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hm ok..
entry ne ditype ble perasaan da tenang...
*tarik nafas*
ye, ak da jemur baju hmmm jp nk lipat baju ngn basuh muka sat...


i noe got no one to blame bt myself...
ak ngaku ak byk kelemahan..
ak byk sifat n sikap yg buruk..
mgkin sbb ak byk memendam rasa, evrythg dat i said doesnt come out rite..
so ble da slalu memendam rasa, sali ak cuba luahkn yg sdikit pd sum1 sbenarnye it make things worse..*sigh~
ye, mgkn ak defensive d ats..mgkn kamo akn fkir yg ak cuba utk menidakkn kesalahan ak...
dun get me wrong, ak tau ak bsalah dlm hmmm semue hal..
sbb tu ak minta maaf..
n bkn maw kate ak cuba wat kamo rasa ak konon baik...
tak....ak tau tu salah ak, sbb tu ak mnta maaf...

hmm jgn baca apa yg ak nk tulis jika kamo ade prasaan bengang..
jika kamo msh marah thadap ak..

syg, org tau org x pndai bkata2...sbb tu seme yg org ckp sng d salah tafsirkn...furthermore, sms bole menyalah tafsirkn nada, niat n ati pengirim...
yes, m looking forward to meet u...it's wut i hope everytime we say goodbye..
jd org akn seek stiap opportunity yg ada, try meluangkn seme ms yg org ada utk jupe awk..
tp...tp itu xbmakna awk harus jupe org..no, it's NOT a MUST..
ye, mmg org bharap org akn jupe awk, tp org x pnah pn...TAK pernah tniat utk paksa, mbuat awk tpaksa jupe org..ianya sekadar harapan..
dan org sgt APPRECIATE stiap effort yg awk wat utk jupe org..org tau, beribu,bjuta kali org ckp thnx pn, xkn tbalas masa yg awk korbankn utk org...
semua good deeds awk thadap org, jasa baik, niat baik n effort awk xkn tbalas oleh org..
org xkn dpt balas evn setitik pn SACRIFICES yg awk buat..

tabiat buruk org: org still akn anta msg lepas kte argue n awk kate nk tdo...tp bkn niat nk provoke awk..it's juz a luahan ati yg patut awk baca ble keadaan da reda n it doesnt mean a thing pn...juz words yg x makna..sbb biasanya org akn sdar betapa bodohnye org ble da stop argue..

bile org kate itu plan org...it's juz merely a plan..perancangan org..bknnya apa yg akn jadi.. planning bole diubah suai..n bknnya utk pressure..it's juz a planning...yg kalu menyusahkn bg awk, org bole tuka plan or juz forget it..

org bkn try to put my words in ur mouth..maaf kalu itu yg org wat selama ne..sumpah, x terniat pn..sbb org bkn sape2 yg penting dlm ur life, so bg org ape org ckp doesnt mean anything.. ye, nmpk sgt kebodohan org d ctu..

org rasa mmg dr dlu org mcm sdikit suka whining..ye ok, byk sgt mengada2, whining..tp slama ne awk wat bodo je kt seme tu..bt then nape skrg mcm jd issue yg bsar.. ok, kalu dlu org juz sdikit ske mengada2, then plz slap me hard kalu skrg sbenarnye lebey dr dlu..

thnx sbb akhirnya awk da bterus terang yg awk smakin x suka jupe org...yeah, truth hurts.. tp ape org bole buat..xkn nk mrh awk kot, tu perasaan awk..terima kasih sgt2 sbb bgtau org d truth..it's good to noe d truth kn..gud for u..hm..

tahniah sbb skrg awk da bole say 'no' to ppl..awk da improved =) congrats..

syg, kebetulan dlm bulan yg mulia ne, org minta maaf sgale salah silap org dr ujung rambut ke ujung kaki..org tau org bkn kawan or companion yg baik utk awk..org minta maaf stiap kali awk rasa marah, stiap kali awk terasa hati dgn org, stiap kali awk rasa tpaksa..org minta maaf awk byk bazirkn masa awk, duit awk...org minta maaf sbb byk sgt sacrifice yg awk da wat utk puaskn ati org..ye, org selfish...org lupa org ne sape..i forgot where i stand...org minta maaf ats itu..org tau, bjuta kali maaf yg terucap xkn dpt buat awk maafkn seme salah org slama 9 bulan kite knal..a ah, arine cukup2 9bln...dr 10.01.08 sehinggala 10.10.08.. org minta maaf stiap kali org bkasar ngn awk, stiap kali org tinggi suara dekat awk, stiap kali org menyusahkn awk... ah, byk salah org kt awk...x t'list kt cni...awk pn bole listkn kalu awk nk...i dun mind..mmg salah org..

syg, org tau entry ne akn wat awk marah (again, it's my fault) tp maafkn org..org da xda tmpt nk luahkn..org da pnat asyik tsentak masa tdo sbb byk sgt benda org pk..maafkn org ye.. tp org harap sgt2, yg awk akn baca entry ne bkn sbg nk memalukn awk, or nk buat awk marah ag... ne juz tpt org leh ckp betapa sorry i am, dan tmpat utk org luahkn rasa org..

mokmok, jaga diri baik² ye syg..org akn cuba kotakn sgale janji org thadap awk...plz jaga baik2 diri awak...awk penting bg org..org xnk dgr pape yg buruk ttg awak...org pn da tau ape perasaan awk kt org sbb awk pn da btrus terang..ape lagi org bole buatkn? but worry not =) org sentiasa ada kt cni..org sentiasa ada utk awk... org pn da ckp, i wont leave unless u asked me to leave..then i'll leave without question... org syg mokmok org ne =) so plz take care of urself cuz i do care bout u...plz...for me...k bkn for me..for ur loved ones...

jika matamu berat memandangku,
ringankanlah kakimu pergi dariku..
jika bibirmu terpaksa senyum padaku,
relakanlah mukamu utk berpaling dariku..
jika susah utk kau melupakn kesalahanku,
senangknlah lidahmu utk menghinaku..
tapi andainya suatu hari telingamu mendengar sesuatu tentangku,
ikhlasknlah tanganmu mengusungku,
dan bisikkan padaku yg kau telah memaafkn aku...
=hm jgn fikir mcmane yg awk fikir ttg msg org if there's no more chance tu=

I know it makes no sense, but what else can I do,
How can I move on when I'm still in love with you...
Cos if one day you wake up and find that you're missing me,
And your heart starts to wonder where on this earth I can be,
Thinking maybe you'll come back here to the place that we'd meet,
And you'd see me waiting for you on the corner of the street.