..switch..

if memories have a switch..
i would turn off the memories of u..
if feelings can be wiped off..
i would erase my feelings for u..
none of the words could say what i feel..
none of the colors could paint d truth.
none of them are real for u..
none of them can make me forget u..
how i wish n i try..
how i pray n i fall..
i juz still cant go far from u..

hmm...
kn best kalu memori bole d switch on or switch off..
bole lupakn ape yg nk dlupakn..
ah~
menyibukkan diri..

..masih..

ah~
sgt x ske situasi ne..
x ske x ske xske..

bkn x cuba..
da..
sgt mcuba sdaye upaya..
tp..

bkn xmo org itu epy..
maw sgt..
tp..
x biasa tanpa dia..

Masih ku tak berdaya
Melupakan mu
Di hatiku berkata
Apakah sebenarnya cinta
Di hati ini
Hanya mainan semata
Namun kau tak mengerti
Apakah sebenarnya yang telah terjadi
Di diri ini
Kau yang masih di hati
Tidak terdaya
Untuk mengundur diri
Darimu


xske berada d situasi ini..
katanya daku pn menolak..

xske ble ade org bgado krn ak..
keadaan suda buruk, jgn dtambah ag..
kalu krn ak kamo bgado..
ak xmo mganggu kamo, kamo, kamo..
biarlah kamo gembira..

ah~
seyesly ak maw lari..
ak x ske keadaan ini..
ak xske situasi ini..


ak xske menangis..

..mari melarikan diri bsamaku..

marilah..

..LoOkin bAck to nOthiN..

if i look back..
i av these memories..
of u n me..
together..

if i look back..
i could see..
pictures of u n me..
together..

if i look around..
i could see..
nothingness..
emptiness..

if i look around..
i find myself..
miserably incomplete..
without u..


hm jiwa tgh kosong..
idea nk wt psm pn tiada..
4 hrs wasted on doing nothing..
perut spt lapar sdikit..
kpale spt kembali sakit..
ah~ benci perasaan ini..

masih lagi rasa bsalah..
thadap dia, dia dan dia..
mgkn juga pd dia..
mgkn pada semua org..
mungkin..

ah~
tlalu byk..
tlalu sesak..
semakin menyesak..
semakin melemaskn diri..

gmok jr suda kurus..
little D smakin kurus..
sayang..


sy maw lari..
anda maw ikot?

..selfish jerk..

ah..

xske perasaan ne..

asek meyusahkn org len.
asek menimbulkn mslh..
deym

a result from a selfish act..
u created prob..
no to urself, bt other ppl..
dat's y it's called selfish..

skrg?
ye ak menimbulkn mslh pd org..
mslh besar sbb sifat selfish itu..

peduli ape dgn niat sbenar kamu..
peduli ape dgn tujuan asal kamu..
sbb yg tjadi nye benda len..
dan hasilnya menyusahkn org..

ah~
ucapkn beribu kali kemaafan pn tiada guna..
minta maaf smbil tguling² pn tak dpt memadamkn kemarahan..
kamu yg mganggu volcano itu..
sudah meletup, kamulh yg tanggung akibatnye..

kpd org itu..
org minta maaf, evn i noe it's useless..
bt m truly sorry for wut happened..
u av every right to b mad at me..
u av d right not to forgive me..
n i take the blame..
m sorry =(

..dorky dork..

maw apdet..tp mls..

maw ckp..tp takot..

nth..

padan muka, u deserves it..

tgk jadual..
penuhnya..

tgk kerja yg tertangguh..
deymmmm


gembira dpt jupe kesayangan ati smlm..
da lama xjupe..
rindu ms dolu..

dtegur kurus n muka cengkung..
tpu lah!
blom enuf torture diri lg..

trase mcm org anneroxia lk smlm..
lps mkn, muntahkn semula..
deym..

ah, trase maw pulang..
tp, duit semakin menyusut..
deym...

maw tgl d cni buat keja..
tp..
ah..
deym..

knape eyh title ku begitu..
huh

..kayu pengukur..

hmm
dlm mode senyap skrg..
kalu bckp pn tiada sape nk mdengar..

keje..

class..

kawan..

m stressed out..

10 out of 14..
dlm masa dua ari..
sungguh hebat anda..
beri tepukn pd diri sendiri kerana semakin bjaya mhancurkn diri..
da smakin pndai mbeli tanpa segan silu..

nmpknye, smkn mengikat perut la kamu kerana duit d abeskn ke situ..

ikutkn ati maw lari shj..
smlm suda tpk maw lari ke kl..
tp ptg ne ade labtest pula..attendance da la buruk..
huh..

maw lari..
maw puaskn ati seme org..
maw lari..
sbb tu akn mgembirakn ati seme org..

smlm bkata pd seseorg..
tidak maw mburukkn keadaan, nnt ade juga yg kuar x kembali..
org tu kate ak celupar..
erk..
lain mksud sbenarnye..

tp..
kalu itu yg tjadi pn, mgkn bole mgembirakn seme pihak..
tiada yg perlu mjaga ati, tersakit ati, semak kepala..
mgkn itu yg lebey baik..
tp..
as if daku cukup pahala lah kn utk seme tu jd..

niat d ati weekend ne maw dok d mlk diam²..
tp dlm keadaan cani, *sigh~ nthla..
maw pulang ke rumah, tidk mungkin..
ade yg mjengkelkn d sana..
maw lari ke sunway..
byk pula memori gembira yg bole menyedihkn ati..

lantas, harus ke mana?

..mari berkasih sayang..

arine bru kurang sket pnt..
da 2 ari keje ku asek tdo je sbb kepenatan bercinta x abes ag..
hhuhuhu

valentine?
haha bcinta dlm pdg dgn lutut yg luka..
besh...
luvbite?
byk........
ade la dlm 7 or 8 kot..
plg teruk kt paha, sbb kne pellet x pecah..
huhu

hmm smlm test pn jwb lebey kurang sbb kurang std..
mau x nye, asek tdo je keje ak..
pnat dowh..
pnt dlm pdg..luar pdg..
blk kne drve ag..
smpai je umh terus tdo..

nthla, ak pn tatau nape..
cpt trase ati kot skrg..
xda la ngengada nk terasa..tp....

well...
kalu da buat plan bt left me out..
then ble da nk kuar da bru nk ajk ak join, xpe la..
u guyz go ahead cuz u left me out from d beginning..
xpe...ak da bese kne tgl n d sisihkn ne..
it's nothing new for me..

ade org tnye smlm, "aik, mija dtg sorg je?"
ak pn tatau nk jwb pe, last² ak jwb, "kete ak kete buruk, sapela sudi nek"..
yea..
bab suruh menyuruh amek, beli, bayar..sila suruh ak..
bab maw get together, bsuka ria, mkn..sila lupakan ak..
xpe, ak da bese..
da biasa da org lupa ak..
so,it's nothing new for me..

hmm ak tau, childish gle nk terasa benda² bodo cani..
tp kalu slalu jd, ak pn ade rasa nk trase gk..
tp dun worry..
i'll try my besh wat muka sengih kalah kerang busuk n still b epy..
so, rasa bsalah tu xyh timbul..

ouh..
org sana da kembali..tp tiada khbr brite..
baik masa maw pegi or blk..
xpela, spt biasa, sape la ak ne kn..huhuhu
juz hope dat u're safe, in gud condition n happy..

ahh..
pnt jd org buat baik..

terasa nk g jog ptg ne..
sape maw ikot?
huhu

hmm sdg menunggu sape yg akn bsh toilet n cuci kipas ne..

..terluka & mkn..

ari yg sgt x produktif..
dan ari muflis..

tdo lmbt msti la bgn lmbt..
jd masa d abeskn begitu juga..

ade org ajk lunch turned out to be de nk swoh dgr his business..
well, i dun mind listening..
bt when u(not my friend bt a friend of him) starts to include all dis bullock abt "org tsayang sakit bt u did nothing" and preaching me abt Allah created things with its own special this, then u started to pissed me off..
xda ar, dun preach me juz to get me into ur business..
cuz there's a lot other way to persuade ppl into business..
ak ske dgr ceramah ttg kebesaran Tuhan, tp bkn for the sake of business..
so, butt off..

mengabehkn duit kt jpj..
byr bil tpon..
kasi mkn kt kelisa biru tu..
poof~ there goes my money..
abeh cmtu je..

so pasne, mr kte mengikat perut ye cik ramiza..

training yg sgt memenatkn..
staff cukup org..
student ade 5 je..
fuh, penat gle.. tkejar2..
tseret2..
n tsagat lutut..
waaaaaaaa
bkn court licin cam yg kt TU tu..
tp court kasar, tlekat sisa kulit kt court..waaaaaaaa


dner ngn dak clas...
napi kate "wah arine ko ade, rs bbesar ati ko join"
mengom..huh
pkai skirt d khalayak ramai krn lutut cedera...

nthla..ape ag eh...

ouh..kpd org itu..
safe journey eh sok..
selamat pergi dan kembali..

weekend daku tiada..
ak bcinta dlm padang sambil bcumbu dgn pellet...

siapa maw jd valentine ak?
haha

..juz an apdet..

kondisi ati?
couldnt care less..

kondisi fizikal?
stil got dat cough n kdg² soksek..

kondisi minda?
mls maw bfikir..

kondisi intelektual?
tests yg x spt test..

kondisi penentu masa depan?
msh d peringkat berbahaya..help..!!

ah..perut sdikit kenyang dgn mknan free..
walau x bbakti, tp ttp menyumbang tenaga utk mkn..
at least pnh pegi dinner U..
ade geng sesi mgewdix amek gmba..


sgt sopan krn pemakaian baju kurung telah blaku
(i still dun understand nape org akn tego yg ak pkai bju kurung ke kelas."eh mija, pkai bju kurung")

ouh aritu pulang dr kl dgn sedikit tsenyum.. =)
nape cket??
sbb xnk sndri sakit ati nt..juz trying to hold on to anythg dat i av..
nape senyum?
sbb jupe kesayangan ati n terasa mcm d sayangi..
mcm je la..sbb de x sayang ak pn..hahha
Being with you is so dysfunctional
I really shouldn’t miss you, but I can’t let go


valentine?
tdk menyambut..
bt i quote acap mpro "it wont b a lovey dovey day for us"..
sbb?
it's 1st leg of MALAYSIA NATIONAL PAINTBALL LEAGUE..
it happens on 14th t 15th of february..
so c'mon n join us padang astaka, pj.. =)

n i quote sumbody frm fb;
Remember that light travels faster than sound. That is why some people apear bright until you hear them speak.

..kembali merindu..

ne seme e pnye psl..

tgk gmba² kt flickr..
winduuuuu.....

rindunye lepak pas keje..
rindu kt mmz..ehehe...

rindunye xtvt d mlm ari..
rindu neway n redbox n escapade..

hmmm teringat valentine thn lepas..
kt hard rock...
thn ne?
dlm pdg..huhuhu

rindu...
rindu dia..
rindu mereka..
rindu kami..

rindu..
rindu masa² dlu..

sumtg dat u'll remember sometimes and smile at it, it's called memory..
memory dat u hold on to forever is called life..
dat's y i said it'll be juz a memory cuz i'll remember it sometimes..

..nthla..

kalu ikutkn ati, mmg agk terasa..
tp malas nk ikut ati..
sbb nnt org kate, mengada² bnda cmtu pn nk terasa..

tp..

tp..

kalu asek kne tgl je..
sorg²..
mereka...
bgembira..

nthla..
patut ke terasa?
hmmm

which sumtym made me thinking..
x gne ak mek tau, peduli ape org len rasa..
cuz nobody do care wut i feel..
such as, kalu maw pape ke mana buat ape pape la harus tnye seme org..
dun wanna make anybody feel left behind or anytg..
at least, dat's wut i tot...

nth..
which again made me thinking...
x gne ak mek tau, peduli ape org len rasa..
cuz nobody do care wut i feel..

.. again..

waaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaa

i tot i cud..
igt da leh lupe..
tp bole lk nanges ag..

ne seme pasal lagu without you by hinder tu..
deymmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmm

..maw pegi meninggalkn..

hmmmm ak abes bulan 5..
k.dik nk blk dlm bln 5 or bln 6..

ini peluang...
utk lari..
dr seme org..
utk mjauhkn diri..

kamu rasa?
patut x ak meninggalkn bumi malaysia ne?

nnt org pn xda susah² utk mengelak dr jupe ak..weeehuuu

..live ur life..

epy belated bday ainina..!!
juga pd suhaili..sory x wish..huhu

adakah ak fanatik swichtec?? huhuhu ne sbb nye xda file, tah ke mana aritu file ak..
note book mmg ade byk ar..

nk purse ne..
plzzzz...

adiah dr training ari sbtu lepas..
da lama xkne tembak..huhu

arine pkai bju org tu bg...
ehmmm windu......

mls nk apdet blog..
sbb ade org komplen asek sedey je..
mcm orbituary kot..huhuhuhu

trying to live my life..
rmai org kate not worth it..

ade org ckp, x pyh la..de xpnah berubah dr dlu..
ye ke?? jeng jeng jeng..hahaha

psm yg x jalan..