..start walking n dun ever look back..juz go..

..2008..

mulakn ngn thn ne lepak mnum kt kopitiam cyberjaya..plan nk smbut nu yr ngn nina x jd..tensen..
ms ne ngh li kt swichtec power system sdn bhd..
teringat zmn2 blk dr keje, kalu kt traffic lite glenmarie yg simpang 3 kt mazda tu msti ade bknalan ngn org..besh je tym tue..m'ilangkn rasa penat blk keje evn ak xda ar wat pape pn kt opis..huhuhu

10 jan: 1st tym lepak ngn d devilz kt neway ss15..sgt klaka igtkn benda ne..haha byk halangan tul ms nk g tue..evn 1st tym lepak ngn mereka, ak ngn nina peduli ape...wat tatau sudah..sape swoh ajk kn?? huhu mlm yg 1st ne ade lil D, hfz n abg long je..ak still simpan phone charm yg neway nye tu..huhu

wat surprise bday party utk ainina..haha klaka igtkn c ninako tu nk lari kuar umah sbb tkejut.. =)) slain tu kami ade gk clbr8 ngn d devilz kt red box sunway..1st tym g ctu ms tue..hahaha ms ne dorg bru blk dr bandung..dorg bawak blk sourvenir utk ktorg =) ske ske..

ms nk cuti raya cina..anta ainina blk..then lepak ngn lil D n abg long kt bkt bintang..hmmm sok tu anta lil D g airport sbb de nk blk sbh..1st tym de cium dahi ak..hmmmmm *sigh~

kami celebrate valentine's (xda ar clbr8 pn.haha) @hard rock..siol je ucop gelakkn ak ngn nina sbb kene mintak ic ms nk msuk..well nk wat cane ucop, kami ne awet muda..mstila org pk kami ne budak ag =) ms ne yg ade lil D, hfz, abg long, ucop ngn najdi (yeke name de ne?)..hmm besh gk laa lyn live band kt ctu..ok la.. sok tu ngantuk yg amat g keje..smpai ak t'tdo ar kt tarffic lite ms otw blk..kt traffic lite glenmarie tue ar...huhu ciap kne marah ngn lil D ag..lalala

td g taipan..hmm lalu dpn escapade yg da tukau jd station 1 cafe..huhu teringat zmn dolu2 ms lepak ngn d devilz kt sane..hmmm sambung ngn mereka ajr kami men pool kt asia cafe..tu kot start ktorg rapat..ye kot..tah la..huhu

kami pnah g planet hollywood tgk matta band..hehe matta best..!! oke oke daku bkn nye fanatik matta..itu juz ungkapan yg perlu diungkapkn oleh kami ketika d rakam oleh cameraman..ouh ak still malu tgk cd itu.. :">

celebrate bday lil D kt umah de..tu pn surprise gk cume kami b'tiga je laa..ak nina n bday boy (boy ke??)..huhu yo yo je ak ckp mlm tu xda wt pe..padahal da dok dpn umah de da tgh nyalakn lilin..bole lk de bukak pintu muka blur pastu g duduk tgk tv blk..ngn kami jd blur smbil pegang cake..hahaha

ak tukar dr mengeblog kt fs kpd blogger..sbbnye ms tu c shrek @ buntal block tenet kt ofis dr access fs,ms n mcm2 ag ah..bangang tul smpaikn gmail pn de block..sengal..so lahir la "angel of d devil" ne..

abes li bln 4..ak abeskn li ak ngn cakit mata yg amat teruk..uhuhu pas li ak keje kt pyrmd..jd promoter..keje kt kdai bju forest..

kami pegi segamat utk majlis kawen bro faizal =) pegi ngn kete lil D bsama2 nina n sharul si kezen kte..hehe hfz jd pengapit...kt sane kami bgambar kt dataran segamat :D haha sengal..jupe abg long gk kt sane..

thn ne, ak juz pegi 2 evnt je npl :D

huntress men 2 ke 3 tourney utk thn ne..seme smpai 2nd round je..xpe..nnt kte wat lagi gempak eyh gurlz..!!

hmm lil D n hfz pnah anta kami blk mlk 2 kali..skali sbelum msuk sem sbb byk brg yg nk kne bwk..skali ag sbb ak ngn nina kene tgl ngn bas..ms 1st tym dorg dtg kami g jonker n nek malacca river cruise..2nd tym kami tgk muvi cte dark knight yg esoknye ak dmm panas..hahaha

bday ak thn ne sama ngn 2nd day raya..sminggu lepas tu on 11th oct lil D dtg sunway bwk cake n a rose..so dis is d year where i got my 1st flower for d 1st tym =) thnx cyg..

psm ak tah pape..std pn tah pape utk thn ini..hahaha

nk dkt akhir thn ne lil D smakin avoiding ak..huhu tp still ak x paham nape de x terus terang ngn ak..seyes sedey..pape pn cube la terus terang ngn ak..nape perlu wat ak cani?? hmmmm

ak mengabehkn cuti sem n akhir tahun ak ngn keje part time kt pyrmd..kali ne keje kt bonita..kdai accessories..ok la keje cni cume kne bdri 6 jam..haha ade gk benda yg x besh jd ms ak keje cni..cthnye tserempak ngn lil D kt padini..hmmm terasa cam org bodo je..huhuhu

byk gamba yg xda sbb thn ne nye gmba byk dlm desktop..huhu n then ble tgk2 blk byk kenangan ngn d devilz..*sigh~ bole gtau x cane maw tidak mengingat ttg kenangan2 itu yg sbenarnye menyedihkn ati ak? hmm

hmm ak tau nnt mst ade yg marah ble bc entry ne..kalu de bc la kn..huhu tp biarla..nk marah pn marah laa...ak da xda prasaan da..

n now m sitting in front of dis lappy wit no plan of celebrating nu yr..hmm juz wondering wut d nu yr wud bring to my life..mcm wud lil D say gudbye to me now? will i be able grad on time? apekh rupe psm ku nnt? nnt ak keje ktne eyh? haha byk kn..

however dis yr had gave me sooo much, other than a nu bf laa *wink2*..haha sum of my kenangan terindah happened dis yr..where i met a love dat i wud nvr get instead of fooling maself..haha where i've been around great ppl..where i met n lose sumbody..n so much more..

so let's c how it will be for d nxt yr...

..kembali merindu..

huhu ramai ke yg rindu ak ne smpai swoh blk mlk cpt2? muahahaha ke jelez ak xblk ag? ahhahaha saje je korg eh...nnt laaaa plg lmbt ari ahad ne teman blk..jgn risau..kalu xda halangan ari isnin korg da leh lepak ngn ak..
tp ak still majuk ne ngn mereka2 yg jln kn operasi tanpa ak..huh

yeah, tgl 1 ari ag nk keje..sgt mls nk keje tau..tmbh ag noon..lmbt je nk blk..huhu xpe..pk komisen..
tp ak xsure la kalu target kdai dpt, ak dpt x 4% tu..kalu dpt kn besh..mmg byk wishlist ak leh tlaksana..hehe

hurmmmm...
cane nk brenti pk ttg benda yg kte patut elak dr pk? kalu ak dok saje msti t'pk psl de..tbe2 je da t'pk..bkn nk pk sgt, ms ak dok ralik (ehm ape eyh dlm bhs btul?) wat sumtg tetbe ak da t'pk psl de..pk psl wt shud i say, wut shud i hear ke or wut shud i do if he's in front of me..kdg2 ak pk asl de wt cmtu kt ak, wut i mean trying so hard to make me epy (yeke? prasan!)..huhu tah laaa....

td kn..ms keje kn...apart from ak jahat mulut sket ngn c emy arine (sape swoh kecoh ngn ak psl customer) ade sumtg wat ak epy arine... =) =) =) huhuhu ak igtkn, xda org akn pndang ak ne..wut i mean, ak bknnye good looking, sopan santun, ayu lemah gemalai n definitely bukan seseorg yg baik..tp ble ade seseorg yg tua ckp sumtg gud abt u, u'll feel good..kn? lalalala

hurm ape ag eh...nnt laa...kosentrasi tganggu skang..

till then

..counting d dayz..

hmmmm.....
arini kn..
arini da msuk thn bru dlm calendar Islam..ms blk td ms lalu dpn surau kt playground tu, dorg bru nk bc doa akhir tahun..
hmm tetbe sayu je rasa ati..nape diri ne x b'ubh ag eyh?? bkn xmo berubah, tp tahla..mgkin diri x cukup kuat ag kot..nth..tu seme alasan je kn..bole berubah kalu nk, tp kne ade keinginan sendri la kn..


ms awal muharram lepas, sok tu kn cuti..on dat day la 1st tym lepak bsama d devilz..hmm miss dat moment so much..teringat melepak bsama hfz n ainina aritu kul 2 3 pg..bsembang ttg memories from d 1st nite ktorg lepak bsama smpai laa today...all d gud memories..
yeah, sumtimes i DO wish i cud turn back d time..mcm xnk rapat sgt ngn de or FALL in love wit him..so xda la jiwa ati ak sakit cam skrg..tp apekn daya..benda da jadi kn..


hm tgl ag 2 ari nk keje..trasa sgt mls yg amt nk keje..huhu
ye ar target ak da lepas...da lebey da pn..so da tentu da komisen d janjikn da dlm tangan..huhu tu yg rasa maalaaaasssss sgt nk g keje..dengan customer ku asek dkebas org kn, ag ar ak mls nk wat keje..huhu xpe cik ramiza, tgl 2 ari je ag..pastu leh bsenang lenang...huhuhu

ak ne kn, wit xda..mkn pn x mkn..tp ade ati ag nk g sopin...rambang mata dowh kalu keje kt pyrmd..tmbh ag tym sale cani...huhu sakit ati je nengok nye..xda la ak ne kaki sopin kn, tp sjk 2 menjak ade wit sendri ne, gatalll je tgn tu..huhuhu aritu ak mntk ainina marah ak, sbb ak da gatal tangan n otak terpikir nk beli bju esprit utk lelaki itu..huhuhu jgn..jgn...pk mkn perut sendri..

hmm ckp psl perut..huhu bkn nk mbangga, tp sdikit terconfuse..ade beberapa org ckp ak da kurus..huhuhu ye ke? ade skali lil D pnh mention ak nmpk kurus n pesan jgn lupe mkn..hmm ade dak2 diva ckp ak kurus sket..elin pn ckp cmtu..d latest, smlm cik ai dtg jupe ak kt kdai..ak pnh jupe de skali je kot, tu pn xpnh bckp kot sbelum ne..huhu de dtg n ckp ak da kurus..huhu musykil tu..sbb org yg jupe ak btahun yg lepas yg ckp cmtu..huhu da kurus sgt ke ak ne? tp kn suar skinny ak yg gu*** tu pn da cam longgar je..erk..tp pwot still ade ar..hahahaha senget.. smpai ade la yg tnye ade masalah ke? huhu well, kondisi ati mmg tidak begitu baik tp ianya tiada effect pn pd selera mkn ku..huhu tetapi kondisi poket yg mematah selera ak..da sminggu ak bwk bekal roti g keje..hebat x? hahahaha

kwn2 ku sudah memulakn operasi mencari bf..huh mereka bgumbira tanpa ak..ne xle jd ne..ak pn kne memulakn operasi gk ne..hahaha sengal..ok, ok bknnye desperate oke..juz utk mgumbirakn ati yg duka lara ne je..eceehhh...hurm ape salahnye mcari seseorg utk melupakn seseorg kn? ke salah? hmmmm....

aritu kata2 k. hana wat ak t'pk..hmm kembali mjadi neutral spt sblum ak knal ngn lil D..tp k.hana pn kate susah apetah ag org tu sgt baik kt kte..yeah..mmg susah..nape laaa ak jenis xle meninggalkn org..i dunno how to leave sum1 evndo dat person really hurts me..nthla cane pn ak kne tgu de ckp "i dun wanna noe, hear or av anytg to do wit u anymo"..*sigh~ tu kembali mbuatkn ak t'pk; he's been avoiding me all dis while..kalu btul de xmo rasa bsalah, y didnt he ask me to stop bothering him..tp de lebey ske wat ak t'tnye n marah ak ble ak tnye..which again jd salah ak..no..no..ak x ckp de mmg salah..bt then does he evr consider how does it hurt me? he said dat i nvr undrstnd, so ape yg ak wat slame ne? ak wat bodo kot..huhu which yeah, m dat stpd to begin with...lalalala

hurm tu la igt nk wat post review dis 08..tp tgkla..tenet pn ade xda..seb bek je leh dpt..huhu

till then..

..apdet sikijap..

hmmm arini ari xmas..
seb bek keje noon..
leh tdo lmbt...

da lame blog ne x b'apdet..
kekurang lingkaran jalur lebar amatlh mbataskn niat..
hmmm

ak da jupe solution utk mengisi masa lapang ketika wktu break kalu xda wit..
silalh ke popular utk mbaca buku..
mph pyramd x besh, kecik..
popular ag besh evn xda ar se besh mph midvalley yg siap ade fountain tue..
huhuhuu

pnt la keje..pnt sgt...
tgl 2k ag nk dpt target sales ak..wah byk nye...sehari kne wat lebey kurang 400-500..
kalu dpt target at least 450 da dlm tangan da bulan dpn..huhuhu

aritu da wat perancangan ninako..aritu kami jln2 g subang parade (ouh, kami sudah bosan pegi pyramid)..
kami jupe baju chantek..hehehe
nnt nk beli laaa...bju beriadah..
da wat plan sgale bagai da ngn nina..
da ajk da pihak yg bminat..ngeee

plan bsama ninako:

• kami nk mkn kt naili's..sbb xda org pnah bwk kami tp sebok2 je cte dpn kami yg mkn kt ctu besh(ok,kesiankn kami) so kami akn bwk dri sendri pegi..huh
• kami nk beli bju chantek d subang parade itu
• kami nk g beriadah..plan nye ke euphoria..hahahaha

so mb 2nd week or 3rd week (bgantung pd ble nk jd oks [org kaya sekejap] ) of jan kami akn berada d kwsn liputan kl ye..hehehhe jom ainina, kte bgumbira..!!

kondisi ati?
pada tahap kritikal amat yg sgt da..
arini da smpai peak point yg x thn..
pg2 da mimpi lil D..bgn rasa sdey smcm je..trus msg de..pastu argued..pastu ak nanges..
ngh dok diam2 leh nanges ngn kuatnye tetbe (senget tul minah ne)..
pastu ble break call de, ag ar teruk nanges nye..
da x malu da org yg lepak kt michealangelo's tu..huhuhu mengom..
lepas call de call ninako..nanges ag..
arine keje ak nanges je...msuk keje blk mata bengkak..
bodo kn ak..hmmm


hmmmm nnt nk wt summary 2008...tp sok laa..
sbb nk letak gmba seme..n mb akn ade org x akn ske kot...
tp pedulik ape eden...

cte yg akn d include adela, sdikit ttg li, d devilz, ape yg ptt laa..
mule2 igt nk wt 1 post psl d devilz..
tp ble pk blk, mb tgu 10 januari kot..
stahun bsama d devilz..
hhmmm tgk laa..

k laa nanyte..

..my off day..!!..

fuh..stelah pnat bkerja 9 ari..akhirnye ku off juga sok..
sok ari jumaat...seme org keje..
sok mengabehkn wktu off ak bsendirian ar..

hmm tbe² teringt zmn dolu² ms keje kt forest..wktu time suka riang ria..
kalu ari off day mst lil D dtg jupe..bwk lunch ke..or ptg tu tgk muvi..
tp tu dlu la..dolu² punye cte..
skrg? haha jgn arap la..

hmm skrg ne finance ak sgt laaa teruk..huhu
td lepas byr wit bil umah mlk ngn beli sabun (n stelah bjoli beli kfc smlm) wit ak tgl bape hengget je ag..waaaaaa cane ne???
ok ne bkn cte mnta simpati ok..i juz need to get it out so ak x rasa sesak sgt..
hurm lmbt ag nk dpt loan..lmbt ag nk dpt gaji..
ape ak nk mkn dlm 2mgu ne? xkn nk pnjm wit kt k.ida ag kot..bru je pnjam 100 ngn de aritu..
kalu nk pnjm skang mcm la de ade wit..ne kn da tgh bulan..
huhu sape ade idea ape ak nk mkn mgu ne? hurm maka jwb nye, blapar laaaa ak 2 mgu ne..
waaaa :(

mnt ngn mama n papa?
it's a big NO..
bru je aritu mama cte papa da xda wit byr itu ini..so xkn nk mnta kot..
ngn abg ak tu? kem salam laa byk2..
tgkla dlu cane mgu ne..
kalu teruk sgt ak still ade few pounds yg leh tuka..tp rugi gle tuka skang.. *sigh~

kesimpulanye yg dpt d simpulkn = blaparla kamu wahai cik ramiza smpai ujung bulan ne..
sekian, wassalam..huhu

kondisi ati? nth la..bese je
da xnk pk pape..
x smpt nk pk pape sbb pnat..
1 of d reason ak nk kje sbb ak xnk pk pape tmbh ag d wktu begini..
tah laa....nth..

1 persoalan..
knape kte msti rindu pd org yg dun evn think about kte?
okla, 2 persoalan..
knape kte susah nk let go??
ok ok..3 persoalan..
knape ak jatuh ati pd org yg ak sgtttt AVOID utk suka?


btw skali lg..
sok off day ak..
sape maw blanje org yg xda wit ne lunch???
hahaha

..maybe...juz maybe..

pnt la keje..
sakit pinggang..
blk sakit kaki..
raya ne kne keje gk..

hmm igt nk benti pas xmas..

ngh ym ngn nina..igt zmn li dlu..ye ar start bln ne..so mmg byk gle ar cuti time tu..kalu kne weekday ak xblk..so dpt ar g jenjalan..g ou, g round pyrmd utk bape ploh kali ar..g uptown la downtown la..g wat rmbut, potong rmbut..mkn jco..huhu i miss those times..tu x masuk ag blk keje minum, mlm g beriadah..sok pg g keje lmbt..hehehe =) yeah, sgt relax..rindu nyeeee....

well..kalu ditnya kondisi ati ak skrg..sgt la amat yg x bagus..knape?
well d same old brand new thing..hahaha bosan kn?
yeah i need time..time to mend dis stpd heart..well he's going to b unreachable for d whole month..mb more..so who knows kn..ak tatau...de mgkin tau cume he's not telling..huhu
so mb dis is d time i cud get to d old me where i can live my life w/o him..
mb..juz mb..
after all..sooner or later (tp mmg soon ah, xdenye later..haha) mmg de akn tglkn ak kn..
so blaja la woi.. dak kecik pn pn dia blaja tau..ne kn da tua bangka cm ko (erk xda ar bangka pn)..

tpkn..tp kn...u noe wut?
de hafal no fon ak..!!
wah sgt tharu tau..
maceh cyg, owg tharu awk hafal no owg..(pastu ak nanges, bodo..seb bek dok dlm toilet..haha)
hmm sbb de kate maw contact sekembalinya de ke cni slepas bcuti dr unreachable itu..
aish *sigh~

btw...
selamat hari raya aidiladha..

stiap pengorbanan yg dbuat insyaAllah mdtgkn hikmah pd kte kn?

ak sdg bkorban ke? ke mengorbankn diri? mengorbankn ati n perasaan..
tp yg penting, ak yg dikorbankn kot..mcm lembu korban..hahaha
m juz a meat to sum1..

p/s: entri yg d publish after few days..haha nnt la tulis entry len

..swear it all over again..

penat..

kepenatan..

cakit kaki..

sedey ati..

wuuuu smpai ati de..

..hadir dan temani aku, di setiap langkah yg meyakiniku..

pd peminat baju d 2 entry yg lepas;
ade 1 bju ag yg cmtu..

dinner set:
meat, milk, cream soup
serve on bed

gmba x amek,nnt kne marah ngn tuannye kdai..huhu
belikn lil D bju tu pulak ah (amboi, byk wit hg..haha) [nk wt cane, de je laki yg ak leh abeskn wit ak utk masa ini :D]

nxt..
td g cari keje kt pyrmd..mama swoh keje kdai komputer..tpkn..tp..tp ak segan..huhu sbb seme yg jg ctu org cina..pastu elok ak lalu je; "yes miss, nk cari ape"..erk x terrrrkata ak..camno? huhu
ak ne kn pemalu..seyes ak xreti nk cari keje yg walk-in ne..tp nk yg call leceh la plak..ade kdai yg jual gadget n brg2 apple kt ngn asian av tue, ade bg no..shud i call? hurm tgk la cane sok..kalu by ptg sok x dapek keje, blk je smyh sok..huhu dok cni pn xda wit..seb bek pnjam wit k.ida dlu :D ngee

tp kn..seyes ak xda wit skang..mane nk cari wit byr wit sewa bln ne..wit yg ptptn bg aritu yg cover wit yg short tu ak rasa da abes kot..huhu sbb ms nk blk kl aritue da kering sgt da..hurm...

ada yg maw mberi wang..tp..tp..thnx, bt no thnx dear..thnx sbb bniat baik nk ringankn beban org..tp, org xmo wit awk..tmbh ag org bkn tanggungan awk, tanggungjawab awk..u av ur own responsibility..tmbh ag owg tau dis month awk akn byk pkai wit..so, keep it 4 ur own use which u'll need it more than me =) ouh agpn org ade reason yg len sbenarnye..sumtg yg melibatkn rasa ati..so dr org rs yg xbesh, better avoid it kn =)

nxt..
hmm td ms kt pyrmd ak seyesly mbuang masa to meet sumbody..yea, other than job hunting, ak ada jupe beberapa org..then ade sumbody maw jupe..so i wait..tp kalu ak tau, bek ak xyh tgu org tue..ms manusia tu dtg ak ngh bsembang ngn elin..d guy dtg, say 'hi' pn idak then tsengih..pastu he talk on d phone (da abestu, ak bsembang je la ngn elin) pastu mnta excuse nk g jupe kwn kt california fitness..pastu senyap cmtu je..mengom..
ak plan nk g tgk muvi ngn elin, so ak baik ati nye msg la de kot2 nk join..almost sejam kot bru de reply..tau x de wat pe slame de mhilang sejam tu? de pegi workout kt ctu..!! tensen seyh..
agknye de blah dr ctu pn de xkasi tau ak kot..ak blah je la blk..da seme kdai da tutup..siot je..
kalu kate nk jupe ak tp g workout kt c.ftness, bek xyh jupe ak..wat pnat ak CUBA tgu je.. siol tul..huhu
hmm xpnh ak jupe kwn cmtu...sesengal2 kwn2 ak pn, x pnah ag ak jupe pe'el nye cmtu..seb bek ne bru 2 kali ak jupe manusia ne..dat's it..xmo jupe dah..final..!!

nxt..
(tarik nafas jp)
hurm arini kn..arini kn..ak ade buat sumtg yg ak x slalu buat..n arine sgt blebihan..tp insyaAllah ak xkn tjebak permanently laaaa...hurm nauzzubillah..hurm kalu seseorg tu tau, mampos eden..huhuhu

nxt..
maw tgk twilight..
sape maw teman??


sok maw g cr keje ag..wish me luck =)
nanyte..

..as in a way that i nvr wud understand..

tell me..wut does it means when

a guy turned around, took ur hand n put it around his

ok for dat man he wud answer: it's juz an act..it means nothing..

k, fine..

i juz want to hear others...which i noe wud definitely hurt..lalalala bt wth kn..padan muke ak..



nxt..
m in sunway rite now..da 3 mlm da tdo cni..uhuhu nth la..melarikan diri? mgkin..
preparing maself to b alone for future torture? mgkin..
pape pn..m unemployed n i only av empty pockets..mane maw cr wit ne..huhu


ade owg maw kasi wit x? :D ngeee