..2.a.m..

terasa mau berkata2..
td cam ade jew benda nk ckp..
tp cam da lupe lk..

hurm...


aku akn senyum ble aku trase..
aku nanges sbb aku bodoh..
aku ketawa sbb aku sedey..
aku sgt bodoh kerana menanges bile dgr lagu yg aku rasa spt mceritakn perasaan aku...
sbbnye?
sbb sebolehnye aku maw..
aku maw org faham ape aku rasa tanpa aku katakn kpd mereka..
sbb aku tidak bole berkata ape aku rasa kpd mereka..
it's a big no..
knape?
sbb aku tiada hak..
sbb aku tidak layak sama skali..
sbb aku bkn sesape bg mereka..
jd siapakh aku?

kurasa..
ku rasa spt..
hurm..
aku hnye peneman..
aku hnye penghibur mereka..
aku hnye utk mereka bsuke ria..
aku hnye utk bgembire..
adekah aku bgembire?
ya aku gembira dpt mgembirakn mereka..
aku gembire mereka tidak bosan dgn ku..
aku gembire when i saw d smile is sketch across his face..
dan aku sgt gembira ble mereka pura2 care ttg aku..
n adakh aku sememangnye gembire?
epy epy epy me...
m i?
aku layak utk epy?
bgaimana aku layak sdgkn aku tdk layak utk dianggap lebey..
lebey dr phibur..
lebey dr peneman di kala sunyi..
aku tidak pernah beyond dat..
m not sure dat i will..

i dun evn remember when was d last tym i was sum1's priority..
aku tidak igt ble kali t'akhir aku seorg yg penting dlm idup seseorg..
i forgot d last tym dat sum1 was there for me..
juz to talk n console me..
to comfort me n to hold me close..

sbenarnye aku sudah penat..
aku penat dgn semue ini..
aku sudah penat mjadi dat other girl..
aku sudah pnat mjadi bitch..
aku tau aku jahat..
aku sgt jahat sbenarnye..
tp..

aku pn pnye perasaan..
adakah aku salah sbb aku suka pada org itu?
m i damn wrong to fall for a guy?
or m i dun even av d right to fall for anyone?
patutkah aku mjadi seorg yg tiada perasan?
boleh sesiapa ajar aku utk mjadi sesorg yg bole menipu diri sendri?
ouh ya plus menipu org d sekeliling..
dan menjadi org yg tdak mpunyai perasaan...
mybe i shud ask sumbody to teach me not to ever fall...
diriku sungguh bodoh bukan?
i shud be awarded as d foolest ppl ever exist in d world..
a moron..
hahhaha

hurm...
bg kamu yg mbaca..jika ada la..
i was told sy mpunyai org yg ske mbaca blog sy..
sjk sy d fs lg..
tp kn..
utk org tsebut..
sy mnta kamu jgn mbuat andaian yg bukan2 ttg blog ini..
kerana sy tamau minta maaf kpd org yg sy x wat salah..
bosan, itupn jika kamu tau maksudnye..
krn walaupn sy tdk mpnyai lover..
tp sy tdaklah gila maw kpd kekaseh mu..
cuma sy hanya bodoh..
bodoh sbb owez b there kpd mereka..
mereka yg beyond my reach..
ouh ya..
aku patut minta org mengajar aku utk bhenti mjadi org bodoh..hurmm

kpd dia..
(maaf krn mengecewakn kamu, dia bkn kekaseh kamu ya)
diriku akn sentiasa bersama kamu..
di kala kamu susah..
di kala kamu sng (jika kamu menginginkn aku)..
diriku akn sentiasa mbantu kamu..
samada yg remeh..
atau skalipn mengusik jiwaku..
aku tau aku x bole meminta..
dan aku tau aku bkn sesapa..
tp ku mau kamu tau..
kamu adalah sesuatu..
sesuatu dlm hidupku..
yg ckup mbuat ku gembira..
walaupun sekadar sesaat..
yg cukup menyentuh aku..
walaupn utk sedetik...
yg cukup mbahagiakan ku..
walaupn tiada makna bg kamu..
aku cherish semue detik ku bsama kamu..
evn ku tau kamu tidak pnah mengingatinye..
kamu penting bg ku..
kamu adalah priority ku..
ouh ya call me old fashion, bt i do willing to anything for d 1 i love..
jd kamu jgn rs bsalah jika aku menyusahkn diriku..
kerana itulah kebodohan aku..
cuz i owez be there for d one dat wont understand my feeling..
d one who wont noe my feeling towards kamu..
sy sentiasa utk kamu evn kamu bkn utk saya..
yeah i am a bitch..

if I love ya a little more than i should...
please forgive me, i know not what i do
please forgive me, i can't stop lovin' you

ouh..
dear lil dvl..
m gonna miss u damn much..
very much indeed..
evn 'little d' is wit me..
bt he'll nvr can replace u..
juz filling in ur space (trase salah pd aytku)..
bt 1 thing dat i learned today..
'little d' nvr gonna leave me..
but..
"engkau ttp pergi, pergi meninggalkn ku sendiri"
huhuhuhuh sengal sungguh ramiza


sudah la...
panjang lebar gemok sungguh post ini..
kegilaan ku ditengah mlm...
jgn baca krn ianya bosan..
tiada pengisian utk kamu pn..
hnya mceritakn kebodohan aku..
huhuhuhu lalalalalala

ramiza...get a life..!!

ini little D aku..comelkn dia memakai glove =)

damn...mane dlink_wireless yg sering ku curi itu?
aku maw publish post ini..
kamu sentiasa buat begini di saat aku rasakn penting..cepatlh...
aku mau tido pula ne..
hurm hnye leh publish pg ini..
gud morning..

.mengeapdet..

li da abes..
report da anta..
skrg menganggur...
tanam anggur kt dlm badan..
huh?????

pegi melaka...

anta report..

melawat umah sewa.

knal mak epul..

knal housemates to be...

mereka bertige..

so mencari lg sorg...

hurmmmmmm

ape yg berubah di melaka?
ade menara berputar...
bangunan carrefour yg spt wisma negeri...
yg len x smpt dperhati..
mengejar ms dan kepenatan...
muke pn pucat..
kepala sudah weng..
kaki sudah penat..
terasa mau muntah..

jupe sumbody...

da lama x jupe die..

since nov last year..

hurm miching u aroung la...

fun to b with u..

bt then...

nth la...

stay close, dont go...

i'll remember those words..

evn it hurts..

huhuhuhu sengalkah diriku ini...

mbuatkn diriku pk..

diriku sentiasa berada bersama seseorg..

org yg x memerlukn diriku..

tetapi ku akn setia bsama org itu..

evn ku tau dia x memerlukn aku..

ttp ku akn sentiasa bsama org itu..

ku setia akn org itu..

aku bodoh ke?

i will owez stay close..

n pray for their happiness..

aku yg risau jika mereka ade prob dgn yg lebih utama..

aku cuba mrationalizekn jika mrk ade prob dgn yg utama..

ape yg utama bg ku?

ku sentiasa fall for d wrong guy..

aku kh yg x pndai mcari org?

atau mmg nsb ku akn sentiasa bgtu?

mjadi org yg hnya stay close n hope for nothing..

diriku...

blk dr mlk trus ke sunway...
igt mau singgah pd bt then sudah x larat..
lgpn ade yg menanti d cni =)
sy suka menghabiskn ms bsama kamu semue...
dan terutamanya kamoo...
terima kasih kerana sabar menunggu..
walaupun sy tau sgt yg kamu penat sgt yg amat...
thnx n sorry dear..

sy tdo dgn nyenyaknye..

org anta msg pn xperasan...

kepenatan 2 minggu...

kelegaan...

lusa cuti lagi..

selamat hari pekerja..

n m gonna mish u..

hurmmmmmmmmmm

.

.

.

.

mau letak gmba bt then dis deym internet connection sucks..

..hurm..

li da abes...

mls mau wat report...

xreti wat report..

tenet xda..

bosan...

rindu..

bosan...

mau keje..

mau g melaka..

mau housemate...

hurmm......

..LeLaki.tEgaR.yg.haLUs..

..kelembutan pada seorang lelaki..

maaf ye hafizi..tp aku ske gmbar ini..

..womeN = haZardoUs..

..go.to.he.LL..

aku tbaca stat seseorg..
xdala aku kate aku trase..
bt then stat tu mcm tuju kt aku jew..
kalu la btul tuju kt aku kn..
brape kali sudah kukatakan..
aku tak mahu amek tau psl jantan sialan itu..
aku tidak pnah knal jantan itu..
aku xpnah kwn pn ngn jantan itu..
aku tidak pnah bsua muka pn ngn itu jantan..
dan aku sgt mbenci jantan itu..
aku sudh x bcakp ngn jantan itu..
malah aku tdk ym/msg pn jantan itu..
aku xpnah simpan no jantan itu..
malah aku sgt bencikn jantan itu..
aku xpnah tau kwujudan itu jantan..

aku bahagia ngn diri aku..
aku xperlu kaco org len..
so jgn kaco aku..
go n f*** sum1 else..
huhu..
aku juga suka akn org len..
aku mberi perhatian kpd org len..
ape shj stat aku, cerita aku kata aku tidak ada kne mengena dgn kamu..
xda keme mengeme ngn jantan sialan itu..

so jgn kaitkn aku dgn hidup kamu..
aku x knal kamu..
aku xknal jantan sialan itu..
go f*** urself..

get a life..!!

lalalalalla

..ru.N..

nth la..

dunno wut to describe dis feeling..

trase bt then i cant b mad..

mau gembira bt yet m sad..

maw nanges bt then aku kne epy..

maw tnye tp i noe where i stand..

maw ckp bt i noe m nothing..

maw minta tp i noe cant..

maw hope bt yet there's no hope..

wanna wait bt there's nothing to wait..

wanna let go bt i juz cant..

maw lari..

maw lari jaoh2..

if only i can run n nvr return..

run n nvr look back.

run n forget all of dis..

i wish it cud b simple as dat..

i wish it is simple..

i wish it's easy..

i wish i hadnt fall..

i wish it didnt hv to b dis way..

i wish i cud wish...

..wheN oLD freNz meet Up..

mIni reUnion of ex students of mjsc pt..hehe
dis is d 3rd reu actualy..
yg 1st kt klcc merdeka last yr, bt only 5 of us turned up..
yg 2nd kt melawi, bt i didnt go..(yg ne plg ramai)
pegi lambat aritu, after loads of things to do @ home..
yg pegi:

• mache
• nazili
• fadhil
• pene
• ipe
• jaja
• sharina
• ramiza (hehe)
• 2 org jemputan iaitu kwn ipe n jaja..

they met up awl lagi..bt then aku smpai midvalley kul 5..trus g men bowling ngn mereka..hehe besh gk laa..n d best part is, aku nye score lagi tinggi dr pene (wakil masum upnm)..hehehe

well guyz, great to spend d day wit u..

so hope ade next gathering lak ye..

..tagged again..

tagged by irfan..layankan aje dak kecik ini

TAGSTUFF : Instructions: Remove 1 question from below, and add in your personal question, make it a total of 20 questions, then tag 8 people in your list, list them out at the end of this post. Notify them in their chat box that he/she has been tagged.

1. Pick 1..love or lust..
[luv]

2. What was the last movie you've watched?
[evolusi kl drift..nxt will be over her dead body]

3. If you were to be stranded on a desert island, who are the 3 blog buddies you would take with you?
[shepha,keri,teah]

4. Where is the place that you want to go the most?
[rite now? southampton utk melarikn diri]

5. If you can have 1 dream to come true, what would it be?
[to av all d wishes in d world]

6. Do you believe in seeing a rainbow after the rain?
[nope..cuz rainbow juz an illusion, it's a beau, bt it's nvr there]

7. What are you afraid to lose the most now?
[them dat matters to me n faith]

8.Where are you off to after this?
[pegi men pool d 15..pkai bju kurung buleh?]

9. If you meet someone that you love, would you confess to him/her?
[depends..sumthings r better left unsaid]

10. List out 3 good points of the person who tagged you.
[budak kecik..jr mjsc yg bijak dr aku..ez to get along =irfan dak kecik, aku puji ko ne]

11. What are the requirements that you wish from your other half?
[smart, lovable]

12. Which type of person do you hate the most?
[hypocrites, backstabbers]

13. What is your ambition?
[to b sum1]

14. If you have fault, would you rather the people around you point out to you or would you rather they keep quiet?
[talk to me, try me]

15. What do you think is the most important thing in your life?
[thing? dunno]

16. Are you a shopaholic or not?
[m not, until recently..influenced from nina]

17. Find a word to describe the person who tagged you
[ini sudah djawab]

18. What will you do when someone faints in front of you?
[yell for help, or call 991]

19. What makes you different?
[there's certain things dat make me diff]

20. When is your birthday?
[oct 2nd, 1986]

nxt tag to

• keri
• syifa
• nughul
• teah

..breAk..

penulis di kala ini sedangmenderita sakit mata..

sakit sejak 2 rabu lepas (2 april 08)

sgt jarang melayan anda 2 minggu ini kn..

i'll be back n get back to u when m ok..

so hope u'll njoy ur day..

sape yg tag diriku, nnt la ye..

..m.iss.ing..n..wi.ll..o.wez..mis.sin.g..hi.m..

..poLis sentrY 1 2 jaGa..

..Lyk.u'LL.nVr.sEe.me.agAin..

If I had no more time

No more time left to be here

Would you cherish what we had?

Was it everything that you were looking for?

If I couldn't feel your touch

And no longer were you with me

I'd be wishing you were here

To be everything that I'd be looking for

I don't wanna forget the present is a gift

And I don't wanna take for granted the time you may have here with me

Cause Lord only knows another day is not really guaranteed

So every time you hold me

Hold me like this is the last time

Every time you kiss me

Kiss me like you'll never see me again

Every time you touch me

Touch me like this is the last time

Promise that you'll love me

Love me like you'll never see me again

How many really know what love is?

Millions never will

Do you know until you lose it
That it's everything that we are looking for

When I wake up in the morning

You're beside me

I'm so thankful that I found

Everything that I been looking for
I don't wanna forget the present is a gift

And I don't wanna take for granted the time you may have here with me

Cause Lord only knows another day is not really guaranteed
So everytime you hold me

Hold me like this is the last time

Every time you kiss me

Kiss me like you'll never see me again (can you do that for me baby)

Every time you touch me (see we don't really know)

Touch me like this is the last time (see everyday we never know)

Promise that you'll love me (I want you to promise me)

Love me like you'll never see me again (like you'll never see me again)

hurm well dat's wut i fyl now..came across dis song couples of week before..i owez lyk alicia keys' songs..but then, dis song sumtym do make me wanna cry of certain things (act 1 thing) in my life rite now..

well, we nvr do really noe wut's gonna happen in our life, aite...we never plan to b wit sum ppl, fall for a guy or ended up being hurt..we nvr noe wut's in d next sec..

a lil secret of mine..i nvr noe dat i wud fall for certain guy..which i ended up owez fall for d wrong guy...6 yrs of frenship nvr guarantee anything..a caring person doesnt mean u'll b together forever..being wit sum1 who asked u to stay close doesnt mean he'll stay..n wif sum1 u nvr evn tot u'd fall for, is d one u gonna miss d most n capable of making u cry..

looking at sum1 dat u care, or specifically love while he's sleeping is sumtg...at least for me..dat's d tym where u can actualy xpress wut u feel..looking to the face bring peace, smile..ala mcm tgk baby tdo, kn mcm besh je..huhuhu bt yet, dat's when i started to think..wut gonna happen after this..will we still hv d moments of happiness or will dis memories will b forgotten? n dat's wut make me acted like an idiot n bursted into tears..haha terasa sgt bodoh...bodoh kerana i noe it's going nowhere bt yet m here..

wuteva it is, everytime u hold me, kiss me or touch me juz love me like u'll nvr see me again which i can say we most likely will nvr see each other again

.taG..u'rE it..

hurm telah di tag oleh en keri

so this is it..

8 thIngs dat wiLL maKe u reGret knOwing raMiza

8 reaSons for u to Hate raMiza

.

.

.

1. she drives a perodua kelisa limited edition..black n blue in color registered with plate number AAQ 22.

2. she didnt eat veggie..bt she's into ulam n salad..

3. she can be outgoing but most of d tym she's a listener n observer..

4. she is hot tempered..bt yet easily cool off..

5. chocolate is her fave..sgt ske sbenarnye..

6. u can say dat she's bad..she is, i admit that..she've done several things dat she regret which of can make u hate her bt then she'll owez b there for u even u hated her..

7. she find it very difficult to say no to sum1, she'll answer ur call in d middle of her sleep..she'll reply ur text even wit her both eyes closed..

8. she's not addorable, not lovable..bt yet it's hard for her fall in luv..bt then once she fall for u, she'll do anything to make u happy..evendo in d end, she'll b d one dat hurts all along..

enuf of d fact..

mau tag sapa ya??

mau tag sorang saja..

sy mau tag cik nurul fatihah kamarudin...

walaupn tag sy sblum ne dia masih blom melakukannye

p/s: apekah yg diriku mengarut ini???

..seALed..

where i'm standing, i can go nowhere

what i'm feeling, i couldnt ask more

what i have, is just your shadow

what i'm holding onto, is just your presence

....

you're near, yet untouchable

you're in my arms, yet unreachable

ignoring me, would be the best

loving you is what i do best

....

but still, it's just in my dreams

where my memories with you are sealed with tears

.

.

.

mentari court

0445hrs, april 3rd 2008

..mY seCret..

..for d one..

.

.

what i feel, only i know..

what i possess, only i have..

our heart, only we who care..

our love, only we who keep..

the pain, others cant bear..

the tear, other cant wipe..

what i have for you, i give it all..

what i feel for u, let i keep it with me..

and my love for you,

let it slowly dies with me..

.

.

..mmz, bukit jelutong..

..2015 hrs, 1st april 2008..

..oUr wiShes weRe grAnted in A weEk..

PapA's 61st biRthdaY

kami satu family (except k.dik n family) mkn di tgi friday's subang parade

nina pn ikut skali

mlm tu b.cik blnje

sgt kenyang bcuz it's such a big portion for a person

i ate lamb chop, sgt kenyang

birthday present??

haha oredi gave when i got ptptn loan

kre cam advance laa...

nway d foods there quite tasty

A&W nYte

wanTed to eat a&w since npl 1st leg lagi...but asyik tertangguh je..da byk kali laaa tertangguhnya..then unexpetedly ade org ajk mkn a&w..so pegi je la smbil menonton movie 27 dresses..which quite not bad muvi..light drama..utk melihat ske2..hahaha but then me n nina enjoyed our coNey doG n root beer float..yummy...

haIrcut & j.cO

when we got our internship allowance, first thing we did was to get a haircut..hehe oredi told nina weeks before dat i wanna cut my hair..make it shorter..y? hurm one of d reason is dat my hair is damaged due to coloring n highlighting dat i did b4..another is bcuz mau tukar angin utk berambut pendek..so after accidently knowing dat our allowance was credited to our account, we straight away went to sunway pyramid, to apt to cut our hair..selepas itu kami pn pergi membeli j.co donut yg kami sukai =) ahaha x tahan seyh bau dia kalu da ade kt nu wing tu..hehehe setelah mbeli, walaupn kdai donut tu da nk tutup, kami melepak di kerusi2 cafe j.co..then d photography session begin..

as a conlusion...

dat week was so great bcuz wut we achieved n get wut we wanted n planned..

it does feels gud when ur wish is granted =)