..bon appetite..

you're only a dinner set
when you're with a man who serves breakfast set

..slap me, please slap me hard..

ak pnh ckp, looking at sum1 dat u like/love while they're sleeping is sumtg


n it made me cry..

gosh..i do realize how stpd i am..wut an idiot i m..bt..bt..argh..bodo..!!

plz..slap me hard..wake me up from dis stupid dream dat m living in..



i noe i've been saying dis hundreds of times but..

i do feel dis is d last..

is it?



hmm nanges like an idiot..nsb bek de x sdar..if not mst kne marah..
msti de akn kate i told u bla bla bla..
msti de kate, c how dependent u r..
msti de kate, u r selfish n ignorant..

*sigh~

bt cyg..
thnx 4 meeting me today..
thnx 4 d dinner..
thnx 4 d movie..
i njoyed our time..u me n fz..
syg nina xda..



sumhow i look at u, i remember all those things in d msg...
it's juz a fling n it means nothing..
n d thing, it means nothing..


slap me, hard plz..

..there's gotta be somebody..

pnah dgr lagu pd tajuk d ats oleh nickelback?
dgr la..seswai utk org yg single spt ku ini..hehehe

sbelum ape²...
my 7th sem has officially ended..!!
so i got 1 more sem to go..
arap² ak akn grad on time =) insyaAllah..

ouh ya..aritu papa ade msg..saje tnye khbar ank de yg ehm x dgr kate ne..
sembang pasal pinggan royal albert, tp outcome nye?

amy: xpela..nnt kalu b.cik kawen, xda la susah sgt nk cr pinggan meja pengantin
papa: kalu pkai utk kamu kawen ape salahnya :-) :-) (erk???bior betul)
amy: hahaha..tu kena cari calon dulu (gelak nk cover musykil)
papa: mulakanlah pencarian..mane tau ade org nk anak papa ni (erkkkk????????)

oke, dat was not our typical normal conversation ok...bior btul papa ne??? seyes..ak suspect k.dik yg gatal reply msg aku..sbb ade smiley sgale bgai..seyes mdatangkn kemusykilan tahap tertinggi.. seyes...hahahaha seyes ak confuse..btul ke ayah aku yg msg dgn aku????

nxt..keadaan hati? sudah mati barangkali..sudah tiada rasa ape²..sudah malas maw rasa ape².. ye, mgkin at times ak akn jd vulnerable n crying myself out..bt then, sumtym crying is comforting kn?

ak mgkin xdpt apdet blog..bgantung pd lokasi kediaman ak spjg cuti sbulan ne..kalu ak brada d sunway; mgkn bule la apdet..kalu dok d smyh aje, x lah kot..depends..kalu ak dbenarkn bkerja, mb ak bkerja d bkt cerakah kot..tgkla nnt gmana..huhuhu

skrg; mari kte blibur..!! ye, ak sudah bole mengatakn epy hols kwn²..!!

..kembali kepada memori..

abg long was here last nite..!!
huhu sgt ske..
ainina msg kate abg long call maw jupe..
da lama x jupe..
last skali jupe pn ms de dtg swichtec tnjuk kete (huh)..

jupe abg long pn da lewat smlm..da kul 12 lebey da..
org tua tu pulak nk mkn nasi..so menuju la ke d nangka (sbb tatau mkn mane yg sdap yg still buka pepagi bute..huhu)..
memule ucop pn ade..tp ms otw, tetbe da x nmpak da lori..abg long kate ucop segan pkai comot² sbb dorg kn bru blk dr site..
huh ngade ucop ne..bknnye mkn kt 5 star hotel pn..lempang kang..huh..

kami berempat pn mkn laaa late dinner..xle pgl supper sbb mkn berat..huhu
bcte psl abg long..
sejukkkk ati dgr ble de sbut "adik² aku ne"..
trase diri begitu dhargai..huhuhu

bsembang lama gk ngn abg long..
ye ar cte psl de je da berejam..
pastu cte psl kami pn, mengambil masa gk..
huhuhu puas ati dpt luahkn prasaan kt abg long =)
nnt kte pegi bcuti eyh abg long..huhuhuhu

tau kami blk kul bape??
kul 3.30 pg..mesti org keje d nangka pn bengang je tgu ktorg blah..huhu
tp xpe, ak puas ati dpt jupe abg long..
besh..!!

thanx abg long melawat kami d cni..kami sayang abg long..!! =)



hmm cuti ne maw keje ngn abg long ke keje kt bkt cerakah?
ade idea x?
huhuhu

..aku bukan siapa-siapa untukmu..

hmm semua org da abes paper..aku je blom ag (ye classmate ak pn blom)..ahad baru officially my 7th sem ne tamat..aish, lmbt nye...tp std pn blom :D

badan ak kesakitan =( smlm pas dak umah ku yg 2 itu meninggalkn rumah terus kemas umah..huhuhu ak, nina n eila abes ubh seme blk..serabut ak tgk umah..basuh dapur, ubah itu ini.. mlm nye tolong hns agkt barang lk.. ouh ya my hsemts for nxt sem:

1. nur ainina ahmad
2. fazila aziz
3. nurul hanis mohd nasir
4. amirah salwani abbas (wah ak msh igt nama penuh die..!!)
5. sape eyh sorg ag, mmbr c mirah

huhuhu saje nk mglemerkn hsmet ku..xdek keje..hasil dr mengemas umah, tlg hns n biah (biah jd jiran dpn umh) angkt barang, ak kesakitan blkg badan arine..huhu tangan sakit, my back hurts..huhuhu tp arine bjalan x hengat dunia..hehehe

nxt, sape x ske dgr luahan perasaan or jiwang karat besi buruk jgn proceed

hurm..guyz, tell me..
wut else shud i do or say when every word spoken is wrong n every action done is disaster?

seyesly, m at my wit's end..ak da tatau maw wtpe da..ckp sket salah..buat lebey sket dikata ak tlalu dependent..padahal, as far as m concern ape yg ak wat, xda bezanye ngn ape yg ak slalu wat for past 5 months ne..so, ape lagi salah ak? ape ag ak patut wat? suruh jgn dependent, ak x msg pn over a day..kalu msg pn juz wish smoge av a great day/week ahead..tp ble da senyap sehari lebey msti la tdetik rasa risau d ati kn..ble call, dkate dependent..waaaaaaaaaa dlu ak slalu call, de x ckp lk cmtu..nape skang cmtu? uhuk uhuk..

knape?
knape time ak x eran nk msg dolu², dia tnye nape ak senyap..
knape time ak x eran maw kasitau ak da nk pulang ke, maw ke mane² ke, ade la yg msg "bgtau nina je?huh baru nk gtau org"..
knape time ak x eran nk salam or say gudbye sbelum bpisah ade org call "awk lupe buat ape td?slalu sbelum blk awk salam ngn org kn?"..
knape ms ak nyanyi "baiknya kupergi, tinggalkn dirimu, sejauh mungkin utk melupakan"..pastu kn ade makhluk tu tetbe jawab "mcm la jauh sgt melaka kl..mcmla awk x cuti, x balik cni..awk pn igt jalan g puncak alam kn"..
knape time ak x kisah pn akn kehadirannya dalam idup ade org ym nina "nina, ko x ksah ke ak kawan ngn mija?yela ak ne kn..."
knape time ak x jatuh sayang ade org msg dr BANDUNG ckp "yela, org kn jahat..still nk ngorat awk evn.."..

knape dia ckp all those things ms ak xperlukn, xsayang dia? bole x aku kate seme tue bllsht?

you will always be in my life
even if i'm not in your life
cause u're in my memory

cyg..
jgn risau, org pegang pd janji org..i noe where i stand, n i will nvr forget dat..i've known all along dat sumday i'll lose u..bt i nvr tot it wud b dis fast..tp sumpah..org xpenah regard awk as my boyfriend..org slalu sdar diri..tp ape yg awk nk dr org sbenarnye? org rs ape yg org wt same je ngn ape org av been doing for past 5 months ne..bt slap me hard if m wrong..org tau org teruk sgt smpai awk kate org dependent, SELLFISH..n seyes, org da tatau nk watpe da..seyes org da buntu..org da minta kt awk, kalu btul u dun want me in ur life anymore PLZ gtau org..dun keep me in d dark..tell it straight to my face..tu je org minta..

cyg..
keep in ur mind..
awk kenangan terindah org..
u'll owez be there, in my memory..
seyes, org xkn lupakn awk..
tp org tau, mudah bg awk lupakn org kn..n it's gud for u..
org sehina org ne x patut pn dikenang =)
thanx for being in my life evn utk sekejap..
thnx bg org epy evn utk seketika..
thnx wat org bahagia..even utk sedetik..


xpela, da nanges teruk da ne..da la rasa cam nk kne flu je ne...


p/s: maaf entry drama kerajaan...da x terluah kt sape..so luahkn kt cni..

..onLy fooLing mYseLf..

hmm sudah smpai d bumi mlk..
seyesly, m mentally n physically exhausted..
mau x nye, gado ngn org, kne marah ngn org, menanges psl org...
seme ade..seyes pnat..

maw tnye pd kamo seme...
wut is wrong with dis pictures??

ye..seseorg tiada =(
misses those times when four of us were together..seyesly =(


well ak ade paper day after tomorrow..sungguh malas maw mbaca subj BACA ini..hmm da lama x tdo ngn lil D..eh salah little D ngn gmok jr..rindu pada kamo..jap ag kte tdo together² ye sayangs ♥..hurm ble maw std ne..

td jupe lil D, fz, n len2..g mnum jp sbb dorg xle wt keje, server down..smpt gk g karaoke ngn dorg..huhuhu sgt ske time itu..sbb ak rindu zaman dolu² ☺ like i said, if only i cud turn back time..

aritu lil D bg mende kt bwh ne..thnx cyg, evndo tpaksa..so i need 2 more to complete dis collection.. nk z3 ngn db5..cpt²..sape maw kasi??? cyg, kalu nk tolong owg pn lg bgus..kelisa ku slalu x smpai 40 kalu maw isi..huhuhu

k la..nanyte

Cause lately all we do is fight
And every time it cuts me deeper
Cause something’s changed
You’ve been acting so strange
And its taking its toll on me
without you-hinder

..bila rasaku ini rasamu..

few things happened..seyesly, ak menyesal..


btul ckp mereka..ak x pk org len..ak pk diri ak je..btul la tu..teruk kn ak?


hmm..n i..n i can feel dis wud b d end.. *sigh~ i've done enuf damage for this 'relationship'.. n i noe he av sum1 else to b there for him..so bg dia, xda guna m here kn...

juz..juz dat i hope he'll remember all d things we've been thru..d memories of four of of us..wut we've shared..ms lepak kt mmz dlu after work..ikut abg long gila pegi karaoke la ape la tgh2 mlm..mkn nasi lemak ayam kt darussalam..cyg, igt x korg aja ktorg men pool kt asia cafe..huhu n it was d last time pn kte men xcpt yg sharilnye last day tu..igt x kte men bowling ngn reen n epul...yg ms last day ktorg LI kte men ngn abg mat =) hmm igt x kte g sgmt ms knduri kawen bro..igt x kte g melaka..hmm igt x? *sigh~

smlm pegi the curve..us without lil D..trase hmm sdikit janggal..bkn sbb ak xda partner..sbb we used to b four of us..last night sgt mengingatkn ak how close we used to be..bgurau2, btepuk tampar =( kalu karaoke msti berebut nk nyanyi la..hehe tp *sigh~ tp tu seme dlu..b4 all dis fights..b4 all dis stupid arguments =( b4 we drifted apart =(

if only i cud turn back time.. =(