.that moment.

hurm

who would have guessed?
my last post in the blog was half an hour posted before my sister passed away..
malam tu kan x bole tidur, tak sangka takleh tidur tu sebenarnya bersebab..


hurm

she was a good sister
sape2 yg kenal arwah would agree
Arwah antara orang yg baik2 yg aku kenal

hurm..


al-Fatihah

..Hanging by a moment..

Hey ya..

Yes, dah lama tak udate blog, as usual, no surprise..
Blog bila ada masa dan kemahuan..
Sudahhnya,memang terabai begitu sahaja..

Anyway,
Selamat Hari Raya Aidilfitri
Consider adalah yang membaca blog ni, kalau takde, boleh abaikan je..
I blog as a medium to express how I feel, bukan wajib untuk sesiapa pun baca..

See, dah start nak merapu tak tentu hala, memang Ramiza..


Nothing much happened for the past few months (if I'm not mistaken)..
Just the normal, routine life I was and still having..
For the past month, I was staying alone as my sister went home to our parents' selling ayam golek/panggang kat bazar..
Dan hidup pun makin berterabur..
Baru nak menyelesakan diri hidup alone, Mokmok pulak patah rahang..
I gave my attention to him and ignore other things..
Sebabnya, as I usually am, aku memang ambil masa to do things..
Bila mok on wet food and strict diet, kena feed, tunggu dia makan, tidy up his mess, I just couldn't concentrate on other things..
Sudahnya, benda lain semua terabai..
Susah betul jadi orang pemalas ni..huhu

Anyhow, I'm trying my hardest to pull back my life on track..
Tapi tu lah, perubahan tu bagus tapi susah..
Susah bila ada will, tapi mental tak kuat..



Oh, anda, dah lama tak dengar khabar berita..
Hopefully everything goes well, as you want them to be..


And you, aimishyu!

Ok, bye!
Sent from my BlackBerry®

..Nothing..

"Am I better off dead? Am I better off a quitter?"


Hurm..
Hurm..

Sejak kebelakangan ni badan semakin cepat penat..
kepala pun cepat pening..
Sejak dah balik keje ni, makin penat even keje x brape byk pun..
Pembawakan ubat kot?

Sekarang ni sibuk pindah ofis..
Nanti rindu lah dgn kawasan tenang seperti resort kononnya ni..
I'll miss the less busy traffic too..


Hurm
Sebenarnya entahlah..
Susah mau cakap..
Maybe it needs time..
Just maybe
Sent by Maxis from my BlackBerry® smartphone

..hati tak keruan lah..

apeke pelik plak dashboard skarang..
nampak nau da lama x apdet blog..
huhu


ouh well,
aku keje kt patimas ni da 2tahun sebulan dan 10 hari...
skarang pun masih lagi patimas..
tapi dah subsidiary lain..
sebabnya..hurm itulah..yg itulah..

anyway..
selama kerja swasta dan kerajaan tak pernah nak hire aku bekerja ni kan..
aku tak pernah dpt bonus..serius tak tipu..
even kawan2 aku yg kompeni lain pn, ada juga yg xdapat bonus..
increment?
merasa skali je la tahun lepas..tahun ni xda dah..
sbb kompeni bukan dalam keadaan bagus..
maka sesiapa yg slalu dpt bonus ke yg keje kerajaan dpt bonus stgh bulan ke..
bersyukurlah weh..
yg keje kerajaan jgn dok ckp la kami yg keje swasta dpt bonus bbulan2 la increment bjuta2 lemon..
kecik hati kami yg kuli ni tauuu..kami bkn keje kompeni GLC ke multinasional ke..
kompeni bese2 je...
korg dpt yg sikit pn kira bagus dr kami ni..
kan kan?

ouh itu isu lama..
tapi sebab xnak isu ni berbangkit pada masa yg akan datang..
masing2 beringatlah, korang bmegah ke mencemuh la,
pikir la org len sama..
jgn ikot sedap mulut je..



hurm sebenarnya hati tgh x berapa enak ni..
semoga semuanya ok lah kan..
hopefully =)

xde gmba best nk tepek..

ok,bye!

..berbulan punya update..

Pergh..
habuk da mcm gunung..hihi

anyway, saja terasa nak apdet blog..
tapi tatau nk apdet pasal apa..

for the past few months, i mean since new year..
banyak tu memang banyak la things had happened kan..
macam2..

berjaya jahit patung
pergi bali
er isu kompeni
isu diri sendiri
kawan ni kawen
kawan tu tunang


banyakkkkk...

so for now, er..bye boleh?

mini D, made with love by me =)

telor got engaged!

leaving on a jet plane..er no!

in bali at last!

a proof dat u need to wear dis kain entering a sacred place

see that white little furball? his name is teddy <3

one of my many sponsored baju. thanks aunty yam! *love*

at last, zaren's many kenduri ended =p

a friend of mine since i was 7 yrs old <3

ok then, toodles!

..farewell..

it's new year's eve

well, i am at home, taknak keluar but eventually i have to..
got dinner with friend's family..so kena la keluar jap lagi..

actually i have lost interest of celebrating new year like yearsssss ago..
sejak masa keja kt bonita, balik keje kul 11 n i have no mood to go out..
since then, dah memang xda feeling nk celebrate new year ni..

2011 - pergi terengganu, tiba2 dah pukul 12 lebih kt homestay budak2 ni dok buat tutorial pakai shawl..haha
2010 - yep, i went to the curve..tu pun sbb bwk syipa n keri..kalau tak mmg dok umah je..
2009 - masa ni la yg keje bonita tu..
2008 - pegi supper ngm family kat cyberjaya..

so, yeah it's plain boring..but i love it..
mungkin i'm getting older, but heck, who cares? i prefer to be a lazy bum sitting comfortably in my house..

2011

what have i achieved in this whole year?
bazir duit - checked!
kerja - checked!
yeah, i never have any resolution towards new year..
target? ada la but not resolution..
what is the most i can be proud of ialah, what was actually my target in 2012, i achieved it this year..
ye, saya berjaya membeli rumah =)
masih belum settle the paperwork due to lawyers' thingy, but i already got the house's keys since september!
tapi rumah tu utk investment..sbb masih belum mampu duduk sendiri..
insyaAllah, target kalau gaji dah 3.5k n above, baru boleh duduk situ..
sbb the distance frm my workplace, the monthly payment etc, no i cant afford it yet..
but at least i can call it my own =) (despite it would be bank's, tp byr bulan2 smpai 30thn akn dtg -_-)
i'm proud to be a 25yrs old with a house as an asset =) ye, sy berjaya dapat kunci sebelum birthday..yeay!

gadgets..
things that i thought i would never have, but i came to have it.
i got my bb (n lost it), my ipad n another bb..
thanks to credit card! bermakna saya semakin byk utang..
no no no, it's not healthy, believe me!
but i'm trying my best to minimize the hutangsssss..setakat ni, i've managed well =)

kerja..
i'm hanging in there =)
makin lost interest, tapi saya okey..
masih seorang pemalas, tapi berjaya menyiapkan kerja2 yg diberi..
so i think, i'm doing ok =)
masih tiada perancangan utk tukar kerja..n masih tiada rezeki..
everybody who started job there around my time, ramai dah takde..
rezeki diorang lebih baik =)

er ape lagi?


love life?
hahaha..again..HAHAHA
ok i dont mean sound pathetic, but i dont actually care about it..
ye, saya masih single..dan i'm enjoying it..
jgn kata i just wrote this because i'm in denial..
believe me, i'm perfectly happy to be single..
come to think about it, kalau aku tak single, mesti takde harapan nak memiliki rumah..
see, how grateful i am to be single.
meroyan desperately was never on my list..
kalau Tuhan nk bagi, adalah kan?
doa tetap doa, tapi selebihnya kerja Dia =)

ape lagi? ape lagi?

life lesson?

well byk yg aku belajar dlm 2011 ni.
the value of friendship, family n love.

family, saya dapat kakak ipar baru n one n only =)
dia dah mengandung 3 bulan, insyaAllah semua baik n i'm having another niece/nephew mid of nxt yr!
papa n mama asyik tak sihat..
even m not comfortable to stay at home (sbb ntah perangai dr asrama) i'm trying my best utk balik whenever i can..jenguk diorg at least..
adik beradik..er mcm tu la jugak..bettter dr when i was younger, stahun kdg2  x ocntact..
skrg masing2 pkai bb, so pape bsg je bbm grup..hahaha

friends..
lesson 1 - hargai kawan yg da lama ngn korang. especially bila korang da ada someone new in ur life, sedarlah kwn2 yg ada skrg dan sejak dulu yg tolong tongkatkn korg masa jatuh terduduk. jgn ada org baru, hati kwn2 yg lama ni korang buat mcm bola. kekalkan tradisi sama mcm pegi kenduri sama2, hang out skali skala..etc..betul, aku pun kurang jumpa kwn2 lama due to the geographical reason (pdhl kl je pn) m trying my best utk jumpa yg mana bole whenever i can
lesson 2 - jgn buruk perangai. kalau kt luar cantik perangai tp kt rumah mcm celaka pn tak guna jugak. especially dok pegi cite wayang drama makyong segala bagai kt org luar kan. shame on u..
lesson 3 - try ur best not annoy ppl. aku rasa n aku pasti aku pun ada perangai annoying..sbb tu aku malas bersosial skrg, takot ter'annoy' org lebih..haha tp kamon, sedar diri..tu la gunanya org suruh muhasabah diri setiap kali sebelum tidur. n sedar that the world doesn't revolves around u. especially tentang part menceritakan betapa bahagianya or betapa sedihnya diri kt semua org..skali skala, bole terima, byk kali kala, menjengkelkan..n another reason aku jarang apdet fb n twitter..hahaha

love?
er aku kurang arif ttg hal ini..so aku cte berdasarkan org sekeliling aku la eh...
it wont be yours melainkan it is yours.
selagi belum nikah, belum tentu hak milik kau
cinta la kejap mana pun, lama mana pun, kalau dah sah jadi milik kau, benda tu dah certain..
sebelum tu, byk benda kena tempuh, kena duga..
just appreciate them for what they are, you'll be happier than you could ever be..

as for me, as hard as it it, i am happy
at least for now..

okla, need to get ready..
kejap lagi khairi sampai aku tak siap lg ada kena bebel..
da la malas nk kuar ni sbenarnya..
seb bek nk pegi dinner ngan a good bunch of people, a family =)

so, toodles 2011..
welcome 2012..
hopefully u'll do good n kind and bring joy n prosperity to me, my loved ones n ppl around me..

ok, bye!

Lion-Fish