Tuesday, August 12, 2014

Frozen

So, I am sitting here in Sushi King, having my comfort food.

Well, I always have the tendency to eat(more to always actually) whenever I am depressed or after a bad conversation etc. (Hence to why I am getting fatter).

I am trying my hardest to please everybody. Parents, family, lilD, friends, employer, well, just everybody. Here we come to the point where I am just tired.

Cerita pasal lilD, we had arguments, during raya. Eh, Selamat Hari Raya by the way!

Ok, we had arguments, so since that I am trying my hardest not to be offended, to care, to feel, well, to be heartless in short. Kan, selalu ada masalah where I feel he thinks that I should be a robot without a heart so that I would stop getting hurt for stupid little things. So, that happened.

Sudahnya, he said I am being cold towards him. I don't think anything change, I am happy head over heels whenever I got to meet him. Just, I can't afford to feel anything, anymore to stop getting hurt.

I am trying to please him, to be heartless, so that we won't go to the same road of him accusing me to be upset for everything, when I am a human who has feelings.

So there you go, I guess heartless makes you cold.

Just keep swimming!

If you want move forward, something have to change. Alah, macam kita nak berjalan, kita kena melangkah, kena gerakkan kaki, makanya kaki kit...