..it's juz ranting..

hi..

ok, my life is a mess..
well btw i didnt win any passes to mtv world stage..
n sumbody trying to sell those passes for 600!
ok, i'll get over it..

back to the main subject..
my life is a mess..
i'm not organized, rasa mcm x memperdulikan diri sendiri pn ye..

ok, my room is a biggggg mess...
xda masa nk kemas?
mungkin..
xnk menyediakan masa utk mengemas?
mgkin juga..
i also dunno how i can live with dis mess..
ye, ak bukanla d type of person yg sgt organize n particular ttg kekemasan..
bt i dun like to live like a rat..
bt c how i am now..
hmm...

keje d office..xa la byk n xda la relax..
i take orders from two different ppl..
xda masalah pn..juz ak still xdpt organize..
mane yg priority, mane yg leh wat..
seyes, ne total mess..yg mane ak end up 1 keje pn xjadi..

i planned to do some of my works when i get home..
tp ble blk ngn keadaan bilik yg mengalahkn tempat kucen beranak, i juz get home n sit..
duduk utk merehatkn diri, watch tv n sleep..
hm, ak tatau nk wtpe dah seyesly..

my health?
kadang2 ok, kadang2 x..
ada batuk yg mane kadang2 bese je n kadang2 mcm nk tcabut jantung..

friends?
i've noticed sjak bkerja, kurang ms nk bsosial..
tatau same ade ak yg mjauhkn/m'asingkn diri, or ak makin xda kawan..
susah nk detect yg mane btul..

love life?
do i av 1? so it shudnt b a prob la kn?
or mb secret love life?
hahaha do i?
i dun think it's a secret bt it's unacceptable..
still, i got d heartache from dat which worsen my state..
m in a state of denial that dis cant hurt me..
bt i know dat i was damn wrong bt i cant do anything bout it..
screw me..

so..what shud i do?
ne yg wat perasaan mau lari timbul smula..
haish..