Demotivated

Tak tahulah kenapa makin hari jadi demotivated pulak nak kerja. I can sense that I am not as productive as I was before. Tapi rasanya selalu je menyiapkan kerja atau menjawab semua pertanyaan. Hurm.

As my role is more to result (money) oriented position, bila orang lain tiada kerja, kau yang bertanggungjawab. Tak senang. You will be under microscope all the time. Buat kerja gila-gila pun takda la pulak nampak bawak kanta pembesar. Hurm.

Or mungkin sebab apa yang jadi sejak kebelakangan ni buat aku rasa tak seronok kerja? Dengan colleagues yang banyak support dah nak berhenti, aku pun rasa makin tak seronok kerja.

I don't like being unproductive, sebab it will be seen by other people and, aku rasa tak puas hati. Tapi tu lah, soal hati ni pun payah gak nak paksa, kalau dah demotivated, cenggitu je la gayanya. Urgh!

Sepatutnya lagi nak kahwin, lagi lah bekerja keras nak cari duit nak kahwin. Tapi? Haih la. Kadang-kadang rasa penat sangat, sebab weekend pun dah bukan masa kau sendiri, banyak je benda yang kena buat. Nampak sangat aku punya time management ke laut. T_T



You, I am lucky to have someone who understands me and willing to listen to my whining, bebel, sedih dan semua-semualah. Yes. I am lucky to have you. Stay with me forever, please?


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Sesekali

Bila ada time, mula lah datang malas. Kerja semua urgent, satu pun tak jalan.
Bila ada time, mula lah teringin nak makan macam-maca. Tak sedar kena kurangkan berat (bukan setakat untuk mencantikkan diri, juga untuk kesihatan sebab doktor dah bising)
Bila ada time, mula lah merapu.

Dan sekarang, selalu sangat nak berjiwang kat Twitter and blog. But yeah, I'm too happy.

Dulu masa takda sesiapa happy juga, ada kawan-kawan yang baik, setia. Yang paling penting ada family, yang love you unconditionally, and supporting you no matter what.


Tapi sekarang rasa lagi happy, lagi lengkap. Terutamanya bila tengok tunang dan family ngam, mama seronok bakal menantu datang makan, papa suka tegur dan abang boleh bercakap.

I am blessed.

And you, thank you.


Toodles :)

#nowlistening - Photograph (Ed Sheeran)

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I love you, maksudnya.

Juga, to forever.

You saved me, and you love me. And I can never than you enough.

Darjah Satu Dah

Blog turned 7, so Happy Birthday! Belated, but it's never late :D

Kalau budak betul dah masuk sekolah darjah satu dah.


Banyak yang jadi for the past 7 years. Suka, duka, naik, tergolek semua ada. Alhamdulillah, I'm at my best moment now. You should be a happier blog now :) You're my longest relationship ever, but someone is going to fight you :P

Pengalaman masa darjah satu, masuk sekolah cikgu marah sebab pakai kaler pensel member, because mama bought our own while others bought a pack (like school-starter pack) from the school. Tak ingat dah cap apa my color pencil but I do remember it has clowns on the packaging, while others are Luna. I don't like mine sebab kaler dia cair, so dok pakai la yang member punya, sebab Luna kaler terang and pekat, was so jealous. Pastu kena marah ngan cikgu, sobs! Ala cikgu pun, member kasi je pinjam, cikgu pulak perli sapa suruh tak beli yang ni. Kecik hati saya. Sudahnya, balik mengadu ngan mama, but unlike kids nowadays, of course la kena marah balik, takde maknanya mama nak beli baru. Haha! Itulah pengalaman masuk kelas 1 Hijau, SRK Zainab 1.

Baaanyaaakkkkkk nak tulis, tapi guess I have someone better to share, so I tend to share it with him rather than here, unlike I used to before. Semoga perasaan dan ikatan ni berkekalan, insyaAllah.




Banyak lagi benda nak buat ni, kerja berlambak. Kadang-kadang rasa nak menangis je, tapi alhamdulillah, niat yang baik dan faith, everything can be endured, aite?


So, toodles for now :)

Twenty Fifteen: The Beginning

New Year
New Hope
New Love
New Life


Dah lama tak update blog. Rindu tetiba. Dah siap masuk tahun baru dah.

Alhamdulillah, for this new year, I can't thank Allah enough, been giving my highest gratitude but it still won't be enough.

I have more adorable anak buah, loving family, faithful friends, found the love of my life, climbing up the career stairs, And it is just the beginning of the year. I'm at my happiest moment, for now.

Looking forward to more things, good things. A wedding to attend :)



Love,
Stay with me forever, will you?

Sesat

Makin lama makin terasa berbaloi.
I mean berbaloi yg dia sesat selama ni.


Or, dia tak sesat.
Cume berhati-hati.

On time?

Mungkin, dah sampai masanya.

Mungkin, masanya dah tepat.

Semoga termakbul segala permintaan. Semoga dipermudahkan.

Semoga ada cahaya. :")