..remember..

tarikh: 25 oct 2008
tempat: taiping resort, taiping, perak
perkara: setelah hidup 22 tahun n 23 ari, utk pertama kalinye ak ditampar d muka.. ak kne igt ini sbb ak blom pnah kene tampar n yg tampar bkn papa...ak kene igt sbb ak bkn kne tampar skali tp dua kali di tepi mata belah kiri...ak kne igt sbb yg tampar ak tu prasan de bagus, de kate ak kurang ajar, tp de xpnah pk ape yg dia pnah buat..ak kne igt sbb ak masih rasa sakit kepala akibat kena tampar n masih terasa spt bengkak pd muka belah kiri...ak kne igt, sbb it leads to another thing yg ak kne igt sbb ianya mb mjadi titik noktah pd ape yg mbuatkn ak epy...


tarikh: 25/26 oct 2008
perkara: i made d biggest stupid mistake in my life..seyesly, ak x bniat pn..niat ak juz maw luahkn prasaan pd sesorg, sbb ak tgh sedey sgt...
dear, i am very sory..seyesly org xda niat..org tatau..org juz nk bcerita to sumbdy..ble awk xreply msg org igt awk tdo..so org juz kept on sending msg sbb nk ilangkn rasa sedey..sory sgt²..i noe u wont forgive me for dis..n i accept it cuz i noe it's unforgiveable..tp maafkn org..org x bmaksud pn...org minta maaf...



ouh~ ak sakit kpale yg amat..

..trase diri sgt...

hmm...
pnt sgt...
mental, physically n emotionally..
keje sgt blambak mgu ne..
test juga mengundang pada kejatuhan ekonomi eh emosi..
presentation juga bgolek2 menimpa..
aduh~


hmm..
lil D pn senyap je..
well as usual kalu x tego de dlu, mmg de xkn anta kbr brite..
kalu ade tu, sgt btuah laaaa diri ini kalu dia maw anta sms dlu..
td pn igt de skype, rupenye msg tah zaman tok kaduk blenye..

skrg sgt bosan..
mmg ade keje maw dbuat..
tp byk sgt smpai x tbuat..
penat...
bosan...

td..td..
td maw anta msg pd dba utk mengatakn ak bosan..
jari lajuuuuuuuuuuu je type msg..
pastu lajuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuu je type name lil D..
haish..
sdg cuba sdaye upaya utk tidak msg de..
sbb xnk dri rasa pathetic sgt..
sbb de xmsg ak..so ak cube x msg de..
ye ar, dlu pndai je de msg ak..
skrg alu ak xmsg dlu maw ke de contact ak?
dlu maw je tpon ak..
tp skrg? kalu de tpon tu sgt laaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaa beruntung diri taw..
*sigh~


sbenarnyekn..ak da pnat utk rasakn diri ak sgt pathetic..pnat feeling sorry for myself..ak x cari pn benda ne..malah i tot i've tried enuf utk deny menda² ne seme..bkn ak yg msg² dlu...bkn ak yg tnya rindu ke x dlu..bkn ak yg slalu call dlu..tp skrg?skrg?skrg ak rasa sgt laaa thegeh²..sbbnye?de da biasakn ak ngn benda² tu..padan muka aku..!! =_=


hmmmm i'll b away for d weekend..





ahhhh hausmet ku memasang lagu "tak bisa memilihmu"...
ak sedey laa dgr lgu ne..sbb lagu ne laa slalu watkn ak nanges sbb mmg btul pn ade de ckp dlm lagu...aish tgk tu...pathetic...

..x ske..!!..

sy xske perasaan ini..
sy x ske rasa bgini..
sy xske sedey begini..
sy xske terasa bodo begini..
sy xske argument begini..
sy xske benda yg same jd argument..

sy tau sy slh...
tp sy rasa sy da made an effort utk telan aje seme..
tp xle ke kamo pn make an effort utk jgn buat sy rasa bodo @ stupid @ dumb @ idiot?
sy rasa sy da made an effort..
sy rasa la..
kalu x, slap me hard..!!plz



tell me..
perempuan mana yg kamu knal bole simpan rasa jealousnye?
perempuan mana yg kamu knal bole tsengeh bke kamu ckp ttg org len?
perempuan mana yg bodo minta maaf stiap kali dia yg terasa hati?
perempuan mana yg sebodoh aku dan sebangang aku?


kalu ada tell me, ak maw wat society club dgn mereka supaya ak rasa x bodoh sgt jd d only idiot ppl yg bole simpan rasa jealous, tsengeh ble ckp ttg org len n minta maaf stiap kali ak yg trasa ati..

nothing feels right when im not with you
sick of this dress and these Jimmy Choos.
taking them off cause i feel a fool
trying to dress up when im missing you.
ima step out of this lingerie
curl up in a ball with something Hanes.
in that i lay, with nothing but your t-shirt on.
oh, with nothing but your t-shirt on.

..kaLu kuceN kate kucEn..

kesan daripada insiden aritu, ak dikerah pulang ke rumah ayah bonda..
tp singgah d sunway bjumpa kakanda n kesayangan hati ouh~ epy d cni
jupe juga kesayangan ati yg sorg lagi tu..
n abg long kesayangan yg dtg tunjuk rx8 nye (wah rugi x nek kete tue aritu..)
xpe, jupe abg long ada hasil, dpt wit raya =) hehehehe gumbira d cni

ptg sabtu tu kelam kabut blk semenyih..
da la ngn byk kete nye, smpai je umh sunyi sepi...
rupenye dorg kuar ade dner kt damansara..
huh kalu taw ku bfoya² ag taw..
tp xpe, mlm tu mdpat rehat secukupnye...

pg td mama kejut, kate nk kuar mkn kt pelita..
tp perjalanan kami smpai d bangi je..
g umh aunty noraini mkn nasi dagang..
disebabkn mama mandi air teh n b.cik tgedik² nk g men golf, trus blk..huhuhu
ms kt umh, mengambil masa tgk kittens bru..

hmmm c momot ngn merah(xmerah pn, kunen) branak aritu..
momot dlu yg bsalin..dpt 5 ekor..
ank momot gmok² mok mok..
elok ar tu..mak comot momot..ank gmok mokmok..
c merah sbenarnye bsalin dpt 5 anak gk..
tp maid ak kata 3 da mati, so tgl 2 ekor je..
seko kecik kale itam..
seko besar kale kunen..
cian yg itam tue, kaki de da cacat..
tbelit benang pastu kne tindih ngn mak de kot..

ne ank² c merah

ne yg kunen besar...
ne yg kecik itam..nmpk x kaki blkg de 1 da xda..cian kn...


ne lk ank² momot..

ne xreti dok diam..nk amek gmba pn susah..
ne diam je de..cube tutup pwot tu cket

ne de kurus sket, pastu byk kale putih

ne gmok...!!!!
yg ne pn reti dok diam cket..x mcm yg 1st tue..memekak je..


tp kn..ank momot ade gaya nk jd kucen yg bulu panjang..mcm yg 4 beradik dulu..waaa rindu sama mereka.. tp yg pasti perangai, gaya tdo ada macam moyang dorg c dida tue...penuh kemengadaan...badan ikut nenek dorg, c shadow..badan pendek...

hmmmm ne lil D nk pilih kucen sbenarnye..mcm pilih brg kt ebay lk..



ouh~~ atmosfera yg kurang menyenangkn on air..
tgk emoticon ne teringat kt lil D n super D



nanyte

..bAd day..

hmm
memula dgr cte x brape nk besh sgt..
pastu jd benda x besh...

hmmm ble jd benda x besh..
ag laaaa ak merasai benda yg x besh tue..

hm ak kesian sbenarnye..
nape org yg btanggungjawab x rasa ape yg ak rasa..
instead, sorry to say de wat bodo je..

m half into his shoes..
ak da trase susah d ctu..
n ak pn da rasa bsalah kt abg motor tue..
bsalah gle sgt yg amat laa...
siyes sbb abg tu guna motor dia utk g keje..
kenderaan de pegi cari rezeki...
seyes ak rasa bsalah gle..
tu baru motor..
blom kete..

tp knape org yg wat benda lg teruk dr ak mcm x bsalah..
last i heard, de wat bodo je..
ak kesian sbb tuan kenderaan yg tpaksa bsusah payah ats kesalahan org len..
pgunaan tanpa permission n accident..
wasnt it bad enuf?

ak pelik org bole wat as if nothing happened..
hmmm sdgkn tuan empunya kenderaan tu sgt baik thadap kte..
org yg rapat pn xda initiative ke utk nasihat sket²?
org yg baik thadap kte, mkn kte slama kte bkawan dia yg bayar, dia tolong kita, layankn karenah kte..korg xrasa kesian ke kt dia????
skrg ne dia susah...
tiada kenderaan nk cari rezeki utk keluarga..
u guyz juz act as if nothing to do wit korg..
sdangkn puncanya korang..

no..
ak bkn nk salahkn korg 100%..
not evn my car pn..
tp as kawan² yg rapat ngn dia, sory to say: seyesly korang dun give a damn lgsg..!!
ak rasa terkilan ble yg kuar dr mulut ble ak tnye solution; abestu de nk pegi keje ngn ape?
x fikir ke tuan punya kenderaan pegi keje dgn ape slama ne?
x fikir ke??
x fikir langsung ke????
padahal ape yg kte mkn ble kuar seme dr duit yg d cari gune kenderaan yg da accident tue..
accident yg ada sbb korang..

ye..ak maybe sounds harsh here..
da lama ak pendam benda ne..
sbb ak xnk things jd x besh...
tp ak sgt frustrated dgn pernyataan yg kuar td..
apetah ag ble ak da rasa ape rasanya ble bsalah dlm accident..
bkn sbb tuan punya kenderaan org yg ak sayang..
sbb tuan punya kenderaan sgt baik terhadap kte..
sbb tuan punya kenderaan x penah bkira dgn kte..
sbb tuan punya kenderaan penah tolong kte masa susah..
sbb tuan punya kenderaan kawan kte..



pnah gk ak tpikir..
ms ak dpt taw yg org bwk kuar kete ak d whole nite n bkn stakat lunch..
kalu la jd pape masa tue? ape org tu akn buat?
sbb stakat pengetahuan ak org tu dpt permission dr ak utk lunch shj..
bkn pegi bjalan² sampai ke subuh..
n permission ak bkn utk org bwk pulang ke rumah len..
cuz my car was supposed to b at pgsapuri after lunch until i get back...


tp tu laa....
x seme org pk camne kte pk..
yg org pk, ah kedekut..
yg org pk, bkn kenderaan ko pn ko nk kecoh²..


bkn suruh ada rasa bsalah, tp sematkn sdikit rasa bertanggungjawab...



ye ak msh rasa bsalah pd abg motor..
tu motor dia bawa pegi mencari rezeki..

best asek getting free rides and escapes freely wit no responsibility...

..handbagplanet..

ye...ak tiada keje..
eh salah..ak byk keje...tp xda mood maw buat..
so ape kate tgk cni

handbagplanet
d mana anda bole dpt handbag free..
nthla..
saje je sbb bosan...

nnt ak apdet len ye

..11 oct 08..

welcome to the nu week of endless work..

hm weekend bru ne pulang ke rumah ayah bonda..
ade mkn² sket...
agpn maw anta perdana ke rumah...de sgt mengabehkn wit ku...mane tahan..tank 2 kali ganda dr slk ak..huhu xle xle...

ari sbtu berada di mentari...jupe lil D =)
de kate de x pndai wat surprise..
bt dear, u've surprised me :)
de dtg mbawa cake n sekuntum mawar merah...ske ske ske
sy sgtttttt epy epy epy..hehe

hurm ak pnah tulis dat i nvr receive a flower bfore..kalu ade pn lil D bg munge choc yg ak xmkn ag smpai skrg..huhuhu
so officially, org yg pertama menghadiahkn ak munge adalah en LIL D..!! (nama sebenar dirahsiakn)...

cyg..maceh sgt2..awk wat org saaaagattttt epy dat i cried sbb org sgt touched ngn ape awk wt kt owg..huhu thnx for ur sweet gesture..well, u av d privilege as d 1st one =) thnx a lot dear.. muahhxxx n i told u, i dun need presents or anything to b epy as long as i got u around..thnx

huhu i made sumtg 4 him too...tu namenye sbb ketiadaan kerja..n mmg pnah janji maw bg frame cam ak nye..tp da xda..so bg je la yg len...tp ak rs cm lg cntik je..hehehhee

well slain dr tgk muvi, nothing much goin on..aritu tgk cte eagle's eye ngn lil D..oklaaaa... tp cam ade cte lebey kurg cmtu je..bt ak x igt cte pe..

aritu went out wit hns,lza n dba tgk cte kami..well ak rasa byk gle org da wat review cte ne..so there's no need for me to do the same..ape yg ak leh ckp, buang yg keroh, amek yg jernih..huhuhu

lagi??
hmm other than i got loads of works to do this week n plus tests plus mock presentation for psm..mmg ak xle nk start wat keje..waaa tensen gk...sbb ak tatau nk wat pe..
ak B.U.L.U.R (ye mmg ak eja blur mcm tue)...

ouh ya...ak sakit bahu...mmg xle pikul brg berat ar..so shud i consider a new lappy???? hmmmm naaahhhhhh