..counting d dayz..

hmmmm.....
arini kn..
arini da msuk thn bru dlm calendar Islam..ms blk td ms lalu dpn surau kt playground tu, dorg bru nk bc doa akhir tahun..
hmm tetbe sayu je rasa ati..nape diri ne x b'ubh ag eyh?? bkn xmo berubah, tp tahla..mgkin diri x cukup kuat ag kot..nth..tu seme alasan je kn..bole berubah kalu nk, tp kne ade keinginan sendri la kn..


ms awal muharram lepas, sok tu kn cuti..on dat day la 1st tym lepak bsama d devilz..hmm miss dat moment so much..teringat melepak bsama hfz n ainina aritu kul 2 3 pg..bsembang ttg memories from d 1st nite ktorg lepak bsama smpai laa today...all d gud memories..
yeah, sumtimes i DO wish i cud turn back d time..mcm xnk rapat sgt ngn de or FALL in love wit him..so xda la jiwa ati ak sakit cam skrg..tp apekn daya..benda da jadi kn..


hm tgl ag 2 ari nk keje..trasa sgt mls yg amt nk keje..huhu
ye ar target ak da lepas...da lebey da pn..so da tentu da komisen d janjikn da dlm tangan..huhu tu yg rasa maalaaaasssss sgt nk g keje..dengan customer ku asek dkebas org kn, ag ar ak mls nk wat keje..huhu xpe cik ramiza, tgl 2 ari je ag..pastu leh bsenang lenang...huhuhu

ak ne kn, wit xda..mkn pn x mkn..tp ade ati ag nk g sopin...rambang mata dowh kalu keje kt pyrmd..tmbh ag tym sale cani...huhu sakit ati je nengok nye..xda la ak ne kaki sopin kn, tp sjk 2 menjak ade wit sendri ne, gatalll je tgn tu..huhuhu aritu ak mntk ainina marah ak, sbb ak da gatal tangan n otak terpikir nk beli bju esprit utk lelaki itu..huhuhu jgn..jgn...pk mkn perut sendri..

hmm ckp psl perut..huhu bkn nk mbangga, tp sdikit terconfuse..ade beberapa org ckp ak da kurus..huhuhu ye ke? ade skali lil D pnh mention ak nmpk kurus n pesan jgn lupe mkn..hmm ade dak2 diva ckp ak kurus sket..elin pn ckp cmtu..d latest, smlm cik ai dtg jupe ak kt kdai..ak pnh jupe de skali je kot, tu pn xpnh bckp kot sbelum ne..huhu de dtg n ckp ak da kurus..huhu musykil tu..sbb org yg jupe ak btahun yg lepas yg ckp cmtu..huhu da kurus sgt ke ak ne? tp kn suar skinny ak yg gu*** tu pn da cam longgar je..erk..tp pwot still ade ar..hahahaha senget.. smpai ade la yg tnye ade masalah ke? huhu well, kondisi ati mmg tidak begitu baik tp ianya tiada effect pn pd selera mkn ku..huhu tetapi kondisi poket yg mematah selera ak..da sminggu ak bwk bekal roti g keje..hebat x? hahahaha

kwn2 ku sudah memulakn operasi mencari bf..huh mereka bgumbira tanpa ak..ne xle jd ne..ak pn kne memulakn operasi gk ne..hahaha sengal..ok, ok bknnye desperate oke..juz utk mgumbirakn ati yg duka lara ne je..eceehhh...hurm ape salahnye mcari seseorg utk melupakn seseorg kn? ke salah? hmmmm....

aritu kata2 k. hana wat ak t'pk..hmm kembali mjadi neutral spt sblum ak knal ngn lil D..tp k.hana pn kate susah apetah ag org tu sgt baik kt kte..yeah..mmg susah..nape laaa ak jenis xle meninggalkn org..i dunno how to leave sum1 evndo dat person really hurts me..nthla cane pn ak kne tgu de ckp "i dun wanna noe, hear or av anytg to do wit u anymo"..*sigh~ tu kembali mbuatkn ak t'pk; he's been avoiding me all dis while..kalu btul de xmo rasa bsalah, y didnt he ask me to stop bothering him..tp de lebey ske wat ak t'tnye n marah ak ble ak tnye..which again jd salah ak..no..no..ak x ckp de mmg salah..bt then does he evr consider how does it hurt me? he said dat i nvr undrstnd, so ape yg ak wat slame ne? ak wat bodo kot..huhu which yeah, m dat stpd to begin with...lalalala

hurm tu la igt nk wat post review dis 08..tp tgkla..tenet pn ade xda..seb bek je leh dpt..huhu

till then..

..apdet sikijap..

hmmm arini ari xmas..
seb bek keje noon..
leh tdo lmbt...

da lame blog ne x b'apdet..
kekurang lingkaran jalur lebar amatlh mbataskn niat..
hmmm

ak da jupe solution utk mengisi masa lapang ketika wktu break kalu xda wit..
silalh ke popular utk mbaca buku..
mph pyramd x besh, kecik..
popular ag besh evn xda ar se besh mph midvalley yg siap ade fountain tue..
huhuhuu

pnt la keje..pnt sgt...
tgl 2k ag nk dpt target sales ak..wah byk nye...sehari kne wat lebey kurang 400-500..
kalu dpt target at least 450 da dlm tangan da bulan dpn..huhuhu

aritu da wat perancangan ninako..aritu kami jln2 g subang parade (ouh, kami sudah bosan pegi pyramid)..
kami jupe baju chantek..hehehe
nnt nk beli laaa...bju beriadah..
da wat plan sgale bagai da ngn nina..
da ajk da pihak yg bminat..ngeee

plan bsama ninako:

• kami nk mkn kt naili's..sbb xda org pnah bwk kami tp sebok2 je cte dpn kami yg mkn kt ctu besh(ok,kesiankn kami) so kami akn bwk dri sendri pegi..huh
• kami nk beli bju chantek d subang parade itu
• kami nk g beriadah..plan nye ke euphoria..hahahaha

so mb 2nd week or 3rd week (bgantung pd ble nk jd oks [org kaya sekejap] ) of jan kami akn berada d kwsn liputan kl ye..hehehhe jom ainina, kte bgumbira..!!

kondisi ati?
pada tahap kritikal amat yg sgt da..
arini da smpai peak point yg x thn..
pg2 da mimpi lil D..bgn rasa sdey smcm je..trus msg de..pastu argued..pastu ak nanges..
ngh dok diam2 leh nanges ngn kuatnye tetbe (senget tul minah ne)..
pastu ble break call de, ag ar teruk nanges nye..
da x malu da org yg lepak kt michealangelo's tu..huhuhu mengom..
lepas call de call ninako..nanges ag..
arine keje ak nanges je...msuk keje blk mata bengkak..
bodo kn ak..hmmm


hmmmm nnt nk wt summary 2008...tp sok laa..
sbb nk letak gmba seme..n mb akn ade org x akn ske kot...
tp pedulik ape eden...

cte yg akn d include adela, sdikit ttg li, d devilz, ape yg ptt laa..
mule2 igt nk wt 1 post psl d devilz..
tp ble pk blk, mb tgu 10 januari kot..
stahun bsama d devilz..
hhmmm tgk laa..

k laa nanyte..

..my off day..!!..

fuh..stelah pnat bkerja 9 ari..akhirnye ku off juga sok..
sok ari jumaat...seme org keje..
sok mengabehkn wktu off ak bsendirian ar..

hmm tbe² teringt zmn dolu² ms keje kt forest..wktu time suka riang ria..
kalu ari off day mst lil D dtg jupe..bwk lunch ke..or ptg tu tgk muvi..
tp tu dlu la..dolu² punye cte..
skrg? haha jgn arap la..

hmm skrg ne finance ak sgt laaa teruk..huhu
td lepas byr wit bil umah mlk ngn beli sabun (n stelah bjoli beli kfc smlm) wit ak tgl bape hengget je ag..waaaaaa cane ne???
ok ne bkn cte mnta simpati ok..i juz need to get it out so ak x rasa sesak sgt..
hurm lmbt ag nk dpt loan..lmbt ag nk dpt gaji..
ape ak nk mkn dlm 2mgu ne? xkn nk pnjm wit kt k.ida ag kot..bru je pnjam 100 ngn de aritu..
kalu nk pnjm skang mcm la de ade wit..ne kn da tgh bulan..
huhu sape ade idea ape ak nk mkn mgu ne? hurm maka jwb nye, blapar laaaa ak 2 mgu ne..
waaaa :(

mnt ngn mama n papa?
it's a big NO..
bru je aritu mama cte papa da xda wit byr itu ini..so xkn nk mnta kot..
ngn abg ak tu? kem salam laa byk2..
tgkla dlu cane mgu ne..
kalu teruk sgt ak still ade few pounds yg leh tuka..tp rugi gle tuka skang.. *sigh~

kesimpulanye yg dpt d simpulkn = blaparla kamu wahai cik ramiza smpai ujung bulan ne..
sekian, wassalam..huhu

kondisi ati? nth la..bese je
da xnk pk pape..
x smpt nk pk pape sbb pnat..
1 of d reason ak nk kje sbb ak xnk pk pape tmbh ag d wktu begini..
tah laa....nth..

1 persoalan..
knape kte msti rindu pd org yg dun evn think about kte?
okla, 2 persoalan..
knape kte susah nk let go??
ok ok..3 persoalan..
knape ak jatuh ati pd org yg ak sgtttt AVOID utk suka?


btw skali lg..
sok off day ak..
sape maw blanje org yg xda wit ne lunch???
hahaha

..maybe...juz maybe..

pnt la keje..
sakit pinggang..
blk sakit kaki..
raya ne kne keje gk..

hmm igt nk benti pas xmas..

ngh ym ngn nina..igt zmn li dlu..ye ar start bln ne..so mmg byk gle ar cuti time tu..kalu kne weekday ak xblk..so dpt ar g jenjalan..g ou, g round pyrmd utk bape ploh kali ar..g uptown la downtown la..g wat rmbut, potong rmbut..mkn jco..huhu i miss those times..tu x masuk ag blk keje minum, mlm g beriadah..sok pg g keje lmbt..hehehe =) yeah, sgt relax..rindu nyeeee....

well..kalu ditnya kondisi ati ak skrg..sgt la amat yg x bagus..knape?
well d same old brand new thing..hahaha bosan kn?
yeah i need time..time to mend dis stpd heart..well he's going to b unreachable for d whole month..mb more..so who knows kn..ak tatau...de mgkin tau cume he's not telling..huhu
so mb dis is d time i cud get to d old me where i can live my life w/o him..
mb..juz mb..
after all..sooner or later (tp mmg soon ah, xdenye later..haha) mmg de akn tglkn ak kn..
so blaja la woi.. dak kecik pn pn dia blaja tau..ne kn da tua bangka cm ko (erk xda ar bangka pn)..

tpkn..tp kn...u noe wut?
de hafal no fon ak..!!
wah sgt tharu tau..
maceh cyg, owg tharu awk hafal no owg..(pastu ak nanges, bodo..seb bek dok dlm toilet..haha)
hmm sbb de kate maw contact sekembalinya de ke cni slepas bcuti dr unreachable itu..
aish *sigh~

btw...
selamat hari raya aidiladha..

stiap pengorbanan yg dbuat insyaAllah mdtgkn hikmah pd kte kn?

ak sdg bkorban ke? ke mengorbankn diri? mengorbankn ati n perasaan..
tp yg penting, ak yg dikorbankn kot..mcm lembu korban..hahaha
m juz a meat to sum1..

p/s: entri yg d publish after few days..haha nnt la tulis entry len

..swear it all over again..

penat..

kepenatan..

cakit kaki..

sedey ati..

wuuuu smpai ati de..

..hadir dan temani aku, di setiap langkah yg meyakiniku..

pd peminat baju d 2 entry yg lepas;
ade 1 bju ag yg cmtu..

dinner set:
meat, milk, cream soup
serve on bed

gmba x amek,nnt kne marah ngn tuannye kdai..huhu
belikn lil D bju tu pulak ah (amboi, byk wit hg..haha) [nk wt cane, de je laki yg ak leh abeskn wit ak utk masa ini :D]

nxt..
td g cari keje kt pyrmd..mama swoh keje kdai komputer..tpkn..tp..tp ak segan..huhu sbb seme yg jg ctu org cina..pastu elok ak lalu je; "yes miss, nk cari ape"..erk x terrrrkata ak..camno? huhu
ak ne kn pemalu..seyes ak xreti nk cari keje yg walk-in ne..tp nk yg call leceh la plak..ade kdai yg jual gadget n brg2 apple kt ngn asian av tue, ade bg no..shud i call? hurm tgk la cane sok..kalu by ptg sok x dapek keje, blk je smyh sok..huhu dok cni pn xda wit..seb bek pnjam wit k.ida dlu :D ngee

tp kn..seyes ak xda wit skang..mane nk cari wit byr wit sewa bln ne..wit yg ptptn bg aritu yg cover wit yg short tu ak rasa da abes kot..huhu sbb ms nk blk kl aritue da kering sgt da..hurm...

ada yg maw mberi wang..tp..tp..thnx, bt no thnx dear..thnx sbb bniat baik nk ringankn beban org..tp, org xmo wit awk..tmbh ag org bkn tanggungan awk, tanggungjawab awk..u av ur own responsibility..tmbh ag owg tau dis month awk akn byk pkai wit..so, keep it 4 ur own use which u'll need it more than me =) ouh agpn org ade reason yg len sbenarnye..sumtg yg melibatkn rasa ati..so dr org rs yg xbesh, better avoid it kn =)

nxt..
hmm td ms kt pyrmd ak seyesly mbuang masa to meet sumbody..yea, other than job hunting, ak ada jupe beberapa org..then ade sumbody maw jupe..so i wait..tp kalu ak tau, bek ak xyh tgu org tue..ms manusia tu dtg ak ngh bsembang ngn elin..d guy dtg, say 'hi' pn idak then tsengih..pastu he talk on d phone (da abestu, ak bsembang je la ngn elin) pastu mnta excuse nk g jupe kwn kt california fitness..pastu senyap cmtu je..mengom..
ak plan nk g tgk muvi ngn elin, so ak baik ati nye msg la de kot2 nk join..almost sejam kot bru de reply..tau x de wat pe slame de mhilang sejam tu? de pegi workout kt ctu..!! tensen seyh..
agknye de blah dr ctu pn de xkasi tau ak kot..ak blah je la blk..da seme kdai da tutup..siot je..
kalu kate nk jupe ak tp g workout kt c.ftness, bek xyh jupe ak..wat pnat ak CUBA tgu je.. siol tul..huhu
hmm xpnh ak jupe kwn cmtu...sesengal2 kwn2 ak pn, x pnah ag ak jupe pe'el nye cmtu..seb bek ne bru 2 kali ak jupe manusia ne..dat's it..xmo jupe dah..final..!!

nxt..
(tarik nafas jp)
hurm arini kn..arini kn..ak ade buat sumtg yg ak x slalu buat..n arine sgt blebihan..tp insyaAllah ak xkn tjebak permanently laaaa...hurm nauzzubillah..hurm kalu seseorg tu tau, mampos eden..huhuhu

nxt..
maw tgk twilight..
sape maw teman??


sok maw g cr keje ag..wish me luck =)
nanyte..

..as in a way that i nvr wud understand..

tell me..wut does it means when

a guy turned around, took ur hand n put it around his

ok for dat man he wud answer: it's juz an act..it means nothing..

k, fine..

i juz want to hear others...which i noe wud definitely hurt..lalalala bt wth kn..padan muke ak..



nxt..
m in sunway rite now..da 3 mlm da tdo cni..uhuhu nth la..melarikan diri? mgkin..
preparing maself to b alone for future torture? mgkin..
pape pn..m unemployed n i only av empty pockets..mane maw cr wit ne..huhu


ade owg maw kasi wit x? :D ngeee