody
cut it off..."
I took the cat back, it was a hot summer, one of the
hottest in decades, I put him on the bathroom
floor, gave him water and pills, he wouldn't eat, he
wouldn't touch the water, I dipped my finger into it
and wet his mouth and I talked to him, I didn't go any-
where, I put in a lot of bathroom time and talked to
him and gently touched him and he looked back at
me with those pale blue crossed eyes and as the…

..kiNder eGg..

abes class awal....


sakit kpale...


padan muka..
da tau xle mkn megi nk mkn gk..
kn da sakit kpale..
tanggung sendri..

n xda org yg nk mngadu kesakitan ne..
waaaaaa :( unreachable.....





trase maw mkn kinder egg..
tp kedudukn kewangan? = tidak stabil..
bru sos sratus pd akak kesayangan..
hmmmmmmmmm



nk chocolate..
xda sape2 maw kasi ke?
ngh kekurangan kasih sayang ne...
bole la..
plzzzzzz (bygkn muka puss in boots fron shrek 2)

xle bayangkn?
yela ak letak gmbau...

..spRing..

it's monday..
great way to start my week..
hurm.........


clas kul 9, kunci alarm kul 9 = sengal
one of d spring da rosak = jgn letak dlm kete, panas...
class dsp xda = clas baca kul 2 so clas smpai 4 je..
psm = projek smpai mati? projek stengah maut? penyeksaan sgt menakutkn...hurmmmmm


gud to msg for a loongggg time last nite...thnx..sudah lama x begitu..tp dgantikn dgn looonnngggg unreachable time *sigh~ tp...tp... hm juz hold on to last nite kn? biarla...dat's d price...


td msg dgn hns meluahkn kesedehan..hns kate,kna ade will...baru bole wat..kalu x, xjd gk..hm tp..tp..tp... tp ak bkn org yg cmtu... 1 of my weaknesses..nk wat cmtu..tp xnk gk wt cmtu....
hns tmbh, "cpt cr bf"....well i wish it is easy as it is said...agpn ak xnk mcari, biarla de dtg...bt utk org cm ak, dat's d solution for dis prob...bt then...m not desperate laa....m happily single...tp..tp...tp...heart?=taken....hmmm susah susah.....


so ladies n gentlemen..
start ur counting till wednesday...
starting fr…

..piLLowS..

hurm...
pnat bsedey kte wat keje gle..
pnat wat keje gle kte tdo..
pastu kte g jenjalan..
pastu apdet blog x brenti..
huhuhuhuhu

dlu ak ade promised kn nk apdet gmba bunga yg lil D bg..
hu da berhabuk da pn..


still thanking u for dis...
i'll nvr forget this..
maw mkn choc de syg..huhu
nnt da x jadi bunge..
cane eyh...

xxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxx


aritue xle stadi sbb ketidak stabilanekonomi.. ehemosi...
so kemas la bilik..
ubah sket benda2 atas meja..
srabut gle nengok nye..
ne pn x cukup kemas ag..
da xreti da nk susun cane..
poning den..


tp ok la kn..
sape ade idea nk wat ag kemas???



ne lk koleksi mainan ku..
huhu
giraffe: beli ngn hunys kt jonker ms ktorg 1st year dlu..lame gle kn hns..yg biru tu ape tah namenye...beli kt mcD sunway pyramid..almost lupe nk byr mainan ne..seb bek ms tu hfz ade..hehe sowy eyh abg mcD..batman : dpt dr cereal box..batman ketot..huhuhuhermit crab: yeke? huhu dpt from kinder egg..lil D belikn...locomotive train: dpt from kinder egg gk.. ne beli sendri..benda kuning: tah pe..de leh leka…

..SerEnitY..

Definitions of serenity on the Web:repose: a disposition free from stress or emotion peace: the absence of mental stress or anxiety
wordnet.princeton.edu/perl/webwn




beaRbeAr ku mereNung ke Laut = aLonE



wasnt it juz beautiful...




p/s: ouh pardon for d pix quality... ak pkai tpon cameranye vga shj...

..suNshiNe..

hurm...

ak prasan...
blog ak ne da jd cam shoutbox da..
shoutbox pd org...
org yg xkn dgr...

maaf ya..
ak emo sjak kebelakangan ne..
pedih, sedey...
seme ade..

maaf ya..
msti kamu bosan kn...

well...
arine slepas sy found out sumtg..
sy tau sy kne wat sumtg....
kalu x, msti sy nanges cam idiot ag...


sy berjaya kidnap org..
tp xjual kt siam pn...
juz g bedah je..
tmn ak mkn sbb tensen...
pd kul 4.30 am...


lepak la d ctu...
smpai anney tu nk tutop kdai pn xreti2 nk blah...
last2 dorg tutop lmpu one by one..
kami ngn penuh faham bahasa nye pn g la byr..

"ak nk wat keje gle, nk ikot?"
n at 7.10am ak da kt pantai puteri..
konon nk tgk sunrise..
huh padahal sunrise belah blkg..
180 deg from d pantai..
huhuhu lepak d ctu...



now 8.36am..
bru smpai rumah...
trus apdet...

conclusion:
wat keje gila = anda kemungkinan akn accident..
so jgn memandu ske2 eyh mcm ak..huhuhu
wat keje gila = mamak2 kt bedah tgk ngn bengangnye
"ble la dak2 gla ne nk blah"
wat keje gila = anda akn tcegat d pantai...
pastu xda wtpe, blk = …

..confused..

sayang..

when u dedicate a song..
lengkap ngn liriknya..
kamu tulis pada seseorang..
apekah maknanya?
ouh, it's juz a song's lyric, u fool...

contohnye lagu ini:
Takkan lagi aku menunggu
kau hadir di dalam mimpi-mimpiku
puasku mengharapkan dirimu
seperti mereka yang punya cintaDiriku tanpa dirimu
kau tempuhi penuh bahagia
diriku mahu kau tahu
pedih ini kau tak terasaWarkahku mengharapkan dirimu
seperti yang aku kenali dulu
setiaku menantikan dirimu
seperti setianya terhadap dirikuTapiku melepaskan mu
melangkah namun tak berdaya
terusku terus menunggu
cinta yang takkan pernah ada
*sigh~


ak pnat.....


kwn kata:
think positive...
mcm mane ak mau thnk +ve..
i juz keep find things which actually ak xmo tau pn sbenarnye...


i juz hate my instinct...
aargh..








jika ak sruh kamu pilih..
ak suda tentu bkn pilihan kamu kn...

..inStinct..

Definitions of instinct on the Web:
A natural or inherent impulse or behaviour; An intuitive reaction not based on rational conscious thought en.wiktionary.org/wiki/instinctAn impulsion towards certain activities.Those psychic processes over which the ego has no control. www.schuelers.com/ChaosPsyche/glossary.htmnatural or innate ability free-english-study.com/vocabulary/academic-vocabulary-14.htmlThe notion of instinct is implicitly framed from a 3rd-person point of view (expressed literally, for example in Freud's id). ...www.leftfieldpress.com/glossary.htmlINeuro-psychic impulse to the action or to the reaction. digilander.libero.it/ExistentialAtheism/gloseng.htmhmm.......

ak tatau...
bt then ak ade instinct yg kuat..

sgt kuat rasanya...


or maybe lately ne kuat instinct ak..

hm...

jadi kamu....

jgn selindung or tipu ak..

ak dpt tau perkara yg kamu xbgtau..

jgn selindung or tipu ak..

apetah ag yg melibatkn ak or org yg ak sayang...

jgn selindung or tipu ak..


susah juga kn punye instinct yg …

..please..

sy mau nanges...



plz..

is there anybody to lend your shoulder for me?

plz..

sgt sedey...

sgt penat..

sgt sedey..

plz..

sy da x larat..

plz...

tlg la aware sy pn ade perasaan...

plz..

sy maw nanges..

ade sape maw teman sy..

ade sape maw console sy?

plz..

m tired...

plz...


plz...

plz...

plz.....






n yet m crying alone

..dear..

sy sedey ngn kamo...

kamo tau kn..
sy pnye instinct n pemahaman yg tinggi...




sy btul2 sdey dgn kamo...


maafkn sy..
sy salah..
sy salah dlm hal ini..



tp sy sedey ngn kamo....

tp kamu x peduli pn...
n sy fhm..
kamo bz..
n sy faham..
kamo mmg x peduli..

maaf..
mgkin sy sounds accusing d cni..
hmm

..ikLan dG..

spatutnye ak post dr aritu lagi..
tp byk ag pkara yg seyes ak maw pk..


plz..
kalu kamu x ske ak, jgn wat mcm bgus dpn ak..
kalu kamu act kamu epy bsama ak pda suatu ketika..
tp kamu mengata ak pada org len...
baik kamu jgn bcakap ngn ak..
spt contoh:
dpn ak, ajk bgambar bsama, tgelak²..
tp blkg ak kamu kata, "oh mija yg ______"isi tmpt kosong ngn kata kutukan yg kamu bole pk..
ak xperlu mengenali org yg sebegini ya..
buang masa ak shj b'buat baik pada kamu..
sbb itu adala obligation ak sbg kawan..
huh

teringat pula..
ak nk ucpkn tahniah pd sumbody..
dia mmg xske ak kot..sbb tu dia x bcakap ngn ak..
n mmg dia kutuk ak...
tp xpa, sbb dia xwat dpn-aku-ckp-baik-muka-manis-tapi-belakang-mengutuk..
n i respect her for that..
n dia avoid utk meluangkn masa bsama ak..
erk bkn ak ajk de kuar or wut, cuma dia akn mengelak kalu tau ak ada
=tp kalu ak xda, bole je nek kete ak..klaka gk ko eyh=
ape masalah ak ngn dat person?
nth...
ak xda masalah dgn de..
de yg ade masalah dgn ak..
so let her be lah..



p/s: ak x…

..kata..

siang dan malam
malam siang silih berganti
berkali kucuba namun masih kau tak mengerti
to make u understand
i'll make u mine n i'll be yours
together forever our love will always stand..

pabila tidak bersua walau seketika
rindu pula kuterasa
inikah ertinya cinta?
tapi bila bersama bibir tak terkata
jiwa raga bergelora
inikah ertinya cinta?

hanya kau yg ku mahu
hanya kau kuperlu
oh kasih, kasih
hanya kau yg kucinta
hanya kau yg kupinta
oh kasih, kasih..







sapa tau lagu apa?
suka lagu ini..
lagu ini = hati?
hahahaha

..peNeman..

..iNTroDuciNg..



Gmok Jr & LittLe deViL


:LittLe deViL:



nama:Little Devil

tarikh lahir: 18 April 2008

Asal: Gift shop @ Summit Shopping Center (yeke?huhu)

Others: itam sbb lil d takut yg putih tukar color..dlu gmok cket skrg da leper...slalu diangkut merata ;)

:Gmok Jr:



nama: Gmok Jr.

tarikh lahir: 16 August 2008

Asal: Gift kiosk @ Midvalley Megamall

Others: Mula² nk bg nama PdD which stands for Penguin d Devil..akn tetapi lil D nk bg nama gmok jr sbb penguin tu mokmok..huhu btw lil D is Gmok Sr ;p become little D's bestfwen =)

..mungkin betul..

mungkin betul kate org itu..
ak obses..
mungkin..

mungkin betul kate org itu..
evn ak x cakap, org bole agk mksudnya..
ak juz ckp ak ke sana..
tp mungkin pemahaman de, i want to spend tym wit u..
mungkin betul..
mungkin...










tp kalu de faham cmtu bgusla..
krn ak ske..
tp...
tp...
tp kalu mdatangkn even sdikit pn rasa kesusahan pd kamu..
xpela..
abaikn sj ape ku kate..
bak kate kasridona..
ak hnye watak picisan..
tiada sapa2 pn bagi kamu...

..if i can go..

If I can chose a place to go it gotta be far away
From here we could crossover like Hardaway
Somewhere outside the states where tommorow's like today
And I'm out in a space where nobody else can stay
And, if I can go, with you
Then I'll go get the ticket right now if that's cool
Have you ever been close to feelin like leavin the coast too
Feelin like leavin with somebody who
Hold you the right way while watchin the night fade
Make you feel like you right back in the ninth grade
When you know what he likes and what he might say
And you try to be calm and answer in nice ways
And, if I can go, with you
Way out the states no 2 ways and no page
No cells and no trace, and you just a phone call away
So all I got to say is


If I can go, contigo, I'll pack my things, soon as you say
Baby vamos, we'll fly away, like there is no, no tomorrow
If can go, contigo, I'll tell my friends, nothing at all
I'll get my things, soon as you say, baby vamos, we'll fly away


And, if I can go, wi…

..hari ini..

hari ini agk down..
mula dgn bgn lmbt..
sbb xle buka mata lgsng..
trasa penat sgt yg amat..

report kne submit...
ptg ade test..

then i got a bad news...
*sigh~
pnt..
seyesly pnat..
tp kamu maw ak wat ape?

guilty?
yeah..
kamu tatau bgaimana ak rasa..
nsb bek smpai ke fac...
trasa mau nanges je dlm lab td..
msuk lab pn da ade org tego swoh senyum..

so tell me...
bgaimana lagi harus ak wat?
seyesly da tatau nk watpe..
totally blank td..

tell me wut shud i do...
ak xle tahan diri dr contact..
ak xle stop jari dr type msg..
*sigh~

nk merajuk..
oi x sdar diri nk merajuk..
kamo tu sape maw merajuk ngn de..
apetah ag ttg small things...

tp seyesly..
ak x ske kamu diam begitu saja..
utk kesekian kalinya:
plz let me noe when u're ending our conversation..
kalu xda idea: ckp sj bye..
xsdar? : xsdar msg, ok bye...

*sigh~
ak serabut...




p/s: selamat berbuka

..mereka kata..

seorang kawan kata:
skrg ne ko kne jd selfish sket..biarla org len nk kate ape pn..dorg x rasa..ak faham ape yg ko rasa sbb kte ade kt situasi yg sama..so nasihat ak ko jd selfish utk dri sendri..at least bg lepas psm, final year..


seorg lagi kawan kata:
kalu ko wat camtu, ko x rasa nnt ko akn lg parah ke bila tibe saat ko nk let go? ko bole dikatakn obses juga...


hm aku kata? :
dedua btul...tp..nthla..mgkin bg ak skrg ne juz let it be..
sbb ak da xmmpu nk fikir ape patut dibuat..
situasi ne susah..
antara hati n perasaan dan juga ttg kesedaran sivik..
hmm...


I'm staring at the glass in front of me,
is it half empty or have i ruined all you've given me?
I know I've been selfish,
I know I've been foolish,
but look through that
and you will see,

I'll do better, I know,
Baby, I can do better.

If you leave me tonight, I'll wake up alone,
don't tell me I will make it on my own,
don't leave me tonight,
this heart of stone will sing till it dies
if you leave me tonight.

Sometimes I …

..hm, he juz left without saying hi...

first time ak tgk bola pkai bju jersey team yg lawan..
huhuhu x pnah t'pk..
seyesly..
hahahaha
smpai2 bedah ade bola...
liverpool vs aston villa..
n ak pkai jersey liverpool..
hahahahaha x pnah t'pk..


slain kegembiraan dpt mnum limau ais (aish pose pose)..
ade 1 ag prasaan yg ak rasa smlm...

frustrated...

ade 2 perkara yg mbuatkn ak frustrated...

1. kamu tau ak d ctu...n i made an effort to be a friend for u n forget d past... n all u did is... u walked away without saying hi...kawan apekh kamu? kamu call n minta maaf sempena ramadhan..tp kamu menyakitkn ati ak d pagi 1 ramadhan..sy frustrated dgn kamu...sgt... u threw d 3 yrs of friendship into d drain...maceh...

2. org yg suppose sgt aware ape yg ak ske n xske wat bnda yg ak xske...sy juga frustrated ngn kamo sbb kamo patut taw yg ak xske org wat cmtu...yet kamo wat...kamo suppose to b d person yg sgt faham perangai ak...sy frustrated ngn kamo juga...


tp ak x frust liverpool x menang smlm..
ak tiada perasaan thadap itu..